So, long story short: I am getting out of the army, and although I have money, and My Sorta kinda cousin has a hookup for some shit I am picking up. I don't really have anyone. Its really fucking lonely.

I have friends, but no one I trust or can really turn to. I have this friend in FL who told me I could hang out there for a while, and I have this one cat that is planning on biking across from Cali to NY, and I could go do that.

I have these huge trust issues, and sometimes I doubt myself. I am not really social awkward, I get along with most people, although not so much in the military. I hate people, and how hypocritical everyone is, and fucking deluded everyone is.

how the hell do I fix this? any advice might be good, as I don't know what my problem is exactly. I've had to start over a few times, but I think this might be the last time. I'm not fucking stupid, I know my shit. But I don't know who to turn to anymore that will be there with any permanence. ya know?

Oh and One of the Few people I trusted/ talked to since I have joined the military * she also posts here* She dosen't talk to me anymore, and it fucking sucks, Like me getting out of the military is the worst thing I have ever fucking done and she dosen't approve, and It really gets to me.

family?, and why are you getting out, it's not that bad...its pretty cake when you think about it

Since you aren't an acolyte, I won't pwn you.

Sorry, mate.

I don't talk to them. My dad lives with his boyfriend, and my mom and me haven't really talked since I moved out when I was 16.

I dunno, I guess I am just really fucking stressed out, and worried.

open your eyes

then open them again

and feel the tension slip away

as you realize

you're but an infinitesimal blip

in the meaningless infinity of all that is possible

I think I just need to get high.

Good, leave the Army behind, they suck anyways.

Man the fuck up and join the Marines.

When there is noone to turn to? post in a forum saying there is noone to turn to

you gotta learn to trust at least one person, you have to bond and make strong relationship. or meet some new people and talk to them get to know them, trust them.

Who said there is something wrong with you?

EVERYONE who I know who is in the military is one of the best friends I've had. They're *always* at my back when I need them (and out of respect I'm there for them) because of the teamwork they learn in the army.

Nothing is wrong with you, just you have seen how sheepish and sad society is.