this seems like a really cynical forum full of angry people who don't give a shit, but if there does happen to be someone out there who has a tiny bit of understanding and they are a guy, can you help me to focus on the future when some guy I was in love in tried to kill me.

Are you a time-traveller?

Are you trying to find a cyber boyfriend or something?

If you can't sort yourself out with the help of friends and maybe therapy, you're just gonna keep ending up in destructive relationships.. a man is *not* a solution to whatever problems you have.. more like an emotional temporary tire sealant than an actual new tire..

What do you mean, he tried to kill you in the future??