So, I left home headed back for Iraq and before I left I stoped by her house to drop off some presents for her and her family. I emailed her when I got back, and here are the emails.

EDIT: in the card I wrote: "A, there isn't much I can really say. We have been friends for a while, blah blah But I love you and always will."

Peace and Love, Ty.





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> Hey A, Just sending christmas emails.
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> Hoped C and your mother liked their christmas presents, and you too. :/. It took me a while to pick out the cards. I had a great time, and casey taught me a shit ton, although I still can't beat him at chess. Oh, I got to play your mother, which I hear is a rare occasion.
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her response


On 12/27/07, SHE wrote:
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> Thank you for the presents my family and I enjoyed them very much. I’m glad you had a good time it was nice to see you again. And yes it is rare for my mom to play chess because C has annoyed her so with it. But take care of yourself and be safe.
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I don't know if its just me or does that seem like she dosen't really give a shit. I mean, my email was kinda short. But it also seems like "Oh, Well". I should probably just get over it. right? But, at the same time I can't figure out why its like that, Here is a girl I would do anything for, and everyone knows it. And I can't get her for some ungodly reason.

*Sigh* any input? Or anything I could say that might get a sort of response that isn't cold out of her?

Well, maybe she just thinks it's a Christmas thing? Maybe she thought you were being especially friendly to her and the family because it's for the holidays, and because you're going to Iraq soon. You might want to be a bit more direct about how you feel.

Or maybe she just doesn't like you.

It's possible that she's just trying to reject you without being awkward. If that's so, just drop it because you can't force her to feel a certain way. Go watch the movie "Legends of the Fall". I don't want to sound like a queer or nothing, but that movie taught me a lot about relationships.

Who knows? I interpreted it as she's just being strong for you, and doesn't try to worry you too much over how much she will miss you.
If i'm wrong, I didn't find the e-mail cold - maybe a bit boring though.

you forgot to edit the name when it appears the second time in the e-mail. just a heads up

it was nice to see you again.

Could she sound less interested?

She sounds like she's writing a formal thank-you note, not a love letter. If you're an official item I'd say that relationship's days are numbered. If she's just a friend then she's not terribly interested.

What the fuck is she supposed to say? Hows things in Iraq???

I think you have too much time to dwell over things... time which you should spend angering yourself over the fact every towel head hates you.

Wayne Brady would choke a bitch if she sent him a letter like that. A little bit of affection wouldn't be too much to ask for. The OP wasn't exactly clear as to what their relationship was but if I'm Iraq I want my girlfriend's letters to read "I love you. I want your cock so bad." And so forth.

Unless draughted, anyone in Iraq is an Iraqui(sp?) or a fucking tool of oppression(sp?).

Oh, I'm sorry I guess I didn't realize free elections were a form of oppression. By that logic the dictatorship that murdered thousands of innocent civilians for being of the wrong ethnic group before it was a utopian paradise.

I came in expecting a suicide thread, only to be horribly disappointed...


Serious note: How about a phone call mate? :)

Ok, lets say someone American or British.

Never give up. Meet apathy with passion.

Leave your soapboxes at home please,everyone.





Maybe the girl wants to be polite because you've been so good to her, but it deffinately sounds like she doesent want anything more from you.
That's not a very nice email really, no questions, no cheesy e-hugs, no way for you to respond to carry on any form of conversation.

It sounds like she's trying to write you off and forget about you. Maybe you should do the same to her.

OH NOES!!!!


NEXT EMAIL!!!!


This is DEEP, but has to be said.

A,


On, the plane ride home I was thinking, A lot. And as much as we're friends, and as much as I love C and your mother. Sometimes, I still consider them more family than mine. Seeing you hurts me too much to be around. I knew I was going to feel that way before I came back, and I know nothing will ever change that.

You used to piss me off, a lot with the way you used to get angry, cry, and Isolate your self to deal with shit. Eventually I started to give a shit when you would come to me, and I would tell you it would be alright, even though I knew I couldn't change your self depricating habits. The fact that you still hang out with T, and well, I'll keep a lot of it to myself, disgusts me. Knowing the shit he got you in to.

I remember when I left and you begged me to stay, and you cried. I don't know how hurt you were, but leaving has weighted so heavily on me that I feel as though nothing can change it, and even if I stayed it would only have been out of some sort of sick thinking I could fix everything idea. And I know I couldn't. It was you who made me leave, and your family who I come back to see.

C is a good friend, and your mother has taught me more than anyone could ever understand. I'm still not sure about you. Angie, you make me feel like shit. I'm sorry, but you do, and I don't know what to do.

Not seeing C and your mother, hurts, but It also means not seeing you, which seems to make things a little easier, cause when I see you and talk to you, it makes me wish Everything would be alright, and I could just stay, And I know I can't.

But seeing You guys fixes my pain, however temporary it is. And I like it more than not seeing you guys. Althought it seems to open a wound everytime, a little bit more.

I guess its kinda up to you,

C and your mother know how much I care, and I'm sure by now you do, but you didn't used to I know you didn't. I probably know this is kinda werid coming from me, I usualy sit in the corner and smile, and am quite quiet.

I am expecting an answer that has always been there. And this might possibly be the last form of communication. I wish you the best, and well. I expect to hang out in a year.

We were friends first, and this might make things weird, but I've had weirder things happen between friends.

Just thought you should know, and maybe this email will help me get some sort of closure for leaving, if not, its just one more thing to weigh on me.

Peace and Love always, Tyler.

P.S. I'm not sure why I am writing this, but after seeing you. I felt I should get it off my chest.

Sorry.


I called her on new years, and well. It was weird. She hadn't read this, and I told her I was sorry, I was pissed off at someone when I wrote it. And it got way too deep.

She told me not to get mad at her, And I told her I know and that it was inmature, and she told me we'll talk later. Soo.

Uh oh!