I'm sure I've mentioned a little bit about my life on here before, but I'll give you a little overview of the situation.

I recently separated from my fiance of a little over 2 years. She was the best thing to ever happen to me, she understood me perfectly and I her. She gave me everything I needed in life, a woman I'd definitely call my soul mate. Everything was perfect except she had problems with her lady parts. She was naturally very tight, and I'm quite a bit above average. She ended up developing a condition in which she got cysts between the muscle layers around her vaginal opening. Eventually it became painful to have sex with me, and our relationship took a bad blow. We pretty much accepted that the physical side of the relationship was gone, and separated. I miss her greatly and my life is pretty much falling apart now. Fallen into a bad depression, something that hasn't happened in years for me. Haven't had a great attendance record with work lately, and now my finances are suffering. I've tried to date other women, but I find myself disappointed every time. I'm really starting to lose the will to do anything lately. I don't want to get out of bed, talk to people, go to work, or do anything. Not sure if this is just a rant, bitching, or if I want advice. If you have some, please send it my way, or even just leave a comment. All I know is that if things don't start looking up again, I'm going to lose everything, and probably end it all. I just feel incredibly empty, and I'm just tired of everything. I don't know how I can be happy ever again after losing everything that mattered.

get ur ass to a doctor.

I've been on 7 separate anti-depressant or anti-anxiety drugs throughout my life with no success. I've gone to psychologists, and am part of a therapy group, which is actually making me feel worse about things. There is no such thing as a magical pill, or magical therapy to make things better for me. The only time I've been happy in the last 16 years was with my ex, and now I'm worse than ever.

here is something that if u put 100% of effort into it WILL make u feel better.

excersize nigga. run, start by jogging for a while then sprint when u know u can make it to ur finish point. u will get a sense of accomplishment and you will be able to think about ur problems and what u need to do to fix them better. lift weights...this is especially good if u harbor any type of anger or have anger and stress.


you gotta force yourself to eat better too, I'm not saying you dont eat well, but what you eat determines your mood a lot more than u would ever think. do some research on that



go to an AA meeting, they all have the same problems you do. even if u never drank a sip, what they preech can help someone in your shoes...not to mention you will get tons of support which you are in need of right now.

To some extent I agree with this. Not about the exercising or eating right or AA specifically, but the finding something to take your mind off the whole situation, something that takes a lot of concentration and effort that you can obsess over that doesn't have much to do with what's going on in your life.

I second the weights and running option. This helps more than you can imagine.

1-800-suicide?

Why didn't she just get surgery to fix her problem? Anyway, it's too late for her. Move on and start living your life.

Take a hobby eh. Go mountain climbing, jogging and so on. If all fail drugs and booze can sooth the problem. Till your ready to face the music.

I love how you threw in that part about your huge dick. Sweet, bro. I hope you die in a fire you fucking queer.

^agreed.

Why don't you fuck her hot potential room-mate/ 2nd wife like you were planning to do since she couldn't meet your 'needs'?

I've been waiting to see you fall