Sorry this is excruciatingly long but please read all of this. This isn't your normal love post

I'm seventeen. She's sixteen. We met two months ago but never really hung out until this weekend.

We and three of our mutual friends hung out Saturday, drinking and smoking like regular teenagers. The next day we all went to the beach. I took an extacy pill. She sent all the signs that she was interested in me (ignoring the other males in the group, being extra touchie, staring at me through the rear view mirror, etc...) She had to get home at six so I left my friends and drove her home. We were talking and I said I was into her and she later sent me a text message, on my way back to the beach, saying she was into me too (childish I know but I'm sure she had her reasons).

That night I only got two hours of sleep. I fell asleep and woke up at one. Then I started hallucinating (only way I can describe it). I would close my eyes and see a hologram of my room (like my eyes wear open) but all my friends at the beach would be hanging around having real conversations that I could actually follow. Then I would open my eyes and shit would be normal. I assumed it was the E because I can never sleep right the nights I take one.

The next day she called me to make plans to double date with her friends at the beach next Friday night. That same night she called, (last night) the same thing happened. I woke up two hours later but instead I would close my eyes and hallucinate about us on our date next Friday. I would close my eyes and we would be at a familiar beach with some other people. I kept roughing people up because they would try to cheat with her. I would remember and forget that it wasn't real. It might have just been a new type of lucid dreaming that I never experienced before. I'm curious to see what will happen tonight.

I never felt a connection with anyone before, like the one I feel for her. Especially not one in such a short time. Everything she says carries so much conviction that I would doubt my own beliefs; something that never happens.

Today I went to school feeling high as a kite. The only thing was that I wasn't on any drugs. It wasn't just like an ego boost. It was like a chemical reaction in my head. I was "inspired". Like I could write poems about this girl all summer. Like I could throw away my beliefs and the way I live my life. Her eyes are more addictive than heroine; the most beautiful and piercing eyes that I have EVER seen. It wasn't just the butterflies in the stomach type of thing. It was like all over and even my mind was different. I was even jittery. If I didn't know any better I could have sworn someone spiked my drink with something. I've never been happier.

These last two days have felt like two weeks. I can't sleep. I lost all my appetite. I've eaten almost nothing since Sunday. It doesn't feel long because of the depravation of food and sleep. It feels long because I feel like something's wrong if I'm not with her.

Three days ago I would have said that no teenagers are REALLY in love and no one can love someone else before getting intimate. But now I swear I'm in love.

I don't think this is an obsession. Is there something wrong with me? Or are loss of appetite and an endorphin megadose symptoms of love?

Either way I think it would be a bad idea telling her that I love her. I don't want to fuck shit up by scaring her off.

do not tell her you love her. you will scare her off, and most likely you don't love her, you're most likely just on an emotional high from the girl you like. Its happened to me before. Couldn't sleep, she was all I thought about, blah, blah.

If you love her, start dating her, then wait a year or two before telling her

I have, over time, developed a somewhat cynical view of people in general. I think people are selfish, untrustworthy destroyers who will fuck over everyone else if it served a personal purpose. This made me develope a certain psychological armour where I don't let people get too close. I see distrust as a shield. A few of my closest friends and I have spent hours and hours in endles discussion developing a trust bond. But I've known this girl a couple days and I feel a stronger connection than I've ever had with any of my friends.

It even made me think that she could completely change my critical view of people and the way I act in general.

just wait it out, hang out date yada yada yada, when the time comes you'll know

You've fallen head over heels for her. You remind me of myself when I was your age.

Don't fuck it, don't tell her you love her until you've been doing it for while.

My sleeping went to normal for the most part last night. I still never feel like eating anything.

heroin has no e. plus it was probably the mdma

Who said anything about heroin?

Who said anything about heroin?

you. "her eyes are as addictive as heroin". it bugs the fuck outta me when people misspell it.

Yeah. I actually googled it to find the real spelling before submitting the op and I still fucked up.

The heroin eyes was just a silly thought that was going through my head earlier. I've never actually done heroin.

Yeah. I catually googled it to find the real spelling before submitting the op and I still fucked up.

The heroin eyes was just a silly thought that was going through my head earlier. I've never actually done heroin.

yeah thats pretty obvious.

yeah thats pretty obvious.

Pwned

I shed a tear while reading this thread.

OP, please don't fuck things up, don't try to push her into something she doesn't want, it'll just leave the both of you in pain.

Do it for me, Achilles, avenge my romantic failure.

Not love, infatuation. If you guys do become an item then sure it could turn into love.
I remember when I was in high school the same thing happened to me over a girl, I could barely eat, I was jittery all the time and felt like I needed to be with her all the time. It's not love, you're just really, really excited to have met this girl.
Don't tell her you love her, because you don't. Date her for a while and make sure she's the 1st one to say it, then you can say it back.
Do what I say or you'll fuck it up.

I dont see how she was staring at you from the rear view mirror. If her mirror wasnt positioned right out the rear windshield I woulda told that bitch to fix it I tryin to die because youre busy lookin at me ya dig.

she probably has little to no idea she has this kind of power over you.. so play it cool or it'll fall apart. girls like it when you deny the hook they have in your lip. if she finds out you have fallen for her shell get bored.. and if she doesnt youll probably get bored. its a balance young feller. its not about what you have, its about what you can keep alive. especially when youre that age. you cant underestimate the ego of a female, let alone a sixteen year old female.

..bottom line like everybody else said: give it some time. play it cool or you will probably lose.

She was sitting in back.

Welcome to teenage hormones...they're fucking with your head, and taking e isn't much helping that either.
1) dont tell her you love her till you know you got something good and steady going, otherwise you might scare her off
2) nothing's wrong with you, fucktard...it's sex drive and it's getting into gear through your hormones
3) slow the fuck down and calculate your next move...hasty moves will get you dumped faster than you think
4) pull your ass together and realize the situation you're in and try for fuck's sake to not reveal to her that you are so weak at controlling your own feelings....this could haunt you later
5) protection is advised...you might love her, you might not, but becoming a parent at 17 isn't the way to find out.

Just keep cool...all there is to it keep cool

Good luck and godspeed ;)

Keeping cool is really the key. And fuck it's gonna be hard.

It will be painful too... Just popping in to say good luck.

I stopped reading as soon as I read you had taken ecstasy.

That is the nature of the drug. You fall in love with everything and everyone.

Then you sleep for four days.

I was literally just about to say that. So this for the win^^