My drug use has pretty much always been like this. There will be weeks when all I feel like doing is drugs. Then maybe the next week I'll feel like getting rid of my drugs and staying sober or just sticking to weed. I've been completely content for the past week or so just smoking weed. I stopped doing cocaine, benzos, and even cigarettes and just really enjoyed weed and I was feeling really happy with myself. But this week I've been going back to my bad habits once again. Bought some more smokes, did $100 worth of cocaine in two days, pop around 4mg of klonopin or xanax a day. I just get in a real depressed mood and I turn right back to drugs because I know they will make me happy for little while even though my life is completely shitty right now. Then all of a sudden one day I stop again for awhile and don't even think about the drugs, but after another week or so I just have these intense psycological urges to use and I always cave in...

Any input?

this isn't your live journal or blogger!

Funny, everyone I know on drugs are depressed because they cant stop. If you can go a week and have no problems, then you have nothing to bitch about at all. Quit while you're ahead.

Hmm... oscillation, yup, I tend to do it. It's either because A) I don't have any money B) Everyone's dry or C) I'm just not in the mood to get high.

Funny, everyone I know on drugs are depressed because they cant stop.

Awwww, what a shame. Do they need help wiping their tears and blowing their noses, too?

I do it too man. Alcohol and cigs are the only thing that have a strong grip on me.

Blew through quite a bit of coke last week, quite a few oxys, couple xanax but they never do much for me anyway, weed of course. etc. etc.

This week I took two lines of coke before an exam, because it was offered to me by my good friend, not because I wanted it, I hadn't even thought about it. And maybe four hits of weed. No booze!! No booze in a four day strech is good for me :(

I can't really relate to anything else but weed and pills but i usually just smoke and pop pills in moderation. Pills once every couple months and weed whenever i feel like smoking it. I can stop anytime, start up anytime. Its nice to be in control. I just know certain situations can cause me to spiral downwards into more bullshit.

This thread is just a cop out

Sounds like pretty standard binging behaviour to me.

Weird, I'm the exact same way (except I don't smoke weed..haha). It is just the flow of life don't worry about it dude, make shure you have everything else in check.

Yeah i feel you man i been going through some shit right now got me stressed as fucked. I been a year clean and sober like most druggies i would use to escaped when shit got real stressed just get fucked up and forget about shit.. being really stressed out is triggering it form me i been having bad urges to just get fucked up and forget about it for awhile but the problem will still be there when i am not fucked up so its not worth it plus i am on probation so its not even worth the risk.