get benzos and weed. just eat a lot and keep hydrated and sleep. also you could try to get some suboxone.

You need a true reason to get clean and sober, not true to anybody but yourself.

Once you can get past that in your mind, you're on the road to recovery.

Try making a list of all of the pro's and con's from your entire career of dope use.

If you can convince yourself that there are more pros then cons, you're a step closer to changing your mindset on your H addiction, your life, and your future.

Shit happens in life, and people get through it. Understand the many people that are going through shit 100x worse than you are at this very moment, but they aren't turning to dope.

A good place to see these people in person is AA meetings. They are free, and you don't have to do shit, just listen and absorb and maybe, by some small chance, if your mind is right and you have enough dedication - you'll leave with the enlightenment you've needed for years.

An AA meeting is just an example of one of the many things you could do.

It's all you.

thanks, yea ive been to meetings before but it wasnt my thing i guess. im a pretty shy girl most of the time. but it gave A LOT of persepctive that i needed to hear.



im quitting now that my life has started and i have a lot of shit to get together. ive definitly mentally made the preperations. i dont want it in my life anymore.

i probably just made the thread to help me work through it really.


and im off suboxen too cause that shit just fucks me up worse everytime.


its just the pure anxiety thats eatin at me now.

"just keep swimming"

cute. very cute.