not sure if this quite belongs in here. But I figured as this is a relationship type thing then its relatively appropriate. If any mods think it should be moved then feel free to move this thread.

Might I just say before hand that I don't really expect any answer. I just sort of wanted to vent
Righto, so the story. I met this guy last december when my friend brought him as her date to our formal. Cool guy, we hit it off and talked heaps etc etc. Friendship blossomed I suppose. Unfortunately for me he lives in Canberra which is about a 3-4 hour drive so I could never go down and visit him. Also I'm 16 and my parents aren't all too fond of me travelling far away to see some guy they don't know... understandable but still. This essentially meant we just talked on the phone or the internet. We of course had our ups and downs as all friends do.
I knew from quite early on the he was depressed. He told me how much he wanted to kill himself and at first I just dismissed it, thinking that he wouldn't actually do it. This was certainly the case for quite some time as he first started telling me how much he wanted to in about January. I then started to realise that he was completely serious when he told me that he was getting cyanide or some other poison from another suicidal mate of his. Of course being the friend I am I tried to reason with him and all. But realised it was all futile, and although I didn't completely give up I didn't stress about it as much. In the end there is nothing that I can actually do.

Cut forward 4 months or so and things seemed to be going far better for him. We'd just resolved a fight between us, he was getting laid on a regular basis. Things were certainly look up. I suppose this was the calm before the storm in a sense.
Yesterday my friend (the one who brought him to our formal) told me that he had sewn his lips together during one of his depressed moods and run away from home. This was the day after his 18th birthday. So he was missing yesterday and understandably I was stressing out. Then today the same friend told me that they had found him. Dead.
I flipped out and had no idea how to react. I just stayed in my english classroom and cried for a bit. Then went on to my next classes in a bit of a daze. I'm still in a bit of shock and I thought a good idea would be to rant to you guys about it.

Anyway, I don't really have anything to ask from you guys so I suppose you can just tell any similar experiences you might have had in the past. And how you specifically dealt with them.

Then again you can always do the "dumb emo kid, good riddance" thing, although I tell you now that it won't be particularly appreciated.

Cheers,
MRman

When I was 16 one of my good friends hanged himself. He was bi polar, a drug abuser, and had serious family issues. I remember the morning of his funeral I couldn't pull myself out of my bed because I was crying so hard and for so long.

I regret not going to his funeral and I regret not being perceptive enough to realize what was really going on with him, but there are some things that are just out of my hands and there is nothing I can do about it.

My point is that as much as you would like, you can never really know what's going in someone's head. If they have decided to kill themselves, they decided to do so way ahead of time.

Sorry to hear it man. I'm not trying to insult you at ALL...but are you gay or a girl? From your description of your relationship with this person, it sounds a little too dramatic for a normal male/male friendship. Like the fights and making up and stuff.

Any way, stay strong. This will be the first of many.

Hanged.

you can only take comfort in the fact the he isn't suffering anymore

i know you'll miss him but life is miserable when your suffering (trust me i know)

so just be happy he isn't suffering

Its fine here. We take 'affection' to cover all forms of relationships (although non bestiality pet love goes to Noahs Ark).

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I was at my friends party about 6 months ago. Playing some beer pong and having a few laughs. My teammate was this girl who I hadn't met before from the next city up. She was pretty cute albeit a bit shy. We won some games and basically flirted all night. Eventually we hooked up and I got her number.


We met up about a week later and had some coffee. We talked for a long time about all sorts of things and I thought we were hitting it off. She seemed kinda depressed though, like her mind was constantly on something. I asked her what was up but she said she was fine.

A few months later she jumped off the Golden Gate bridge. I read it in the paper. I have no idea why and still think of her on drunken lonely nights.

You would say that... lol

But anyways Suicide sucks man.. My cousin who i grew up with and was the same age as me.. Put a gun in his mouth and blew his brains out.. Nobody thought he was suicidal.. but just alot of pressure and noone to listen can do that to a man..

haha, i'm a girl but I can see the confusion. I do have a rather masculine user name. And besides, I get mistaken for a guy all the time as I wear mens clothes. I'm pretty used to it all

As for everyone else, I'm feeling a wee bit better today, I didn't sleep too much last night and I'm totally washed out but I've accepted it better. Also, for all those who have lost someone to suicide I'm sorry, I now know how it feels to lose someone that way

pics?