I've been doing drugs for three years. Mostly psychedelics and opiates. I always find some way to get fucked up, and while I don't normally abuse hardcore drugs, I sometimes go farther than I'd expected. But the thing is that over time, all the non-hardcore drugs can really add up. I remember last year I stopped using everything for about 5 months, and it was only after three months that I realized that my mind was normal again.

Does anyone ever feel like they're fucked up when they're not fucked up? I did some acid the other day, and it was eye-opening because the morning after while I was still tripping, I felt my mind was truly clear for the first time in ages.

Only on acid does that happen to me. It's refreshing. How about you guys? Is this a documented thing or is it all in my head? I believe it would be called "burning out."

Before i started smoking weed i was contemplating putting a bullet through my head....

im completly sober now and have been for the past couple days... im no longer as pessimistic and depressed... drugs have changed the way i see the world, i don't think i will ever completly go back to the way i used to be...

Being sober is a high for me these days, a high that I rarely allow myself to experiance.

I'll drink to that!

Yep. It's boring, and people understand me too well.

There hasn't been a straight week I've been sober, I really don't know what it feels like anymore...

I remember what 'sobriety' feels like, because I've been there several times since the beginning of my drug use.

However, I cannot fully remember what 'pre-drug use' me was like.

What most drug users don't realize is that when they come down, they're still not completely sober. I think that's what makes "sobriety" so annoying , at least at first. You have drugs in your mind/body but not enough. It takes a while to detox.

Until then, let's get high !

yea, and the idiot above me is a tool. you don't have to piss clean to be sober..


residual effects are really dependent on the drug..

Sorry to say, I don't need drugs. My brain is naturally fucked up, I believe. Maybe drugs would make me normal... scary thought.

Wow you fail epicly.

"I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me. " -- Hunter S. Thompson

Wow you fail epicly.

because he isnt sober? meh im all for binging for a week or so to make it all the more sweet once you pull through, If you never break through then its just a grave. sober=/= win drugs=/=win x=win

our job is to find x. Im sure trying how bout you?

because he isnt sober? meh im all for binging for a week or so to make it all the more sweet once you pull through, If you never break through then its just a grave. sober=/= win drugs=/=win x=win

our job is to find x. Im sure trying how bout you?


Hypno, if i wasn't tripping balls that wouldn't have made any sense.

But it did.

Therefore I bring up the theory of probability. Is one socialist republic enough? OF COURSE NOT! WE MUST CREATE MORE COW WARRIORS!

Hypno, if i wasn't tripping balls that wouldn't have made any sense.

But it did.

Therefore I bring up the theory of probability. Is one socialist republic enough? OF COURSE NOT! WE MUST CREATE MORE COW WARRIORS!

You sir have officially lost me. I dont have the delsym needed to stay in this thread *remembers how to walk*

besides for getting drunk 2 times a week and using salvia yesterday, I haven't used any psychoactives aside from nicotine or caffeine since 4/20. Being sober is a state of mind that one should learn to appreciate. I used drugs to cover up my pain previously and I have really straightened my life around since I stopped, mentally anyway (financially, physically, etc, I was great before). I'm not saying drugs make you stupid, because my grades my first semester of college were much better when I was fucked up all the time, but my anxiety has decreased and I feel generally happier. Being stoned all the time creates an imbalance in your brain's chemistry, with both dopamine and seratonin levels, and it is better appreciated getting stoned every once in a while to fully appreciate the excess seratonin and dopamine rather than use all the time just so you have the high levels and not feel depressed...JMO.

Haven't really been "pre-drug sober" since the onset of HPPD, which was like a year ago, so I suppose having mild visuals all the time is my new sober. Apart from that, I only do drugs once every 30ish days, so I'm as close to sober as I could get when I don't have foreign chemicals working in my brain.

Truth.

I don't remember what it was like to not want some sort of drug or think "this would be better if I had (insert drug)"...I wonder what I wanted before that?

I don't really like being sober for long. I don't like being fully aware to certain things (past and present), feeling my ankle injury from running a few years back still killing me, or the muscle under my shoulder blade that seems to have never healed.

Why feel the pain when it's not necessary? The end result of life is death anyway, I just don't see why I should have to go through any unnecessary pain until then. So drugs for me are just a great inexpensive vacation.

Hopefully this makes sense cause surprisingly I'm not in the sober world right now.

Truth.

I don't remember what it was like to not want some sort of drug or think "this would be better if I had (insert drug)"...I wonder what I wanted before that?

I don't really like being sober for long. I don't like being fully aware to certain things (past and present), feeling my ankle injury from running a few years back still killing me, or the muscle under my shoulder blade that seems to have never healed.

Why feel the pain when it's not necessary? The end result of life is death anyway, I just don't see why I should have to go through any unnecessary pain until then. So drugs for me are just a great inexpensive vacation.

Hopefully this makes sense cause surprisingly I'm not in the sober world right now.

http://www.totse.com/community/newreply.php?do=newreply&noquote=1&p=10192394 post here. I want to hear this in full.Might as well, ya know.

http://www.totse.com/community/newreply.php?do=newreply&noquote=1&p=10192394 post here. I want to hear this in full.Might as well, ya know.

Done.

Wow you fail epicly.I know, and I don't need to be reminded by anyone (let alone a fucking acolyte) of what a complete degenerate I am. I love living like an ash tray. Strokes for follkes fella.

i dont, which kinda scares me

i mean im sober now but like shit it definitely wasnt always like this

fucking HPPD

People think I'm stoned from the way I smile and the way my face looks when I'm sober. I've lost many jobs because I look like I'm on drugs, when I've been stone cold sober every day on the job. So nowadays I just smoke regularly. That way, I can be relaxed and happy, and people won't treat me any differently. Perfect life. When I'm sober, people still think I'm stoned, but I'm not, so my actions are all awkward and boring. But I'm a much more fun person to be around when I'm high (many sober people have told me this) so I'd rather portray my "normal self" as being stoned, and my "abnormal self" as being sober.

I know very well what it's like to be sober... but it's less useful than being high for me.