In reality, I have pretty bad anxiety. I’m in a state of constant worry about even though I know it, bullshit that I can’t control, and that worrying about is pointless. I still worry. I’m either twisting a strand of hair, biting the insides of my mouth, biting a fingernail or cuticle, in some instances until pretty bad pain including bleeding occurs. I’m also constantly shaking my leg. I’m a very agitated person and it’s hard on my family, I have a real hard time not acting so too. I’m a terrible procrastinator. .5mg. of Xanax is placebo. I feel no better, it seriously takes a full milligram. That is at least what I’m after too. I’ve had panic attacks in the past, but haven’t had a very severe one in quite a while. I’m almost positive I have social anxiety disorder. Not really to bad though, I’ve kinda learned to work through it.

I’m back in school after about 5 years, I’m 21 and am S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D. I’m sure my symptoms alone wouldn’t be enough to get prescribed at least 4mg. of Xanax a day longterm.

Here’s some of the things I was thinking. First of all, the panic attacks are a must. I’m going to base them upon social anxiety. Tell him I’ve missed a bunch of classes because I was so worried about going in and being around all these people I had a panic attack. Tell him things like I sat in my car and breathed into a paper bag, really does work, and it was useless.

Tell him I can just not manage to talk to girls. This is actually true, theirs this REALLY HOT GIRL who sits next to me in WRIT and is very flirty. I feel so clammed up and nervous, hard to think straight, let alone have a good conversation. When I can squeeze my buddy out of one of his footballs, I feel great, have no problem talking to her.

Tell him I am in absolute dread over having another one, and I think it only makes it worse. No matter how hard I try I cannot take my mind off it though. My worry and especially about the p.a.’s makes it impossible for me to pay attention. I’ve needed to ask questions and just couldn’t manage to say something aloud, and as a result missed info.

Tell him in class I feel like everyone is looking at me or something. Based on no rational fear. Can’t think of anything that could of provoked this. I sit awake not being able to sleep or stay asleep at night thinking about how I’m going to have to go out and be in a classroom of people I don’t know, even on nights when I don’t have school the next day. I’ve had bad dreams related to this such as being in class naked, tripping and falling, and being humiliated.

I’m on Lamictal for BPD1 and am not depressed in the least bit anymore. Hopefully, let alone the nature of the symptoms, being on a type of antidepressant will put S.S.R.I.’s out of the question. I’m also on a low dose 25mg. of Seroquel for agitation and not being able to pay attention; anxiety. USELESS. Hopefully she doesn’t try upping that, I already have, useless.

If I can manage, I’m a pretty good actor, when I get into mentioning the panic attacks and social problems I’m going to try and start crying, I’m sure that couldn’t hurt. Can’t really think of shit else right now, will edit. What do you guys think, sound good? Also would it be a bad idea to tell him/her that my friend had started experiencing my same type of symptoms a while ago, and when I take one of his pills, a 1mg. Xanax before school, I can actually go into the class and half pay the fuck attention, and just feel like the old days? I’ve heard it is and it isn’t, so… I don’t plan on abusing these too, am just sick of being a worried, agitated asshole. I know a lot of the more specific symptoms of GAD Panic Disorder, and Social Phobia. Oh and thanks to my own dope fiend mom trying to get shit like this, she told my doctor years ago I was drug user. Say things like I’ll bring pills in at random to be counted, take blood levels, etc? I doubt I’ll get them next Thursday with my present doctor and I’m already to switch to a known…good doctor. Well I guess throw in anything you think would help, especially some bizarre, not to well known symptoms such as the dreams I mentioned.

Also, I don't know if this is anxiety or some other type of mental illness. Kinda like telepathy. If I'm real anxious about something, most recent example, wondering if this girl was going to say yes when I asked her out, I'll constantly think things like, for ex. I put the bottle of hot sauce in the fridge on a certain cabinet, I closed the door and immediately thought if I open it back up and put it on a different shelf, she'll say yes, but she'll say no If I keep it on the same shelf. I know this shit is very irrational, but it is very hard to ignore. I've been getting better lately at ignoring these thoughts and dismissing them as bullshit, which they are, but when something I'm very anxious about is on my mind and I get these thoughts about it, I CAN'T ignore them. This is very annoying. Is it anxiety or something crazy?

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Tell him in class I feel like everyone is looking at me or something. Based on no rational fear. Can’t think of anything that could of provoked this. I sit awake not being able to sleep or stay asleep at night thinking about how I’m going to have to go out and be in a classroom of people I don’t know, even on nights when I don’t have school the next day. I’ve had bad dreams related to this such as being in class naked, tripping and falling, and being humiliated.



I've been dealing with this same thing. I'm 20 (21 in june). This same paranoia hit me after I started college in '05, and progressively worsened over time.

If I walk by 2 or more people walking together, I get the feeling that they're laughing at me or talking about me. They always seem to start talking right after I pass. I'm not some weird looking creep, so I know they're really not talking about me, and I make sure to reassure myself of this often. Try it.

As for the not sleeping, all I can say is it sucks doesn't it? Feeling drained all of the time. You may want to look into getting Lunesta. That stuff is amazing at making you pass out no matter what state of mind your in. I had to quit taking it after the first month though, because it gave me amnesia in the mornings. I could shut 4 alarms off, go back to bed and not remember a thing.

Its worth a try for you though, as everyone is different. Talk to your doc.

Well I have no idea if I helped you out at all. Just my 2cents

Absolutely, just the kind of response I'm after. Appreciate it much!!!

Glad I could help.

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Do not bump your own thread if it's on the first two pages.

Next time you do I will just delete your thread. Your thread is no more important - or less important, for that matter - than anyone else's.

...wow. I could barely understand that. It's a good thing you've gone back to school...

I'll just say this, It's all in your head. If everybody else can be normal, you can too. Everybody worries about what people think of them, or what people will say or whatever. Granted some people have it worse than others, it's still nothing you can't overcome all by yourself with the power of your mind.

Usually people suffer from this sort of stuff because they have super low self-esteem. So maybe get a job or something so you can start feeling better about yourself.

Seriously, everybody in the world is a fucking retard. Once you realize this, you realize it's retarded to give it a second thought what retards are thinking/saying about you.

Also, make friends. Being in a social mood helps things move smoother.

Above all else, just remember to always be yourself. Once you are 100% comfortable with who you are, and how you act (in public and private) then you will feel no need to not act yourself. When you act natural, you are way more at ease. You are not on the edge of your seat.

Do this.

Thanks for the advice so far, doesn't anyone have any more?

Your paranoid huh? Maybe a bit squirmy, a tad bit anxious. Well you had better be watching out your windows for me. I know where you live, and I'm coming to your house.... to burn it down. Ill be arriving in a black sedan, and I am constantly following you and watching you so keep an eye out. Me and all of your family and friends have been conspiring behind your back, and we are out to get you, just a question of when. Have a good evening!

This.

CRACKED ME UP!

I had really bad anxiety when I was young be then heroin came in my live and was by far the most effective anti-anxiety medicine I have ever used.
Now that I'm off the heroin my anxiety is back in full force and it blows dick.
All in all what I'm saying is yeah, you've got anxiety and any medicine that actually works is short term and will eventually cause more harm than good so you have to learn to coupe with your anxiety.

Is this a symptom of your devastating mental illness, schizophrenia?

Do not bump your own thread if it's on the first two pages.

Next time you do I will just delete your thread. Your thread is no more important - or less important, for that matter - than anyone else's.

i have to admit it, its less important then mine:o

i have to admit it, its less important then mine:o

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I know this. I plan on plenty of C.B.T. I'm sure my doctor will give me much more Seroquel first. Maybe that will help with with my extreme agitation and anger, but who knows. I KNOW Xanax works great, but it does have extreme downfalls. I'm going to try other shit first, although who knows how bad an anti-psychotic will be in the long term, could be worse than Benzos.

All the good something causes that works, can't be less than the harm, in my case.