Right, I would say that I would give you an online time-line as it goes..... but I'd like to be in my bed when it happens, all comfortable and stuff. I'm down in my own (rented) house at the moment, my family( mother, father, brother, sister) are going to Spain tomorrow and i'm supposed to move up to their house to mind the cat. I've been on the beer all day. I've just given the key to my parents house to my friend (to be honest I'm fairly concerned about the cat!). I've just taken my weeks supply of xanax (which isn't much to be honest) and I'm just about to take 28 stilnoct (ambien for you americans). good look totse. this ain't no troll. this is for real. see ya's-

surm00
(or to give it a more human name Paddy)

either i'll end up in coma-death or i'll tell ya's about it in a week (i hope not!)

Think I'll watch The Dark Knight before I go.

Can you upload your suicide on youtube? What's your channel?

But seriously I want to watch you die. I never witnessed someones death before.

It'll be a brand new experience. It'll change my life forever.

So do you got stickam.com, aim, etc?

I've witnessed three deaths in person. Two of which were people I was personally and emotionally connected two, and one of which I was responsible for. They're some of the things that keep me up at night.

I suppose seeing some random guy do it over the internet won't mess with you much, so go ahead.

sickk movie man , def check it out

I have a morbid fascination with death. It's unsettling but I just can't stop watching shit like that.

Some people have less of a conscious than others. Trust me, I can get over things quickly.

I actually tried not to smile when I found out my Grandma was dead. It was hard on my dad of course. His emotions did get to me though. But hey....I got over it! Now I don't give a shit. I had plenty of other family members die who were close. I didn't give two shits. My family seemed concerned about me.

I guess I lack emotion like others do. It's kind of fun. I don't feel much happiness. Anger, jealousy, anxiety seem to be most common for me. Faces of Death gets me all frisky!

I think we have the same 'problem.'

When I found out someone close to me died, I try to force myself to be sad about it.

I have to surpress my smile so others wont think i'm heartless or something.
For example, so and so died.. *I begin to smile*

If I think about my mom or dad dieing, just thinking about it, makes me really sad.. (they're not dead)
Why would her death make me sad, but not others?? (actually, i'd probably cry for my brothers, but not sisters.)

I always wondered if I was crazy or something because of this.

Dude, I have the same thing goin' on.

I just wonder why the hell would I be smiling just when someone died? I understand the situation perfectly. I am capable of sympathizing and empathizing with people. But with some people I can just care less.

None of it really surprises me.

Can I upload my suicide to youtube. Yeah, no problem at all. Being dead wouldn't stop me! Dumb ass. Obviously didn't work. What a waste of xanax and ambien. I'm gonna need to get some oxy to do this shit right.

Try using a gun. That would be more exciting.

Oh and if you do this with a webcam, can you let me know? Tell me what site and shit.

Make it a public chat. I don't want to get my ass in trouble with the police.