Ok - I always figured - if I don't try it - how will I know I won't like it?

There are guys that I have no problem admitting are good looking - not that I'm attracted to them or anything. And, I'm not shy about my sexuality.

I've always considered myself heterosexual - and I've had encounters/relationships with women in the past. Some of them worth it (of course) and some of 'em that weren't.

So, lately I was thinking - what if I were to try out being with a guy, you know, just to see what it's like. I've never been attracted to men, but like I said - how will I know I won't like it/I'm not gay - unless I try it out for sure?

I was trying to detox of Suboxone - but that didn't go well. I finally broke down and copped a few bags. I shot the dope around 7:00pm, and went out to a known gay bar around my town. I ordered a beer and sat drinking, feeling good - taking in the scene.

After my second beer, I was feeling absolutely fucking amazing. I lit a cigarette, and smoked slowly as I leaned back in my booth, surverying the crowd. So, this guy comes up to me (obviously a homosexual...we're in a gay bar) and starts talking to me. He was a really friendly dude, and the dope and the beer had me feeling good, so I offered to by him a drink.

Turns out, he was an insurance agent - and had a lot of similair tastes in music as me. We discussed films, music, culture - etc, etc. I decided, that now was as god a time as any. It was almost 10, so I slipped off to the bathroom to do one more hit before inviting him back to my place.

When we got back to my apartment, we chilled out, listening to some music and had a few more beers. I wasn't really turned on by him - but I was really, really curious to see what being homosexual was all about.

Anyways - after a little bit of making out (which, was really unpleasant, I really didn't like it ....it was just too weird making out with another dude) I started to blow him. About half way through - I got to thinking.

Here I am - in my apartment, with another guys penis in my mouth. This REALLY isn't my thing - I don't like this at all. I wanted to stop right then and there, but I thought that would be unfair to him - after all - how would you like it if a chick was blowing you and halfway through was just like "I'm done!"

You wouldn't.

I made a comittment, so I stuck to it. I got him off and we talked a while more. When he left, I did another hit and passed out.

I woke up the next morning and realized - that I guess I'm not gay. I didn't enjoy giving head or making out with another guy at ALL. Didn't arrouse me and it didn't turn me on. Of course, I told this to a buddy of mine and he said it was the gayest fucking thing he'd ever heard.

So - I ask you this totse - does this make me a homosexual? I mean - like I said - I didn't enjoy it at all - it was just for the experience, and the experience was pretty shitty, to be honest.

No.. you aren't a homosexual, because you really didn't enjoy it. At least you tried it though.. If you were gay, you would probably want to fuck him. How was blowing another guy though? (seriously)

You're not gay, but you should really learn how to control yourself, and make accurate assumptions.

Pretty shitty that you're going to remember this for the rest of your life.

i hope right before you die, you remember him cummin in ur mouth

Don't use drugs, kids.

At least you got it out of the way instead of wondering your whole life if you might be just a little gay.

how is it even possible to be a little gay? either you like cock or you dont.....i suppose you could be bi, but thats different then being a little gay

Yeah, gay experimentation is really one of those things you should do only when the thought of it actually turns you on. Intellectual curiosity isn't exactly the best reason to experiment... not that you can be faulted for being curious and testing boundaries and such. If there's a guy that does it for you in some way, then go for it. Then it would be fun and you wouldn't regret it. But if it's just for the hell of it, or to test your orientation, it sounds like you're just asking for an awkward experience to look back on and cringe about...

I mean, you probably wouldn't have sex with a girl you weren't attracted to just for the hell of it. If someone doesn't excite me, and I try shit with them, it always ends terribly. Gay things will be the same. Granted if you're not gay or bi, the chances that a guy will turn you on are minimal. But still, there's no point in fooling around with someone who doesn't turn you on. Consider that sliver of a chance your prerequisite, of sorts. If you're going to test yourself, do it with someone that actually excites you enough, and not just whoever is available. Otherwise I would just push the whole "gay" question out of my mind, since it's not even really relevant, unless you know for sure you can actually experience lust for another dude. That way if you do do it under those circumstances, you're sure you're doing it "right" and aren't getting a false negative just cause the guy you're doing it with doesn't do it for you, or something.

It wasn't really all that great.

Pretty lame - kinda nasty - but he was clean - so, meh.

Oh - and the drugs didn't make me do this, to the idiot who said don't use drugs.

I used dope just so I'd be a little bit more loose about it.

I can't believe you didn't either fuck him or make him blow you in exchange. How is that fair?