i feel like im going through a pyschosis.

if youve read any of my other posts you'll know that i'm extremely bothered by the concept of cheating, especially since ive come to uni and seen almost everyone cheat with anyone.

i'm not a huge moralist, but this paranoia has always nagged at me a bit, and gives me a constant shit feeling. and to multiply it, i have trust issues with most people i know.

ive been in a relationship for around 2 years now, and 1.5 of those have been long distance. for the most part, its been really good and as of the past year or so shes asked me to marry her and i know thats on her agenda. and when im with her she seems like easily one of the most trustworthy people i know.

but once i leave home, and go back to good old T.O. for some reason within a few weeks time i'm almost convinced shes cheated on me. I just replay some inconsistancies in my head over and over and its slowly driving me insane.

now to the meat of the problem...a few months ago we were talking about a girl who was after me for a long while, and out of the blue she brings up a situtation that was similar she said.

her neighbors asked her to hang out with their nephew who came out of town. so they went to the gym a few mornings in a row, and after a while she said that he wanted to go every morning and that was getting annoying.

well the day following her saying that we had a bit of a weepy session because I was unsure about how serious things we're getting between us.

^^well a year later i hear that morning apparently he came on to her and she told me she rejected him. and she was afraid to tell me that day because she knew "it would upset me"... maybe legit?

the otherone was a complete dumbass move on my part. she has a really good guy friend(which is ehh, regardless) and i wasnt able to make it home for one of her highschool dances so she asks if it would be alright if she went with him because apparently he didnt have a date this time around. they didnt dance because she had a broken ankle and the night seemed alright. but afterwards, when i get home she makes a point of telling me theres a kid spreading the rumor they had sex and she wanted to tell me before i heard it from anyone else. the kid spreading the rumor is a known dumbass however.

so i dont know. this is where i am. really i was completely indifferent in the past but its become increasingly nagging, espeically as we get more serious. i could be completely off in suspecting anything, but for some reason there are some days where i feel like i missed the truth.

and as selfish as it may be im contemplating breaking up, because its gotten to the point that this interferes with my normal living. i dont have any damned peace of mind.

your thoughts totse?

We can't tell you whether or not your girlfriend is trustworthy. You have to figure that out on your own. But if you can't trust her, why are you with her?

of course im considering it, but at this point leaving isnt a decision i'd make in one day. but on the other hand i cant really think of a person i know that i have a decent level of trust in, thats a severe relationship handicap to begin with.

sounds like she cheated on you

There is no way anyone here could help on this kind of thing, without a few more details.

And naked pics.

Wrong time?