However, by most standards I am pretty succesfull in the very wide and wonderful world of sex, but I attribute that to following:

• My 15 minutes of fame and the persona that came with it.
• The infamous reputation I gained.

The irony when looking back on is the type of girl each one attracted. Obviously with the first you get the type of person who tends to be popular, preppy, has the world, etc. With the latter you get the borderline counter culture type of girl.

What is even worse is how things cause you to change. I talked to an old friend about it. She said had she been there, she would have done the exact same thing, but it makes no since to me. Why would anyone due the exact same thing knowing what would happen?

So After a recent break up, I took it upon myself to completely re-work myself from the ground up. Physically, mentaly, style wise- the entire works, yet somehow I predict that my choice and goal won't do much if I make it that far. After all, once you are on top, there isn't any turning back; there isn't some magical "back button" like in our browsers whether it is Firefox, Safari, I.E, Opera, or one of the many others.

Yes, so am I.


I re-evauluated myself and realized there is nothing that seperates me from the pack besides things I more or less got drug into then spit out latter. Honestly I look in the mirror and I am not happy with myself. Looks wise I'd put myself at an average, but they can be changed to an extent and with a bit of style you can change how you are percieved. I think my problem is that people like me for what I was and what I was portrayed as, which is not who I am, but without those things, nothing gives me any sort of "advantage" so to speak.

Everyone wants assets. Most people go for things on the surface. Putting a barrier between myself and the past rids me of anything that puts me above th rest. The problem I see with re-tooling myself is that I put myself in the exact same position where I was socially- people being attracted to me soley because of factors other than looks, intellect, or something else. In other words what the majority portrays me as.

So pretty much it is bleak for me until I find myself in an entire new area with a different social environment I guess.

This thread fails on so many levels. Also, fuck you acolyte.

I know it does, but it fails much less then insulting someone over the sheer fact their name has "acolyte" underneath it.

No it doesn't.

And you fail even harder for posting on a forum you clearly know nothing about.

Alrighty then Barron von Buttsecks, you keep thinking that. The stupidity of people everywhere and including my own blunders never fail to amaze me. You'd figure people would learn from their mistakes.

So what did you do to get famous/laid that isn't working anymore?

And you can carry on avoiding the point of my last post there fuckhead. But nice job on sounding intelligent, you only managed one broken sentence, is that a record?

This is precisely why acolytes are shat all over.

E: Hey coup.

Fuck you Byss

Acolyte, you have piqued myy curiosity. Maybe it's because Im going through something similar myself what with the reevaluating of one's life and self, but piqued it has been nonetheless.

I gladly await part 2!

*twirls mustache and puffs cigar

That's pretty muh all I'm going to post because apparently you don't get taken seriously if you are new here.

No, it isn't a matter of your newness. My insulting your status as an acolyte was an afterthought, but it was warranted, because you clearly have no clue how a message board ought to work. Stop being intentionally vague and trying to sound "mysterious". No one thinks you're cool for it. If you gave an honest read of your original post before you made it, you would realize there are quite a few important pieces of information that you are omitting. I think you deliberately left these out, just so people would be left wondering. This is even evidenced by your "to be continued" remark. So no, I am not bashing you for being an acolyte. However, I am not going to stand by and treat you like royalty just because you're too much of a moron to start a decent thread.

a/s/l?

Is there a topic of discussion?

TOTSE IS NOT YOUR PERSONAL BLOG.