tl;dr at bottom, read is kinda helpful though.

unfortunately, i have never been in love in my 19 years of living. ive dated and dated but found no girl i could stand longer than 2-3 months, besides my homegirls of course

anyways im currently dating this very amazing girl whom i care about more than any other ive ever met and i KNOW she feels the same if not more so towards me. we have a LOT in common and have already shared so many personal stories that its as if weve known each other for years. shes constantly calling and texting me asking how i am, how my day is going, how i slept, if i want dinner, if i want her to come over, etc. now im following the same suit and texting/calling her many times daily while keeping the same huge grin on my face that i get everytime i think of her. its just strange to me because i have never had anyone be it my parents, relatives, friends, girlfriends, or anything show me the affection and care that she does.

i think that i have become so accustomed to not receiving the feeling in my life that now that i am starting to feel differently and finally have someone actually care about me enough to do what she does for me. like this week ive been sick as all hell for the past 3 days and all she has done with her free time is take care of me. she bought me medicine, soup, movies, gave me back massages, and barraged me with kisses and hugs despite me trying to stop her so she wouldnt catch the sickness. to this she just replied with a huge smile "____, i really dont care, i just want to be near you." this statement sent shivers down my spine because ive never heard someone tell me this before and actually mean it. i can tell the difference between bullshitters and someone telling the truth. and i can see the truth in her eyes.

needless to say now she is sick and im taking care of her

anyways, no one has even offered to take care of me or help me out while sick since i was 12-13 years old so it trips me out to have a beautiful, funny, awesome, talented, caring, perfect girl show up to my apt with a bagful of get well shit and a smile. i dont understand how someone as amazing as her can actually feel the connection to me that i do her. i feel as if i dont even deserve her care and affection yet she still tells me how glad she is that we met (met through her applying at my work ha) and that im amazing. basically telling me all the things im saying here. but it doesnt make sense to me, its such a strange feeling to receive all day every day...

i just want to know if anyone else has felt similar to this? not understanding how to accept someones love is a bitch and any advice is greatly appreciated.



TL;DR - im falling for a girl who is falling for me yet cant understand how she can begin to like me let alone love me. im wondering if this is normal or if i just have had a fucked up life that is finally getting better.

Sounds like an excuse to tell totse you just got a girlfriend.



Fail.

I often wonder why my missus holds me in such high regard.
She cooks for me, calls me to make sure I'm awake, buys me little things every so often, takes care of me when I'm feeling shitty, holds me close and lets me know I'm hers and most of all she loves me.
Then I realise that I treat her like she wants to be treated...That I always show her attention and love. That I will always do my utmost to spend time with her even though we live at different times of the day (she works days, I work nights which makes things difficult) and that I love her and care for her. She knows I'm not going anywhere and that I am hers and only hers (believe me mate, you should see these three Dutch chicks who were coming onto me one night not long ago...I just said no because I only want her and she knows it)...She knows how much I feel for her by the way I treat her.

Ever think that you treat her the way she wants to be treated?...Maybe as a person and not a fuck-and-chuck? That you're always calling and texting? That you love her (you know you fucking do dude!)

If you didn't feel the way you feel for her, she'd know and it wouldn't be this way...But certain little things you do make her know that you care. Keep it up mate. You're doing great.

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Nope, never happened to me.

Looks like you've found someone you might be able to keep around a while.

. . . . .

So to sum it up: you're in love with a girl that's in love with you, and you two are dating.

What was your problem again?

fuckin word psycho, i guess i do a lot for her and treat her with way more respect and love than i ever have for another female. shes not just one i want to fuck but she is someone i want to wake up to daily
this was a great post man, i really relate so thanks alot, exactly what i was lookin for ITT.

I was at this point at one time in my life. I had lived my life for years receiving no care what so ever but then all of the sudden I met this girl. The situation was very similar to yours. At first I was in a self denial, not being able to believe the state of happiness I was in. Give it some time and then you realize this is what you have been longing for all along.

Until the day you guys break up then you will probably feel a state of pain you didn't believe was imaginable

She obviously does, why are you stuck questioning it 5mok420, it sounds like it's genuine. I suggest you enjoy the time you spend together instead of over analyzing both your feelings.

Glad, to hear your life is looking up bro.

ive just never been on the receiving end of it so its just strange that now someone would actually be interested in me. but i know it is what i feel, completely mutual. thanks man, im feeling happier than i have in over i dont know how many years. and ive got like 3 hundred to my name so thats sayin somethin...