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 #1 
Old 2009-01-13, 05:22
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where the buffalo roam
Default the what's is wrong with you or the how healthy are you thread

And im talkin' physical health and mental health.

Physically:
-The joints on my left thumb hurts when i try to bend it (in a normal way), i think its early form of arthritis.
-I can crack my right wrist, ever since I arm wrestled my friend and went to work and lifted 50kg bags of flour into bins, its never been the same.
-My jaw cracks from a amphetamine and ritalin binge i had a few years back, excerbated by the occasional MDMA use which leaves my jaw completely sore
-My lungs are in less than specatular shape
-I smoke ciggarettes
-i get these weird eye floatie things which i think is due to my severe astigmatism (but thanks to modern science and lying about my prescription i no longer am impaired by ocular devices) and marijuana smoking (as marijuana is known to affect ocular pressure, who knows what other eye shenangins it may produce)
-liver damage from various drug use
-i have a nasal condition that causes me to breath very heavily on occasion (although since im very self concious of it, i keep it dialed down to a respectable degree)

other than that im in great shape, im 64.2kg and 5'10 (which isnt the tallest or the ideal weight, but im okay with that)
I can do like 50 pushups, 35 sit ups, and run a K. (for a smoker i think those are very valiant achievements)

Mentally:
-I smoke alot of weed, which has caused some to be somewhat socially awkward. (w/e fuck you)
-I think I have some risidual brain chemistry changes from desperately trying to get high off anything back in my younger days (mainly dxm and amps and opiates, nothing TOO stupid like freon or solvents) but I didnt get too heavy on any of them.
-I have anxiety problems, (the marijuana, im pretty sure is the cause, but i duno why but i still love to smoke)
-I have a bad habit of trying any new e pill that comes around incase it could be return of the good old days when esctasy pills were fucking amazing in toronto (i.e blue diamonds, green butterflys, red transformers, white clovers, etc) i actually prefer these over the straight pure MDMA capsules that have been floating around.

other than that I think im a fairly intelligent individual (although im enrolled at a college, as opposed to a university, but it is an outstanding program that offers co-op), with fairly mentally sound psyche (although today i imagined my dog eating a ciggarette and dying, for some reason) but nothing like rape or murder fantasies, (rape is bad, unless you want to fuck someone and they wont let you lol (louis ck incase ya didnt know))

So totse, what the fuck is wrong with you??
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Old 2009-01-13, 05:29
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Suburbia. (Brisbane)
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Physically:
- Blood disease, non contagious though. Blood has trouble clotting. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thrombocytopenia
- Broken tailbone (I think) :(
- Cigarettes

Mentally:
- Yeah some problems but I don't want to disclose them.
 #3 
Old 2009-01-13, 05:45
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where the buffalo roam
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Lol a broken tailbone takes FOREVER to heal, i remember i hurt it snowboarding once and the next year when i went snowboarding again i realized its been a year since i hurt it . lol

wow thats a pretty rare condition you have there. I dont mean to shit on your condition, but sometimes I wish I had a rare condition, (nothing to srs, something managable) so I could like write a book about how I overcame my issues and became a librarian or something as mediocore.(although it would be very impressive because of my condition). do u have have to like do any crazy to manage it or is pretty much a live as you are kinda rare disease.

and yeah you dont have to disclose ALL your problems i left a few of mine out just in case.
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Old 2009-01-13, 07:06
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where the buffalo roam
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hmm i forgot to add the horrible sleep patterns i have to my list .
 #5 
Old 2009-01-13, 07:06
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Smoking a bong with a kangaroo
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PHYSICALLY:
-I'd have to say my liver is probably not in the best shape, considering I drink alcohol everyday. Also including all the drugs I have ingested thought my life.

Other than that I'm pretty healthy I'm 178Cm's tall and weigh 79Kg's

MENTALLY:
-I have Manic bipolar disorder
-Alcoholism

Life is great, well alright I guess... Just give me a few weeks
 #6 
Old 2009-01-13, 07:19
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Physically: Rather severe myopia which I counter with contact lenses. Possibly minor overall damage due to drugs/booze/smoking. Some fatigue due to chronic insomnia. Beyond that I am 174cm, 65kg (give or take), 18 years old and healthy.

Mentally: Chronic Insomnia; I have had insomnia at varying degrees since I was 15. I have an undeniably additive personality and I suspect that I have or am developing chronic depression, although I honestly can’t tell. I am just going by an internet checklist. I have been called a Narcissist by the majority of the people I have ever known in any intimacy as well, but I take that with a grain of salt.

Other than that the typical emotional and developmental problems which I counter by writing in my diary and crying into my frilly pink pillows. Wah, wah, wah.

Overall I think I am doing fine :)
 #7 
Old 2009-01-13, 07:33
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totse
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I feel like I need to throw up, and I've been sick with cold-like symptoms since Christmas.
 #8 
Old 2009-01-13, 07:45
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where the buffalo roam
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if one of them symptoms include extreme tiredness, and one of your qualities include promisciuity you could have mono/
 #9 
Old 2009-01-13, 09:30
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Physically: anemia, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charcot-Marie-Tooth_diseasehttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charcot-Marie-Tooth_disease, ginger so will get cancer, various joint problems.
Mentally; too much to list.
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Old 2009-01-13, 11:34
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longyearbyen
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Quote:
Originally Posted by infidelguy
if one of them symptoms include extreme tiredness, and one of your qualities include promisciuity you could have mono/


If you've already had it can it come back?
Or is it a one time deal?

*Hops off to WebMD*

-F☺rd
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Old 2009-01-13, 11:41
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Same place as r3vVy
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Quote:
Originally Posted by cant b bothered
Physically: anemia, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charcot-Marie-Tooth_diseasehttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charcot-Marie-Tooth_disease, ginger so will get cancer, various joint problems.
Mentally; too much to list.


[ ] Genetically superior
[x] Ginger
 #12 
Old 2009-01-13, 11:44
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[ ] Genetically superior
[x] Ginger
This is why I'll never reproduce. As you can see, I'm a genetic fuck up and if you frequent S&A, will also know me and sex is bad.

Still, at least the niggers are still below me.
 #13 
Old 2009-01-13, 11:47
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Same place as r3vVy
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This is why I'll never reproduce. As you can see, I'm a genetic fuck up and if you frequent S&A, will also know me and sex is bad.

[ ] Frequent S&A
[x] You're a fuckup.

Tbf.
 #14 
Old 2009-01-13, 11:55
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[ ] Frequent S&A
[x] You're a fuckup.

Tbf.

Is there any reason you're being an ass? Haven't noticed enough of your posts to say it's just you and Jackketch is the only one here I can think of who goes all out on gingers.
 #15 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:01
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Same place as r3vVy
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Is there any reason you're being an ass? Haven't noticed enough of your posts to say it's just you and Jackketch is the only one here I can think of who goes all out on gingers.

[x] Crybaby
 #16 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:09
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[x] Crybaby

Nope, just making the most of totse being a decent speed while it lasts.
 #17 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:14
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Texas
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Jitters. I dont know why but I just dont have steady hands.
 #18 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:29
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Melbourne, Australia
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Physically: Basically I'm somewhat unfit, slightly overweight. Due to working my arse off on saturday nights I guess my weight has been at a certain level for some time.

So far everything is working fine, I don't do drugs and hardly drink enough booze to affect me.

Might need my teeth checked out though.

Mentally: Ummm, I guess the only thing I have a problem with is, is my lack of confidence and lack of motivation.

I'm not like every 3rd totsean who claims to have social problems.
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Old 2009-01-13, 12:30
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physical:

- I think I have carpal tunnel I get really sore wrists..prolly from being on the interweb so much of my life.

- I have poor circulation in my hands and feet..even in 60+ degrees my hands and feet are so cold its like I am dead.

- My eyes are getting pretty bad..I see light in the corners sometimes

- I am sure my stomach is fucked up from the apap and shit I have taken throughout the years due to drug use..

- Cigarettes

Mental:

-Addiction both of opiates and cigs

- Prior anorexic tendencies/always concerned with weight

- Prolly more but thats all I am aware of.
 #20 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:30
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physically:
-Male, 5 feet 11 inches, 200 pounds (I guess that isn't unhealthy)
-I smoke cigarettes, but I'm really trying to quit.
-I smoke weed occasionally, probably once a week
-I drink not very often, I'm probably drunk twice a month
-Play on two soccer teams, and baseball, so that helps
-Going to Shippensburg University next year hopefully
-I have a cold right now which is fucking annoying

Mentally:
-I'd say I'm pretty much on the ball
 #21 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:32
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Melbourne, Australia
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Quote:
Originally Posted by alexander224
Jitters. I dont know why but I just dont have steady hands.


Too much enrgy drinks man.

I guess use it to your advantage.
 #22 
Old 2009-01-13, 12:44
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Texas
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Too much enrgy drinks man.

I guess use it to your advantage.
I guess you could say I'm an over caffeinated person at most times. I seem to get these while I'm at school also where caffeine is practically a banned substance. Its alright, I probably only have Parkinson's.
 #23 
Old 2009-01-13, 13:13
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Melbourne, Australia
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I guess you could say I'm an over caffeinated person at most times. I seem to get these while I'm at school also where caffeine is practically a banned substance. Its alright, I probably only have Parkinson's.

Well if thats the case, hold this cocktail shaker for me :D
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Old 2009-01-13, 13:21
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Texas
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Well if thats the case, hold this cocktail shaker for me :D
I serve drinks shaken, NEVER stirred.
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Old 2009-01-13, 14:00
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Physically I'm pretty much peachy. Healthy weight, although I could do to get in better shape...If I had to run away from an axe-wielding murderer I'd be done for. Also, I'm having serious sleep problems, but I don't know if it's stress-related or what.

Mentally I'm doing fine as well. I might have a problem with being too avoidant, and I'm maybe a bit too shy, and I'm pretty stressed right now and I really don't handle stress well, but there are no serious mental problems that I'm aware of. Although I do have an artistic temperament, which is rather tragic.
 #26 
Old 2009-01-13, 15:51
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where the buffalo roam
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haha im glad to see not everyone on totse has some crippling dibilatating disease or has some kind of serial killer vibe.

shyness seems to be a prevailant trait among totseans. which is interesting... (although i would hardly call it a mental 'problem' , although things would be easier if i could run up to any girl and slap her in the face and stick my finger in her ass)

also i would have assumed alot more people would be physically unfit (seeing how alot of totseans are in the stay at home demographic)

anyways... i would welcome some kind of stress in my life, i dont know if the massive amounts of ganja i toke, but everything is always so laid back and easy going. maybe you should spark up, the stress literally floats away.
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Old 2009-01-13, 16:35
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I'm slightly anemic, and I'm a vegetarian. So I'm tired as fuck most of the time.

Right now I'm really fucking sick too. I don't know what it is but I've been having a really shitty time breathing.
 #28 
Old 2009-01-13, 20:36
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Physically: Slightly hypo/valoglycemic, minor skulliosis, exercise-induced asthma, facial tics due to overuse of caffeine, minor liver problems most likely related to drugs/alcohol

Mentally: Minor OCD, minor ADD, socially awkward
 #29 
Old 2009-01-14, 00:52
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Perth, Western Australia
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Physically: Acne+acne scars (not so bad these days)
Mentally: I Analise everything to such a fine degree that when something bad happens i can't stop replaying the event in my mind for days which makes me feel terrible as though i keep reliving it.
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Old 2009-01-14, 00:58
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where the buffalo roam
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^ oh wow, i do the EXACT same thing, although i wouldnt consider it a bad thing. when something bad happens to me, i think its good that i analyze every aspect of why/how it happened and how i could prevent further occurance of the same problem.
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Old 2009-01-14, 01:56
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Physically:

-Scars (from stabs, slashes and bullets).

-One bullet (Near my spine) that can never be removed.

-Pain in my right leg that (Without heavy medication) impairs my walking.

-Drug addiction that came about through attempts treat the pain in my leg.

-I drink too much.

-Probable Liver damage.

-I coughed up blood the other day.

Mentally:

Maybe some other time. I'm not Inebriated enough to feel okay talking about these things. Let me go ahead and take some more assorted Pharmaceuticals and I'll get back to you.
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Old 2009-01-14, 02:03
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Physically:


-Pain in my right leg that (Without heavy medication) impairs my walking.

-Drug addiction that came about through attempts treat the pain in my leg.

-I drink too much.

-Probable Liver damage.

Mentally:

Maybe some other time. I'm not Inebriated enough to feel okay talking about these things. Let me go ahead and take some more assorted Pharmaceuticals and I'll get back to you.

http://mm.denik.cz/56/8d/dr_house2_sip-300.jpg?
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Old 2009-01-14, 02:05
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I don't give a fuck enough to list anything but the most obvious of things that are wrong with me

Physical-I spit constantly
I have plates in my back and right heel which causes me to limp sometimes.
Heart murmer


mental- I have little or no conscience
I think of killing people daily
I don't give a fuck about anything I can think of
I have an addictive personality and crave drugs I know I shouldn't do anymore.
I think I'm better than just about everyone even in ways that aren't important or make no sense.
I'm just crazy enough to work
 #34 
Old 2009-01-14, 02:48
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Physically: Bad eyesight, very lightweight for my height (but I can eat whatever I want and don't gain a pound!)

Mentally: Officially, nothing, but many people don't feel safe around me because of the topics I enjoy discussing ("fringe" topics, etc.)
 #35 
Old 2009-01-14, 03:14
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Oakland, California, U.S.A.
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http://mm.denik.cz/56/8d/dr_house2_sip-300.jpg?

OMG, it makes so much sense!
 #36 
Old 2009-01-14, 03:15
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Texas
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-Scars (from stabs, slashes, bullets, arrow heads, cannon balls, etc ).

-One knife (Near my spine) that can never be removed.

-Pain in my right leg that (Without mega- heavy medication) impairs my walking.

-Radiation poisoning(I'm too fucked up all day to care though)

-Stab wound that is still bleeding(I'm too fucked up to care).

-Ultra-Drug addiction that came about through attempts treat the pain in my leg and the knife that is in my back.

-Liver damage, but I still drink very heavily through the day. I'm too high to give a fuck

-I've coughed up blood for years. I don;t give a fuck though.

-I'm missing a chunk of my jaw due to oral cancer from sucking dick(I'm gay, but I'm too fucked up to care).

- I have a prolapsed anus which I don;t give a fuck because I'm too fucked up.


Mentally:

I can't really go into it right now. Most of the events that happened were suppressed from my memories because I was too busy being fucked up for sucking dick and not giving a fuck. These events have made me all deep and shit though you know. Like, I've grown mentally from like i was tortured or something. Like you know. It makes me unique and stuff and I also like being gay because it adds to the stigma so more people like me.
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Old 2009-01-14, 03:42
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Originally Posted by alexander224
-Scars (from stabs, slashes, bullets, arrow heads, cannon balls, etc ).

-One knife (Near my spine) that can never be removed.

-Pain in my right leg that (Without mega- heavy medication) impairs my walking.

-Radiation poisoning(I'm too fucked up all day to care though)

-Stab wound that is still bleeding(I'm too fucked up to care).

-Ultra-Drug addiction that came about through attempts treat the pain in my leg and the knife that is in my back.

-Liver damage, but I still drink very heavily through the day. I'm too high to give a fuck

-I've coughed up blood for years. I don;t give a fuck though.

-I'm missing a chunk of my jaw due to oral cancer from sucking dick(I'm gay, but I'm too fucked up to care).

- I have a prolapsed anus which I don;t give a fuck because I'm too fucked up.


Mentally:

I can't really go into it right now. Most of the events that happened were suppressed from my memories because I was too busy being fucked up for sucking dick and not giving a fuck. These events have made me all deep and shit though you know. Like, I've grown mentally from like i was tortured or something. Like you know. It makes me unique and stuff and I also like being gay because it adds to the stigma so more people like me.


And I thought we were friends.
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Old 2009-01-14, 03:47
JustAnotherAsshole JustAnotherAsshole is offline
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http://mm.denik.cz/56/8d/dr_house2_sip-300.jpg?

I wanted to be a doctor. I wanted to do a lot of things.
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Old 2009-01-14, 05:06
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where the buffalo roam
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house, always taking the exact same 2 pills of vicodin for the 3+ years hes has an opiate addiction, and yet seemingly never gets jaundice from the thousands of mg of APAP he takes per day.

i also find it very annoying that in a 40 minute program, in minute 38 somebody will say a often arbitrary word (i swear once it was literally something like peanut butter) and he would go catatonic and figure the shit out. srsly no budy is that good. but then again, when else are they going to solve the problem, at the beginnning??

also he uses his cane wrong. you are supposed to use the cane on the opposite of the injury.

the show turned into CSI, just the same formulaic bullshit with meaningless subplots about how the characters feel about each other.

i still watch it all the time tho :P i like how hes mean to everyone but everyone still has to tickle his sack cuz he pwns
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Old 2009-01-14, 07:29
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Oakland, California, U.S.A.
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Quote:
Originally Posted by alexander224
-Scars (from stabs, slashes, bullets, arrow heads, cannon balls, etc ).

-One knife (Near my spine) that can never be removed.

-Pain in my right leg that (Without mega- heavy medication) impairs my walking.

-Radiation poisoning(I'm too fucked up all day to care though)

-Stab wound that is still bleeding(I'm too fucked up to care).

-Ultra-Drug addiction that came about through attempts treat the pain in my leg and the knife that is in my back.

-Liver damage, but I still drink very heavily through the day. I'm too high to give a fuck

-I've coughed up blood for years. I don;t give a fuck though.

-I'm missing a chunk of my jaw due to oral cancer from sucking dick(I'm gay, but I'm too fucked up to care).

- I have a prolapsed anus which I don;t give a fuck because I'm too fucked up.


Mentally:

I can't really go into it right now. Most of the events that happened were suppressed from my memories because I was too busy being fucked up for sucking dick and not giving a fuck. These events have made me all deep and shit though you know. Like, I've grown mentally from like i was tortured or something. Like you know. It makes me unique and stuff and I also like being gay because it adds to the stigma so more people like me.


Hahaha, that was funny. I still haven't forgotten about that time you insulted me though.
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Old 2009-01-14, 09:03
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other than that im in great shape...35 sit ups


I lol'd
MadMadMad
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Old 2009-01-14, 22:37
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where the buffalo roam
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^ i think 35 sit ups is a very commendable achievement
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Old 2009-01-14, 23:03
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Mentally - Everything


Physically - I need my last wisdom tooth pulled it has a cavity and has been there untouched for a year. Fucking hurts. I think today I just noticed a wart growing on my thumb, goddamn it.
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Old 2009-01-15, 11:42
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Quote:
Originally Posted by infidelguy
^ i think 35 sit ups is a very commendable achievement


Depends on your point of view and starting point doesn't it. Go hard for 100
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Old 2009-01-15, 11:55
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Not that much wrong with me. I may have commitment issues (self assessment).

I'm pretty fit, haven't trained for a while now (various martial arts clubs gotta get back into it) an I can still do 50 situps, 50 pressups, 50 leg raisers etc easy in one sitting. Weigh 70kg at 181cm. Don't smoke anymore except very occasionally (gota watch that) and drink a little too much caffeine. Maybe too much alcohol but it hasn't given me negative effects yet (if you don't count an expected hangover) and is pretty social. I try to keep other drugs occasional, sometimes smoke a bowl every night when I get a good hookup.
 #46 
Old 2009-01-15, 23:17
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Move to bitch n Moan please. Lol.
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Old 2009-01-16, 03:25
JustAnotherAsshole JustAnotherAsshole is offline
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Mentally:

Maybe some other time. I'm not Inebriated enough to feel okay talking about these things. Let me go ahead and take some more assorted Pharmaceuticals and I'll get back to you.

Now I am.

I hate being me. I don't feel anymore, I had no childhood, no loving parents, no home. I saw the only person I loved (The only person I could ever had called a parent) get killed. If I actually get to sleep, I have flashback nightmares almost every night, I wake up gasping and sweating. I can't connect with people. I smile and talk, but there's nothing really there. My whole fucking life is an act. The only thing I live for is the hope, the delusion that things will get better. Mark probably wouldn't have killed himself if I had just been a better friend.

You fucking people take for granted how it is to be loved. I'd give anything to be loved.
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Old 2009-01-16, 07:12
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Oakland, California, U.S.A.
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Now I am.

I hate being me. I don't feel anymore, I had no childhood, no loving parents, no home. I saw the only person I loved (The only person I could ever had called a parent) get killed. If I actually get to sleep, I have flashback nightmares almost every night, I wake up gasping and sweating. I can't connect with people. I smile and talk, but there's nothing really there. My whole fucking life is an act. The only thing I live for is the hope, the delusion that things will get better. Mark probably wouldn't have killed himself if I had just been a better friend.

You fucking people take for granted how it is to be loved. I'd give anything to be loved.

Hahaha, loser!
 
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