I was a pretty decent pothead. But out of random I would get insane panic attacks. The effects would last for 4 hours (the usally time a high goes down to). It was the worst feeling when i was like that.
But the other times i would love weed cause i would crack the fuck up and have a good ass time.

well i stopped around june 16th or something like that. Now and a bit before that im thinking so deeply. I think about how am i possiabley here? like why is the universe here it seems crazy however it was made.

damn i just love weed. i wanna do it again but...why am i like this?
is it just a stage or something? im 15.
i dont get it. I just think so damn much. i dont like it really.

any ideas?

thanks

Enjoy it, later in life you will be to busy to think like that...

really? most of the thoughts scare me.
but in a way i try to enjoy it as much as i could. i try to enjoy life :)
thanks a lot for your answer :D

thinking's a good thing dude, it'll help you, i think...

and for what it's worth, i had a weird relationship with weed too. that's why i haven't blazed in fuck, been about a year and half now. major anxiety bullshit was the case that it gave me. but that doesn't set aside the cool fucking times it gave me.

Why did you think so deeply? because you were high.
your 'panic attacks' are probably paranoia to the max. way back when I first started smoking I used to get paranoia to the max. I would be at a friends apartment where my mom didn't even know where it was (she didn't know i smoked) but the ups dude knocked on the door and I ran to the bathroom FLIPPING SHIT because 'it was my mom!' But I got paranoia to the max about other things. It goes away eventually, but every now and then I stumble upon some weed that when I smoke I go outside and hear and airplane and think it MUST be a nuke.

thinking is mad cool i just freak myself out sometimes. Like today was insane i started firing my brain with thoughts i cant even explain what i was thinking. it was kind of the universe shit. like it doesnt make sense how anything is even living. my brain went crazy. for 5 seconds. than a second after i felt so tired and worn out. idk what the hell happened.

yeah man some cool times with me too. yeah i think im gonna wait or just not do it again.



Why did you think so deeply? because you were high.
your 'panic attacks' are probably paranoia to the max. way back when I first started smoking I used to get paranoia to the max. I would be at a friends apartment where my mom didn't even know where it was (she didn't know i smoked) but the ups dude knocked on the door and I ran to the bathroom FLIPPING SHIT because 'it was my mom!' But I got paranoia to the max about other things. It goes away eventually, but every now and then I stumble upon some weed that when I smoke I go outside and hear and airplane and think it MUST be a nuke.

Well i think deeply even off of weed like even now.
the thing is i dont even know if i was paranoid.
my first time i tired weed i got a massive panic attack. it was on a camping trip with my fam. as i was walking towards my tent i felt a thing come up from my stomach almost and into my head and boom. i couldnt think, i had to rethink what i was doing every milisecond. than i went in my tent and everything was so bad i woke up my uncle told him i smoked up :(. than woke up and ended up pissing my pants :(
lol.
ever since than it was on and off with the attacks. so i "think" it was because i would think to hard while i was on weed and end up getting the panic attacks. im still not sure.
hard to explain.
and i even think about stuff like omg it might be a nuke and shit. i get you...same here



thanks for the comments guys :)

really? most of the thoughts scare me.
but in a way i try to enjoy it as much as i could. i try to enjoy life :)
thanks a lot for your answer :D

Weed has made me soo much more of a happier person. In one swift motion it took away most of my depression, thoughts of suicide/murder, from just one go, (second time it was gone :)). Its allowed me to have a greater appreciation for things, thinking back to my bad times (even if its scary) really allows me to say "Wow look how much better off I am now because of this great plant." I have my 16th birthday coming up and i hope to introduce marijuana to my friends. Basically what I am trying to say is you have been given a more open mind and I suggest you ride it out and have fun.

As you see unlike most 15 year olds I don't use weed rec. but as therapy. (yes, I'm weird)

EDIT: As for the anxiety, your just nervous about getting caught, take a bath while your high (AMAZING experience) or go out into the wilderness/next to some train tracks/away from people of authority and try it .

I know a couple people like that...you're "allergic" to weed. Its rare, but it happens, shitty luck for you...I know a chick who smoked weed about four times and had a similar reaction every time and just said fuck it...if it isn't fun for you then just don't do it. Pop E in your spare time. :p

not to jack the thread but i dont want a new one.

Does this stuff look okay to anyone?

http://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h7/plumplibnus/83d7cf83.jpg

Like would you smoke this bud other than the stem?

the crystals kinda look suspect but besides that it seems fairly dank

A very simple answer, YES! Just take out the stem and you are set.

Also try to trim out the leaves a little...

My bro grew it and its organic. It's just people said it looked like some shit. I didn't think so. Thats just the best pic. The bigger buds came out all fuzzy.

Its hard taking pictures when you are stoned and stuf is in jars.

Wait fuzzy as in moldy fuzzy? Umm, post pics of the bigger ones... if you can, wow this when off topic...

....Fuzzy as in out of focus...

Don't worry it looks fine.:)

no the pics were fuzzy. Like out of focus. heres some of his other stuff that was bigger. same beans. different grow


http://www.icmag.com/gallery/data/500/9906tric01.JPG
http://www.icmag.com/gallery/data/500/990601_20_07_008.jpg

http://www.icmag.com/gallery/data/500/9906untitled4.JPG

thinking's a good thing dude, it'll help you, i think...

I am saving this as a quote....:D

I hope you dont mind that i quote you in some other thread if such an opportunity ever arises.

Wow those are some really nice pictures you got there... Ehh, I wish I was older so I could have a place of my own, so I could be a grower....

@Bawls I that IS a great quote...

Marijuana paranoia? Shit, you haven't lived until you've meth binged for a week, barricaded yourself in your home, and just sat there, in total darkness, naked, with a whole fucking shit load of guns and explosives.

Ouch that's pretty harsh SN, sorry that had to happen to you!:(

ahh, thanks man.


@ the bud: pretty neat looking stuff if i might add.

Marijuana paranoia? Shit, you haven't lived until you've meth binged for a week, barricaded yourself in your home, and just sat there, in total darkness, naked, with a whole fucking shit load of guns and explosives.

hah, yeah man, i can see how one could distinguish the two, lol. i can uh, relate to the first three parts, but anything after the total darkness really just is too much heh.

haha whoa dude you stole my brain! all these thoughts about the universe, the metaverse, quarks, the smallest unit of what we call matter, what was before existance and what will become of our universe. the definition of reality(there isnt one) our interpretation of time,spatial relationships, and most importantly, just the fucking SCALE of existance! and for the paranoia/panic thing....yea if you have some anxiety problems then weed can make them worse, however ive had severe anxiety problems for a few weeks at a time first in seventh grade, then middle of sophmore year. i just learned to cope and i got over it no problems. and if your THAT worried about panicking. just smoke once or twice a month, and take 1mg of clonazepam or any other benzo and you will be fantastic.

Weed has made me soo much more of a happier person. In one swift motion it took away most of my depression, thoughts of suicide/murder, from just one go, (second time it was gone :)). Its allowed me to have a greater appreciation for things, thinking back to my bad times (even if its scary) really allows me to say "Wow look how much better off I am now because of this great plant." I have my 16th birthday coming up and i hope to introduce marijuana to my friends. Basically what I am trying to say is you have been given a more open mind and I suggest you ride it out and have fun.

As you see unlike most 15 year olds I don't use weed rec. but as therapy. (yes, I'm weird)

EDIT: As for the anxiety, your just nervous about getting caught, take a bath while your high (AMAZING experience) or go out into the wilderness/next to some train tracks/away from people of authority and try it .

that makes sense about having a more open mind.
and yo i understand you about not using just to be like yo mannn im fuckin high. i used to use it in my room by myself sometimes. just to sit there and chill and think. sometimes it would work and calm me. and other times i would flip out like i said.
and thanks a lot that sounds like a good idea to go into the woods by train tracks and just chill. i like that idea thanks man.





haha whoa dude you stole my brain! all these thoughts about the universe, the metaverse, quarks, the smallest unit of what we call matter, what was before existance and what will become of our universe. the definition of reality(there isnt one) our interpretation of time,spatial relationships, and most importantly, just the fucking SCALE of existance! and for the paranoia/panic thing....yea if you have some anxiety problems then weed can make them worse, however ive had severe anxiety problems for a few weeks at a time first in seventh grade, then middle of sophmore year. i just learned to cope and i got over it no problems. and if your THAT worried about panicking. just smoke once or twice a month, and take 1mg of clonazepam or any other benzo and you will be fantastic.

yeah man you totally get me.
im trying to deal with this shit. my BIGGEST fear/problem is how do i know other people are real?
fuckin scares the shit out of me...

and yeah i completely stopped with smoking weed.
how did you get over you problems. what do i just chill out? im really trying...shits hard as hell.

haha whoa dude you stole my brain! all these thoughts about the universe, the metaverse, quarks, the smallest unit of what we call matter, what was before existance and what will become of our universe. the definition of reality(there isnt one) our interpretation of time,spatial relationships, and most importantly, just the fucking SCALE of existance!

You want to know something interesting, I had those thoughts before weed... For me i love the experience of thinking while high, i have been stoned once, it was nice, but I prefer spacey moments....

Once before I smoked about an eigth in a night which is alot to me, then I ate cheese on toast with lotsa weed on it, I then went to sleep cuz it was about 3 am. I woke up at 6 am thinking shit, how fucking big is existence? Then I realised I was freaking out so I watched some porn to calm down and went back to sleep.

thinking is mad cool

qft?5

lol thats actually a really good idea on how to calm down

yeah man you totally get me.
im trying to deal with this shit. my BIGGEST fear/problem is how do i know other people are real?
fuckin scares the shit out of me...

and yeah i completely stopped with smoking weed.
how did you get over you problems. what do i just chill out? im really trying...shits hard as hell.

well, you could constantly worry about whether or not other people actually exist, but your mind would be better off if you accepted the fact that there is no way to prove this "theory" and also no way to prove it wrong, and the only thing you are doing is driving yourself insane. and about my "farout" thoughts, well sometimes the way i think really scares me, but ive gotten better at realizing that excessive thinking is NOT a bad thing, and the universe is an absurd place but i cant really do anything to change it so why get so worked up about it? and ive had these thoughts since before i even THOUGHT about trying drugs, but certain substances can intensify these thoughts whether good or bad....idk...my philosophy is, i dont have a philosophy. there are no real beliefs, no real moral code, no real definition of existance. NOTHING has meaning to me, because i know that reality is in the eye of the beholder, and every single thought we have ever had, has originated on our planet earth, and there are so many more planets/galaxies/solar systems out there. so what ever you believe to be true and real...well...think again ;)

well, you could constantly worry about whether or not other people actually exist, but your mind would be better off if you accepted the fact that there is no way to prove this "theory" and also no way to prove it wrong, and the only thing you are doing is driving yourself insane. and about my "farout" thoughts, well sometimes the way i think really scares me, but ive gotten better at realizing that excessive thinking is NOT a bad thing, and the universe is an absurd place but i cant really do anything to change it so why get so worked up about it? and ive had these thoughts since before i even THOUGHT about trying drugs, but certain substances can intensify these thoughts whether good or bad....idk...my philosophy is, i dont have a philosophy. there are no real beliefs, no real moral code, no real definition of existance. NOTHING has meaning to me, because i know that reality is in the eye of the beholder, and every single thought we have ever had, has originated on our planet earth, and there are so many more planets/galaxies/solar systems out there. so what ever you believe to be true and real...well...think again ;)

Wow thanks a lot man.
That does make sense that thinking of it just doesnt really make a difference. thanks man :)

Wow thanks a lot man.
That does make sense that thinking of it just doesn't really make a difference. thanks man :)
ok so everything you and charlie k-pin have described including overwhelming thoughts and anxiety from weed happens to me. ive only had 2 maybe 3 anxiety probs while high as fuck and they came out of nowhere. i was pretty calm but my heartbeat was as if i just finished running a mile. i lied down listening to my ipod, fell asleep and woke up good as new in the morning. its ok to think about everything around you the universe and everything in it is fascinating. just dont let the racing thoughts get the best of you.

ok so everything you and charlie k-pin have described including overwhelming thoughts and anxiety from weed happens to me. ive only had 2 maybe 3 anxiety probs while high as fuck and they came out of nowhere. i was pretty calm but my heartbeat was as if i just finished running a mile. i lied down listening to my ipod, fell asleep and woke up good as new in the morning. its ok to think about everything around you the universe and everything in it is fascinating. just dont let the racing thoughts get the best of you.

haha dude most people experience a racing heart beat when they smoke, its called tachycardia...its really nothing to be scared of

haha dude most people experience a racing heart beat when they smoke, its called tachycardia...its really nothing to be scared of

not that im scared i still smoke almost daily... its weird cause i had been smoking all day that day and i was fine till the 4th blunt that night...

idiot

idiot

haha right on

ok so everything you and charlie k-pin have described including overwhelming thoughts and anxiety from weed happens to me. ive only had 2 maybe 3 anxiety probs while high as fuck and they came out of nowhere. i was pretty calm but my heartbeat was as if i just finished running a mile. i lied down listening to my ipod, fell asleep and woke up good as new in the morning. its ok to think about everything around you the universe and everything in it is fascinating. just dont let the racing thoughts get the best of you.

Ok thanks a lot man.
Just talking to you guys makes me feel a lot better. a lot :).
And i really do try to get rid of the thoughts sometimes. But like somebody said i have opened my mind a lot...if i think of something i could come up with amazing things. Hard to explain but i could just constantly think it seems like.
I go out A LOT so that helps me get rid of my bad thoughts.

AND
im going to see a person to talk to...whatever you call them. just for somebody to talk to (my mom wanted me to). How should i bring this up. I mean it would seem kinda weird talking about it. It might not seem as weird to you guys but idk if you know what im trying to say.

Thanks,
- hotfoot982