I'm not really one for posting personal stuff on &Totse, usually only when things are pretty shit.

My problem with women is that when one comes into my life that I like for whatever reason, I fall for her big style. It doesn't matter who she is, what people think of her or if she's got a boyfriend, it just gets burned into my head, and I act completely without thinking.
I look back on past relationships and kick myself for the amount of stupid things I've done, but at the time it's like my head just doesn't work properly, and I only see things in a certain way.
So when I fall for a girl, I'm utterly convinced at the time that she's "the one" for whatever reason- Doesn't matter if it's the freckles, or the cute smile or whatever. I just think they're perfect.
So I'm infatuated for a little while, then I either sleep with them and lose intrest, or don't sleep with them, and stay friends with them untill I find someone new to entertain me, and the cycle repeats itself.
These girls that I like, I treat like princesses because I'm a gullable fool, however any girl who I'm not intrested in, but who is intrested in me I treat like shit. I really don't know why I do it, maybe subconciously I do it just to make myself feel better.

But now there's someone new. I don't really know how she found her way in, because generally for me to properly care about someone takes a lot of work on their part, but this one is different.
I'm pretty sure she knows I like her, and she's never said she likes me back, so I assume it's a dead issue and I'm not really in the mood to confront it. I'm not gutted that I can't have her, I just hate how she'll probably never understand just how special she is.

I'm kinda scared that if I move onto the next one, I'll just remember her as another face. That said, I'm more scared that I won't be able to move onto the next one. Every new girl I meet now, I cannot help but compare everything about them.
Why would I want to settle for someone else, when I've already found the person that's exactly like me?


No questions, just ranting. Flames/Trolls welcome.

Easily infatuated, lose interest easily, treat people who like you like shit...Holy crap...You're a cheerleader!