ok, set the scene..

There I am, either fapping away to hot mental images of girls..or something like that..usually my hot cousin* or previous sex experiences..
OR banging my girlfriend..

just get to climax..come..

then straight after I reject every image I had, dismiss it as "twisted" or "sick" and feel really bad about it.
If I am with my girlfriend, then I give her a cuddle, kisses etc but I usually do something like get dressed real quick (i'm not ashamed of my body) or come here on &T (my version an "after sex cigarette" if you will)

I mean, I am the biggest wanker I know - it's natural, normal, whatever, but for some reason I just feel shit after I come..it might have something to do with a previous addiction to drugs. Nothing major, as I was prescribed them, but it seems to bring back bad memories as i get that "rush"

..any advice/similar stories? :(

*=It's legal, she's not related by blood

I usually feel the same way after I climax... It sucks. Don't really know what causes it, but I usually just put the blame on being exposed to religion by my family at a young age... I figure it must have taken it's toll on me and brainwashed me to some extent (Atleast on a unconscious level) into thinking and feeling after climax that what I'm doing, under these circumstance, is regarded as morally wrong...

That's just my agenda though, I'm sure everyone has their own... Like, for one instance, I'm sure that some people who feel this way after they climax might have something to do with their self-esteem, and how they identify with themselves emotionally... One might think that they're not worthy of feeling such pleasure, and, inturn, hate themselves for it and feel bad because of it.

But yeah, everyone really is different, and I'm sure there are countless reasons why someone might feel that way after climax depending on the individual.

Yep, that's one of the amazing things about fappage.

One moment you're jerking it like there's no tomorrow and feel like you're in heaven, and then *wham*! - Back to suicidal depression. :D

You can try holding it off for longer, in that case you still have a few loads in your balls after your blow, the pleasure is more intense, and if you shoot really far you get a sense of pride and achievement that overwhelms the depression.

And the fact that your balls are not empty also means that you don't get freaked out by the stuff you've just fapped to.

Called the afterglow. Always sucks. Sometimes I get really fucking horny and I'll be thinking about the nastiest craziest shit I can think of and then literally the second after I bust I start thinking shit like "ooooohhhhh god thats fuckin sick" and how fucked up I am for thinking that shit.

Oh well, not a lot a guy can do. Just keep fappin.:)

I'm pretty sure it's caused by a drop in testosterone.

It doesn't happen every time I blow my load, but a lot of times, I'll start thinking, "god, why did I think of *that*? I'm fucking disgusting."

But it doesn't happen all the time. Not even most of the time.

Like, 2/10 times.

prolactin, prolactin, prolactin.

google it.

I think I used to feel like this. I don't really remember it ever stopping but usually when I'm done jerking and closing through porn windows and see something ridiculous/disgusting I just figure "Hey who gives a shit, i was horny"

I do the same shit. I'll be fapping and going all out then after I'm done I feel disgusted. I jerk off thinking about some fucked up shit sometimes haha but who cares, it's what gets you off so you clearly like it.

"I'm a sex god I'm a sex god I'm a sex--...I'm pathetic."

this.

...i don't feel horny right after, but the dopamine doesn't exactly go away that quickly.

I always feel depressed after sex/fapping, it does suck.

I semi-regularly have visions of eating my cum when I'm done... then it's over and I'm like ew.

lol gay

I semi-regularly have visions of eating my cum when I'm done... then it's over and I'm like ew.I've thought about that, too, so you're not alone :)

I think Robin has actually provided an answer. I never really thought of it like that. Although I get it 99% of the time.