So last night I ate some mushrooms I picked. I've kind of strayed away from drugs for a long time, so I'd completely forgotten what a gram looked like (no scales). All I know is that I ate around 12-15 large mushrooms. It was fucking awesome at first. I was just lying in bed with a huge grin on my face listening to QotSA, just rubbing my legs against the blankets on my bed (think Peter Griffin on Ecstasy rubbing against the couch, Brian, etc). Then I sent my gf a text message letting her know that I'd done mushrooms, she wrote back "Disappointed".

I have no idea why this happened, but I just burst into tears. Earlier that day I'd resigned from my job. Then I felt like I'd made a mistake, my life was ruined, I had no where to go, I wanted to stay in bed for a few months, maybe even kill my self.

Shit trip. Never had that before. Usually I just get that big grin and have awesome deep thoughts.

Lastly, 12-15 large mushrooms, how much do you think that would weigh dried? How many grams?

What's your worst trip? Ever felt that doom that you've ruined your life or you're going no where?

doom...yes...doom...all the time...nothing but doom...

I feel like there's nothing but darkness...deep, cold, damp darkness

but then again its always darkest before dawn...right?

Ever felt that doom that you've ruined your life or you're going no where?

Um, during most of my life, yeah. I was also sober.

I think the most unpleasant time I've ever had on drugs was new years 2008.
I did K repeatedly throughout the night and stayed near the verge of a K-Hole while still managing to get around and to communicate to some degree, my favorite drug, but not in this situation.
I left my girlfriend at a party to go get some snacks and smokes with another friend.
For some reason someone had thought the stores would be open at 11:20pm new years.
I was totally gone and figured I'd go along with my friend and so I did.
We wandered the streets looking for a store and at some point I decided to see how long we had been.

It was 12:18am, we missed New Years, I broke my promise to kiss my girlfriend at 12, and meanwhile I realize I'm 30 min away from the party and I start panicking about how much of a failure I was.
It probably doesn't sound like a huge deal but it was for me. I felt crushed.

Then to top it of I got into a fight (well, more like avoided one, not without some trouble though) with an ex of my girlfriend at the party later on, closer to 3, after having to calm down my girlfriends drunken brother who was convinced he got aids from this guy, who was the guy who later wanted to fight me because I stood up to him when he got in her little brothers face when he drunkenly accused him of giving him aids from a beer bottle.
The guy didn't even have aids, and I still had to spend 30 min convincing the kid he was safe, he was really young what can I say.

We had a lot to talk about but the party was too crazy and neither of us really ended up talking about it until two weeks later or so. By that time most of it had been pretty much settled in our minds anyways.

My girlfriend and I got home at around 5 and really didn't talk to much about it.
I think we both felt like it was over between us at that point, it wasn't me missing new years but rather just a lot of things coming to our attention, all the while I'm fucking gone on K only to comedown to the realization of this. Laying in bed all I could feel was my own death and the love of my life slipping away.
Somehow we made it together until just shortly after valentines day, it may have lasted longer but other issues came up. She ended it.

Sometimes I wish I hadn't detoured the fight and I just fought. I would likely have died but I guess that's the point. He wouldn't have stopped after he inevitably had me unconscious, he would have kept going, he was just insane enough to kill me. I'm not even exaggerating.

I only think that way when I'm really depressed though, and not since early march have i seriously thought that way.

Definitely the worst time on drugs for me.
I didn't really go into my own thinking as much as the situation but you can probably see where I was at mentally.

I've never had a bad trip in my life. One borderline bit with Salvia was kinda unpleasant, but apart from that...

Lastly, 12-15 large mushrooms, how much do you think that would weigh dried? How many grams?

You talking cubes?

The cubes I have, one stem and one cap weighs about 3g.

!!! Same here I smoked a ridiculous amount of 20X and had some fuckin crazy kaleidoscope visuals, then around 10 minutes later I snapped out of it and thought 3 hrs had gone by. Also I was laying on my side for some reason...and my bong was broken to hell and back. My friend saw Ronald McDonald raping his childhood over and over and over again. Nearly stopped him from doing psychedelics ever again

!!! Same here I smoked a ridiculous amount of 20X and had some fuckin crazy kaleidoscope visuals, then around 10 minutes later I snapped out of it and thought 3 hrs had gone by. Also I was laying on my side for some reason...and my bong was broken to hell and back. My friend saw Ronald McDonald raping his childhood over and over and over again. Nearly stopped him from doing psychedelics ever again

thats waht my horrible cid trip was like minus ronald and insert hell.

Oh man, that would suck so much. Most of us have bro, i remember doing 7 grams of some highgrade mushrooms and it was my first time doing so much, I layed in bed for like 4 hours and just thought how pointless life was and why god would even create a world and all these people to suffer and all this bullshit. Eventually i remembered fuck this i making my self have a bad trip, then i got up put on some music and tripped out to the visual styles. I litterally wanted to kill my self because life was so pointless and i thought i wasnt gonna go anywhere, but hey you never know untill you like 40 years old right? i still got a good 20 years to go before i make that decision.

At 40 you could still completely change your life around.

I've had the whole "pointless" thinking too and it sucked at first but I started to think about it differently.

My views on what I was learning now are, yeah, all of this is technically pointless but who cares? That doesn't mean you can't have a great time while it's happening. There's not much point killing yourself because it is pointless and we don't need to take everything so seriously. It's like a video game, when something bad happens in GTA or Halo or something you don't really care, because the whole game is technically pointless. However that doesn't mean you can't have fun with it. So I'm learning to not take anything too seriously and just enjoy everything I can to the fullest. Is there a point to any of this, not really, you don't have to live through this but why not? Why not see what happens after the the story line has finished and the credits have rolled? Will it be a black screen or something else?
Who knows, maybe you'll get to continue on some "next gen console" :)

Think about it, killing yourself is like turning off the game halfway in, sure maybe you'll get to play a sequel but will you understand it the way you would have if you finished the first game? That's assuming there is something after words but even if there isn't, then what was the point of turning it off?

Hmm, 12-15 LARGE shrooms seems like a bit much. I did shrooms last night, and did only 2 grams. It was maybe 3-4 small-medium sized shrooms. If you took THAT many shrooms, I imagine that might have a large factor in your trip turning out unpleasant.

The trip itself isn't the most important part of a bad trip, it's how you handle the information the next day.

I usually just brush it off and say, "Bad trip. Whatcha gonna do?"
The only time this didn't work was when my bad trip made me think, "The cosmos is slowly deleting information from my brain."
No idea what it meant, but it was profoundly unpleasant.

The trip itself isn't the most important part of a bad trip, it's how you handle the information the next day.


QFMFT

There are many ways to interpret information learned during a trip. Rethink and evaluate everything and try to find a positive way of looking at it, kinda like what I did after I freaked out about how everything is pointless and the next day turned it into a much more positive lesson.

If it really was just all negative thinking, start trying to change your everyday thinking from negative to positive and try to blow off the bad trip until you can realize a better way of looking at it.