I've been completely alone for almost 2 years now.

I haven't been asked by anyone, anyone AT ALL in at least 2 years if I want to hang out.
I don't get phone calls from anyone anymore. And in the rare occasion that I do, it's only because the person needs weed or something done for him/her and after I find a hook for them, or do whatever needs to be done; they're not going to be calling me up 2 weeks later to see if I want to hang out. They'll be calling me 2 months later just for another favor.

In my FRESHMAN YEAR of highschool I had my first girlfriend-who was a year older than me, absolutely beautiful; and is probably one of the coolest people I've ever met.

Of course, none of what I thought about her mattered to her since she cheated on me and then cheated on another boyfriend with me and basically lead me on for 2 years straight and just sat there and did nothing when I was OD/ing and had to be rushed to hospital.


I just can't fucking get over her. She's on my mind 24/7 and it's been 1 year since the last time her and I hooked up. It's fucking pathetic because of all the bad shit she did to me, yet I'm still in love with her even though we haven't spoken in months.

Not a single girl has ever hit on me since I was with her.
I seriously just don't know what's fucking wrong with me-I'm smart, I'm fucking hilarious when I socialize with friends in CLASS-I THINK I'm at least somewhat good looking.

I can honestly say, there isn't a fucking MINUTE that goes by where I'm not fucking misreble anymore.



I just don't know what fucking happened to me.
I hang out with nobody at school. The only people I talk to, only talk to me in class.
I fucking hate it. I'm sick of being a loaner. I HAD a very good social life in freshman year but it slowly declined sophmore year and this year it's just completely non-existant.

I'm completely alone. I honestly feel as if there's no one after her- that there will never be another girl that would want to date me. I've tried and tried and tried to get with another girl after her, but none of them ever end up in my bed on the weekends. They end up changing plans and/or bringing along friends if I ask to hang out.

I need serious fucking help. I'm not the kind of person that is supposed to be alone for his entire life.
I just want to fucking die sometimes because I KNOW that for as long as I live, I'll never find someone that I love as much as I love her. And to put it simply, there's not any glimpse of hope that she'll come back.

TOTSE, how do you get friends? how do you end up casually hooking up with girls in the same day that you meet them?
If I live as alone as I currently am for another few months, I honestly don't know if I'm going to end up killing myself because I've tried everything.
People like me, but they don't care to ever see me. Or go out of their way for me like I always do for the ungrateful fucks that even remember my name.

Make friends?

For friends: have you tried trying to chill with people? Buy a 40 of whiskey, invite some friends from school/work over and get to know them.

For girls: if you can only think about this one girl, and you are less attracted to other girls, they will be less attracted to you. It's just the way it works. I think we have some sort of sixth sense, we can tell when guys are interested or not, and when they are we gravitate to them. Get yourself a tub of cookie dough ice cream and have yourself a night of crying and watching cheesy soap operas, or whatever else you need to do to get over her. It'll be hard, but just forget her. Start thinking about other girls you find attractive. Soon they'll take over any thoughts you had about this other chick. Remember, you are better then any stupid broad.

Make friends?

Little problem there: This school is calabasas high.

You can do your own research there.



The kids at this school are goddamn faggots and I have yet to meet a single intelligent person at this school other than her and maybe a few people.
I'm serious when I say that if you don't have a good IMAGE at this school, you aren't going to have an easy time making friends.

They don't care about anything but image at this school. They don't care about anything but image in this fucking TOWN.

I fucking WISH I was poor so I wouldn't have to live here. I'm not like the other people here-at all. The people here are all about cliques and following stereotypes. They're all about name brand this and name brand that. They talk about fucking MYSPACE at school.

I've put up an act for them-but the true me wants to shit all over them, and the true me CAN shit all over them.
I'm not a spoiled, jaded(well maybe I'm jaded but not nearly as much as these kids), closed minded whiney brat like most of the faggots here are.

Get yourself a tub of cookie dough ice cream and have yourself a night of crying and watching cheesy soap operas, or whatever else you need to do to get over her.


Fuck that, that's what the whiskey is for.

Dude fuck this bitch, if she left you when you were OD'ing she either doesn't car or is to stupid to know what to do. Seriously, she cheated on you and probably would again. You don't love her, you just think you do.

The people here are all about cliques and following stereotypes. They're all about name brand this and name brand that. They talk about fucking MYSPACE at school.

Zomg!! You go to high school with teenagers?!

For friends: have you tried trying to chill with people? Buy a 40 of whiskey, invite some friends from school/work over and get to know them.
I'll try it. It probably won't work, and they'll probably end up ditching me, but I'll try it I guess.

For girls: if you can only think about this one girl, and you are less attracted to other girls, they will be less attracted to you. It's just the way it works. I think we have some sort of sixth sense, we can tell when guys are interested or not, and when they are we gravitate to them. Get yourself a tub of cookie dough ice cream and have yourself a night of crying and watching cheesy soap operas, or whatever else you need to do to get over her. It'll be hard, but just forget her. Start thinking about other girls you find attractive. Soon they'll take over any thoughts you had about this other chick. Remember, you are better then any stupid broad.
I've had my misreble "get over her" days.
Many of them.
This past week, was the first in almost a year that I was completely sober.
I'm getting back on track with it-but It's just not gone completely.
It's a lot better than say, a few months ago but it's still pretty bad.
What is THE best way? I've already tried it with drugs and it doesn't work. Not even with life changing substances like acid and mushrooms.

I'm not a spoiled, jaded(well maybe I'm jaded but not nearly as much as these kids), closed minded whiney brat like most of the faggots here are.

You're not close minded, yet you refuse to make friends because you don't like the way people at your high school act?

Zomg!! You go to high school with teenagers?!

You don't fucking get it. You have to know this area to understand what I'm talking about.
This school = rich spoiled brat teenagers

You don't fucking get it. You have to know this area to understand what I'm talking about.
This school = rich spoiled brat teenagers

It doesn't matter where you go, all high schools have cliques, most people care about clothes, and lots of people have myspace.

Wait: you're not the scottish woman who likes foreskin?

instead of sitting at your computer bitching about it get the fuck up and do something, get a corvette shallow bitches love corvettes and they'll suck your cock dry to ride in one

You're not close minded, yet you refuse to make friends because you don't like the way people at your high school act?

When the fuck did I say I haven't tried to be friends with these people?
I AM friends with these people=but I have no group to hang out with. No circle of friends.
The only time I talk to anyone is during class. Never outside of school. And never at lunch.

I do every little goddamn favor that they ask-I make them laugh with EASE and yet they STILL don't hang out.

If I was closed-minded, I wouldn't have made this thread.

I don't want a shallow bitch.

When the fuck did I say I haven't tried to be friends with these people?
I AM friends with these people=but I have no group to hang out with. No circle of friends.
The only time I talk to anyone is during class. Never outside of school. And never at lunch.

I do every little goddamn favor that they ask-I make them laugh with EASE and yet they STILL don't hang out.

If I was closed-minded, I wouldn't have made this thread.

I hang out with nobody at school. The only people I talk to, only talk to me in class.

Seriously, how hard is it to go up to someone and say "Hey, are you doing anything after school? Wanna hang out?"

I'll try it. It probably won't work, and they'll probably end up ditching me, but I'll try it I guess.


*motherly tone* It's this kind of attitude that's making people dislike you mister!

Honestly, people love whiskey. Just bring it up sometime "So do you guys drink? Yeah, I've got some *insert alcohol here* I've been wanting to get rid of. Just bring some joints and we can chill." I sweartagod they wont ditch you.

I don't want a shallow bitch.

well you gotta start somewhere unless you wanna end up with your hand for the rest of your life ...

well you gotta start somewhere unless you wanna end up with your hand for the rest of your life ...

If a girl is very shallow...she probably won't even think twice about staying away from me.
I don't know how I managed to get with that girl to be honest.
Maybe I had less anxiety before I met her.
I need to know if I'm ugly or not.
If I am, fine. I just need to know.
This is what I looked like last year:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v308/st000pid1/l_c9e6faab4213c6a3cd6c4f285a7c23b2.jpg
see...I didn't always used to be this much of a loaner
this is what I look like with my hair cut shorter:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v308/st000pid1/l_38819c92e31d12311d76c90ca62a98d1.jpg

this is what I currently look like:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v308/st000pid1/l_95260542d34f69116038c8b0ba918b92.jpg
my hair is actually maybe like 2-3 inches longer than it was in that pic.


I just feel fucking stupid for still being attracted to her.
I gave her a necklace that my mom wore when she was alive and she goes and pulls all the shit she did on me. ga.

I just wanna say you look cool in that last pic. Chicks are stupid, you might get lucky and have a cool one fall in your lap...

Your hair gives off a strong radiance of nerd.

Hell, you're not ugly. Chicks like masculinity, especially in schools. Blame that fucking hairdo.

Hook them with a look of masculinity, and they won't care when you open your true self. Respect yourself, and you'll have tons of friends, and no problem finding a girl.

Clothing is a mask. Clothing and style appeals to women. Don't assume everyone is a cunt without knowing their personality, simple as that. There is more to a person's personality than their clothing

Finding one woman doesn't mean you're doomed to lavish over her forever. You hang out with them, and if you don't like them, find another one to date. Now, that doesn't mean you'll stop being friends with them.

Women will open their true self once you are confident in your own self. Complicated indeed, but you'll see.

By the way, I'm not even a woman and I can tell you lack respect for yourself by just looking at your picture. It's almost obvious to others. I blame the hair.

You really do need to have confidence in yourself, or women will really whip your ass.

How short should I cut it?
And yeah, I really do lack confidence when it comes to relationships and talking to people.
It's improved of course, but I've just always been this way because I used to be a fat fuck all the way until high school.
I've gotten over that shit, but still..The self esteem issues linger

How short should I cut it?
And yeah, I really do lack confidence when it comes to relationships and talking to people.
It's improved of course, but I've just always been this way because I used to be a fat fuck all the way until high school.
I've gotten over that shit, but still..The self esteem issues linger

Short. Somewhere between very short and full (Where you can just see the full color of your hair).

Take your pick.

No reason to beat yourself up like this though. It's not like people will bite your skull if they don't like you. Women like confidence, no simpler statement.

I can't evaluate your personality entirely on a count of a couple of posts and a picture, but look at yourself now, and say "I'm fucking better than this." Course you are, but your actions now isn't because of yourself, it's your state of mind. Stuff like this, it's in people's heads, it obviously isn't their true self. Use your imagination, you're definitely not stupid.

Lol dude, i kind of feel your pain.

No one calls ME to hang out, it goes this way.

Either I call them and kind of act like a sad puppy (not really, just.. weasel my way in.)

or they call me for a favor (get drugs or alcohol), and I do it and kind of stick around.

I see it as fucking annoying behavior on my part, but i don't get why people don't call me, so I have to make it myself.

I, myself would be fine with chilling at home some of these times and smoking weed myself, but my mom would get concerned and be weird.

im friends with everyone at school, but theres only a few people who want to hang out, and I have to call then il be invited.

its like theres a barrier, i know why, cuz im weird, but it sucks.

but hey, at least you had a girlfriend; ive only taken bicycles for a spin if you know what i mean.

I don't know where all this hair bullshit talk came from. It's sounds just like something my mother would say.

My hair is longer than his, and hell, I don't even bother to shave, but just because my appearance is like that doesn't mean I don't respect myself...

I agree with everything else that was said though. Women like confidence.

From other's perspective it looks like it.

Even if you do respect yourself, people are gonna assume you don't if you have hair like that. You can fool with long hair in a lot of ways, and it may suit others better, but when I look at that picture I think of mushrooms.

From other's perspective it looks like it.

Even if you do respect yourself, people are gonna assume you don't if you have hair like that. You can fool with long hair in a lot of ways, and it may suit others better, but when I look at that picture I think of mushrooms.

Lol, the mushroom metaphor is a good one.

Even though my hair is long, I make sure I mantain it properly so I don't look like some grungy hippie.

And I see where you're coming from. No one can really tell if you respect yourself or not, but that still doesn't stop them from evaulating you atleast on some level when they first come into contact with you (Even if it be subconscious). If you look like you don't respect yourself, they unfortunately assume that you don't.

Hey man, I dig your hair. You look like a pretty cool dude.

If you´re funny, kindof float around everywhere, and always have weed - you seem just like the kindof fellow i´d be willing to get to know.

You´ve complained alot about people not inviting you out - but when´s the last time you invited somebody to come smoke a bowl with you? Just do it. Monday after school, everybody´s leaving, play the pansy and ask somebody if they´ve got a lighter. Tell them you were just going to smoke a few bowls, but can´t find your fire. Invite them to come along. It´s easy cakes man. Make it informal, then once they´re there stun them with your wit and generosity. The next time, you´ve got some dope - invite them again, say you had a good time - you like smoking with those people, they´re chill to be around.

I don´t know, if you want to talk my msn is in the corner.

Aye, do what Kirk says, roll a nice joint and find somebody and suggest smoking it.

dude i like your hair... then again i go to a school where everyone is a stoner with long hair and its sort of what everyone is used to so i dont really know where everyone is coming from when they say it makes you look like you don't have respect etc.

And holy crap man! you play bass? invite some guys over and they'll see your bass in your room and be like "oh, do you play bass?" and be modest and say "yeah well... i dabble" and then pick up your bass and blow them away with your skillz...
then again i'm assuming you have t3h guitar skillz.

You sound like me a few years back, for years 7 and 8 i had no friends... well i had individual friends who i would occasionally see but i didn't have a group of people i would hang out with on the weekends. I would sit with this one group for lunch just so i didn't look like a complete loner and i would talk to them during lunch but that would be about it.
Then my school combined with another school so i met a whole lot of new people and now finally i have a proper, defined group which i'm in the core of :)

you should go out and meet some new people, you don't need to have a crew from your school, not everybody has one simply because they don't get along with the people in their school. Also don't just look for people within your year, go through all the years.

Anyways, i'm drunk so i don't really know what i'm saying but i hope whatever it was was relatively useful. Good luck sir

When the fuck did I say I haven't tried to be friends with these people?
I AM friends with these people=but I have no group to hang out with. No circle of friends.
The only time I talk to anyone is during class. Never outside of school. And never at lunch.

I do every little goddamn favor that they ask-I make them laugh with EASE and yet they STILL don't hang out.

If I was closed-minded, I wouldn't have made this thread.

You sound like you're a bit too nice. You've gotta say "no" sometimes, otherwise people take your help for granted.

Try to get acquainted with new people. There's gotta be someone similar to you in the town.

Edit: Oh yes, and if you like your hair, keep it. Don't do things to yourself because others might like it - do them only if you think you might like it. Some people will like it, some people won't, it doesn't matter - that will always be the case.

Alright, thanks guys.
I like the way it looks but it's so fucking annoying because it gets insanely tangled every single day and I'm sick of untangling it.

Another reason, it's not easy being a metalhead at this school.
There's maybe like 30 people of 2000 that aren't wiggers. My first and only was a metalhead girl so I guess that's why she was pretty easy back when I had more confidence.
Another problem though, many people are the typical "OMG WEED IS BAD BUT I STIL DRNK LOL" faggots at this school, but whatever. I guess I'm going to start drinking again and never tell anyone I meet from now that I've done acid and other hard things...

wow cut your hair... how could anyone ever think that's attractive

*Plays violin*

...you are less attracted to other girls, they will be less attracted to you. It's just the way it works. I think we have some sort of sixth sense, we can tell when guys are interested or not, and when they are we gravitate to them.

The entire statement I just quoted is complete bullshit. 100%, pure, grade A unadulterated bullshit.

Damn man I can relate to a slight degree.

I used to simply "hang out with" (do drugs and sit around talking and being a pretty friendly with) a really cute cheerleader from my high school.

She was really hawt, and the way she acted was so cute. She was not extremely dumb , and could hold a conversation so my heart immediately became intoxicated. Her speech, hair, clothes, walk, playful eyeing, even her fucking smell.

She wrote me little lovey notes with hearts on them in classes, and tackled me with hugs at lunch, after school, etc, BUT SHE ALWAYS HAD A FUCKING BOYFRIEND the entire time I knew her. Not just any boyfriends, seemingly nonexistant ones that were 6'4" 250 and could break my skinny ass neck.

So, I fell madly in love with her, always keeping a slight distance so I wouldn't have to use a wheelchair, and we eventually parted ways (slightly against our will, like moving away and such).

I fear she has poisoned my heart. I cannot help but think of her every waking moment. Deep down inside, now that I look back, I think she wanted me to semi-rape her.

I mean... she sometimes gave me that look... and I was the "good guy" for not pseudo raping her (like
Ohhh, no.. stop... no... stop it... yeah... yeah... YEAH!!! *sexes). I did not pounce on her because she always "was taken" by large, bouncer/brutish guys. MEAN guys. The kind that gave wedgies and dumped kids head first into trash cans.

She is not my ideal girl, but the imprint that manupulative (occasionally meth-using... that was probably responsible for most of the nutty moments) biatch left on my psyche scarred me for life.

Other girls seem so very attractive, but sometimes I find myself deflecting flirtations like a mirror does the sunshine. I go home.. sit quietly to myself, and think "GET OUT OF MY MIND, WOMAN!!!"



I am not sure if that made any sense.

You got alot of advice, and maybe I can give you a bit more. The past few days Ive been damn miserable because I thought that a superb girl doesnt like me, it turned out the other way around and Im one happy mofo. Thing is, if you feel bad, think bad, youll stay sad and all that shit, its something like a motherfucking maelstrom. The advice I can give you is: get over that girl, there are thousands more to meet, but none will be just like this girl. They will be different but they will also be good, loveing etc. As for socializing, dont be too open and too polite, I mean, be good to strangers but dont let them push you around. Dont talk about your LSD and shit, be the good guy, be the funny guy, be the wierd guy. Im the wierd guy in my circles, the 'dead baby jokes- kind of guy and yet people seem to like, even girls seem to like me, maybe because they see me as a fucked up person, but a good one none the less.

Cheers dude, I really hope you get better. Keep us updated.

/neck

That would be "piegirl" my friend :)

That would be "piegirl" my friend :)

Gee, I'm glad that's how people see me.

Heh I'm a loner metalhead too...but I like being by myself so I'm cool with that.

I'm cool with others but like you said...they're all fucking stupid, they can get drunk but me smoking weed and tripping is like "zomfg drug addict".

Whatever...shows who're actually true friends.

Oh wow, you remind me of myself.


People tend to fuck me over. Seeing that, I lost 5 of my "best friend" and bunch of people who was friend with me.

I had a slutty girlfriend of 1.5 years during my freshmen year(and she was year older than me too lol). She cheated on me with 3 mid-age fat guys.

Here's what you should do, makes friend OUTSIDE of your school. That's how I made bunch of new good friends and girlfriends.

Here's what you should do, makes friend OUTSIDE of your school. That's how I made bunch of new good friends and girlfriends.


How did you meet them?

Get a new hobby or do something with your hobby.


For example, I like to skateboard. I'd go to skatepark to meet people(and skate, of course).

Boxing, I go to gym and meet people.

Um...and other stuff. I also meet people on forums. (FUCK meeting people on totse!) Beware on that one, just make sure the person is legit before you meet them.

Fuckin sounds like me too. I've been single for almost a year and haven't had anybody really serious since then. I've tried, but nothing ever comes of it. I work 6 days a week, so I have no time to do much of anything. When I do have free time to go out, I often just go drink @ the bar or Fridays alone because I have no friends here. Everyone I knew from high school has gotten knocked up/married, moved or just won't talk to me. I've gotten to the point where I just don't fucking try anymore. I'm going to be in school again in a few weeks so hopefully I'll make friends there. But goddamnit I'm lonely. I also have an ex who is always on my mind, she's the reason I moved back down here. She lives with some douch a couple hours away, who completely controls everything she does. Keeps her car keys, keeps her money, wont let her have a phone etc. And there's not a goddamned thing I can do. It's infuriating because if she was here I'd be a whole lot less lonely and a lot happier

Hey man, I dig your hair. You look like a pretty cool dude.

If you´re funny, kindof float around everywhere, and always have weed - you seem just like the kindof fellow i´d be willing to get to know.

...

I don´t know, if you want to talk my msn is in the corner.

lol y u pedo me?

Buck up buddy,
I'm not going to bullshit you and tell you everything's going to be fine because there's no guarantee that it will. However there's no reason to believe that it won't either. You're young and as long as you're alive you have reason to hope. Yeah shit's shitty now but unless I read you wrong you're still in high school which means you have all the time in the world. I've been where you are and to a certain extent I still am. I got fucked over by a girl I cared deeply about. After the breakup I lived alone in a shitty basement apartment a stone's throw from a cemetary and for months I only got out of bed to shit bath and go to work. I was miserable I didn't speak to anyone and I had no friends or social life. That all changed when by chance I met an old friend by chance on the train and the next thing I knew I had a social life again. Just by pure dumb luck.

Which is what's going to happen to you, maybe it won't happen today maybe it won't happen tomorrow, maybe it won't happen a year from know but eventually bit by bit your life will become full again. Of course there's no guarantee that it will but who cares,there's no guarantee you won't get hit by a bus tomorrow but I doubt you obsess over that. So focus on the life that you have and not on the life that you don't. You haven't found love yet but guess what neither have I and neither have a lot of other people and a lot of the people who think they have haven't really, they've just had the bad luck to fall in love with your or my psycho ex-girlfriend. Take comfort in the fact that there are a lot of other miserable people out there and though you may feel alone you're really not because in actuality we're united in our miserableness.

Gee, I'm glad that's how people see me.

No anyone with a brain will see you as a hot scottish 'lass' :)

murder/suicide

Goddamnit, what the hell is going on? This is like another person that I thought was a girl and turned out to be a guy...

E: I_like_pie that is...

Welcome to the internet.

Dude we're in the same boat. granted i'm older, probably smarter, and better looking. we're both into drugs, we both get into rotten ass relationships, we both get too attached, and there's probably more that you haven't said about yourself. oh yeah, friends. i have friends just not that many, i've recently started loathing most of my friends from hs. and it's hard to make friends at my school, commuter campus. i need a woman, god damn.