So I went to rehab in st helena and they kicked me out for hustling ciggerettes so they said and spitting nicotine gum on the floor. When I went there I was addicted to alcohol and methadone. I would wake up every morning and drink a bottle of wine and then go about my day. Well after being kicked out of st helena I had to go to this weak ass rehab in frisco called henry olloff and it was stupid. Now Im in this sober living home and I hate it and Im pretty sure Im about to get kicked out because I keep testing positive for thc. anyway if I do get kicked out Im going to take the greyhound back to where I live which is humboldt and my parents said they would pay for a apartment because they are sick of me living with them.

I pretty much figure im going to relapse because Im 20 ill be 21 in june. How bad of an idea do you think purposely relapsing is I plan on getting a fith probably 99 bannas because I hear it is good and taking it on the bus home. I don't think Im going to get back into drugs though maybe weed. But no pills or coke or anything.

Let me tell you me and my buddies thought the same thing about 99 bananas now it is just disgusting. its really pretty shitty actually. Do ythey watch you piss in the cup? Just spend 20 dollars and get synthetic urine to fool the test if they dont watch you. Forget about liqour man that shit sucks anyway just stick with the weed.

you seem like you are on the right track if you stay away from the drugs and alc. Weed shoud be ok. i only say ths because I would have never been able to quit opiates with out being able to smoke weed.

I just miss the feeling of being high and drunk its when I feel the best. I really miss weed alot

Ok, first off. Why were you in rehab? Because it sounds like you didn't really want to be there in the first place?

Did you read it, he said for alcohol and methadone.

I just miss the feeling of being high and drunk its when I feel the best. I really miss weed alot

Well did you get withdrawal from alc? Or do you just crave it?

Did you read it, he said for alcohol and methadone.

Sorry, I should have said WHO admitted him. Did he go on his own accord or did someone take him. Makes a big difference if you ask me.

ya I went so my parents would forgive me for shit I was pretty deep in the drug life. I got arrested all the time for dip's and petty thefts and yea I was in detox for 4 days and i had horrible alcohol withdrawls but I miss it. I used to do a lot of coke but I think Im over drugs I just want to smoke weed and drink when I can I hate this envirement

as much as being sober seems to suck you should try to stick with it.

you never know this may be your last crack at sobriety and a happy life/family....you never know what you could dive into next.....

AFAIK when i fall off the wagon or dip back into addiction, i take it further than where i left off....its that you know....feeling you get where you want it to be the perfect buzz or the best feeling you can achieve...

i dunno man but you seem pretty depressed from no chemicals...do you want some stupid trick ass chemicals running your thoughts and your life???

time will heal everything and you have a jump start on that my friend...

Last night I willingly didn't drink alcohol.

I've been drinking between 4-6 shots every night since July '07.
Just a test if I could manage to sleep without it and it went well.

I feel like a champ. No aldehyde taste in your mouth, no dry mouth, no minor headache if you had too much.

Already, I feel better. I'm not an alcoholic, but sure would drink a lot. I didn't smoke weed either last night, also feel good. I think the workout I had yesterday had something to do with it.

Keep on truckin'!

Take that bus back to where frisco gets all its dank weed man, humbolt got them chronic ass nuggets, thats where its all grown

rehabs a waste of money dude. you know what you wanna do, no one can stop you. only you know you ya know? so keep it going, stay above water..

Read what you said in this qoute again and it should tell you, you need to stay away from alc. If smoking weed will make you want to drink dont smoke weed. You have to learn to live without drugs, it should get easier with time.

If you drank enough to get withdrawals from alc then you CANNOT drink or I PROMISE YOU, you will fall back into it again. I have done this with opiates atleast 5 times. I will think I can get away with geting high for just 1day and it turns to 2 days,3days,4,days, etc. You do not want to go through withdrawals agan do you? I t will just be torture.

If you get kicked out of rehab your PARENTS dont want you living with them so they are PAYING for an appartment for you, and your 20 years old? Your a fucking loser.

That sucks ass man. My advice would be lay off the alcohol for a little bit. Don't drink everyday save it for the weekends. Just smoke more bud man it'll help you relax and not drink. Personally I don't think I could ever get addicted to alcohol I have too weak of a stomach.
But I have to quit smoking bud now and I hate it. So I drink a lot more often now and I really wish I could just go back to smoking pot but I'm going to be on probation real soon. The probation is making me turn to alcohol and more harmful substances rather than smoking something as harmless as marijuana.

henry olloff

Hahaha! I got sent to that when I was like 14. They also asked me to never come back.

Not as big a loser as his parents.

I've been drinking between 4-6 shots every night since July '07.

I'm not an alcoholic...

Oh, really?

Keep your head up man. Just take it one day at a time, break it down into increments of 5 or 10 minutes. Promise yourself you won't use for the next 10 minutes and keep telling yourself that and then you'll find yourself making it through days at a time without using. I had to do this to quit taking benzos and vicodin, extremely difficult but you can do it. Don't worry about the chronic, thats the least of your problems.

Oh, really?

word. seems to me you're in the early stages of alcoholism. it wont be fun going much further. i'd try to find a hobby that doesn't involve any substances, man. see what you think. maybe rock climbing?