soon I'll get out of here, stop taking orders from my YOUNGER SISTER!! "clean this" "wipe that" "no it has to be THIS way!" one day the apartment will look one way, the next completely different, everything is in flux. Always with the orders, fucking OCD bitch, not everything has to be your way you know, other people like myself are smarter than you, and you! what are you other than a basket case who's only defense left is to scream at your boyfriend, hurt his bitch ass so he does stuff for you, and me you threaten with killing yourself, you know what, I hardly care anymore, if you die, I get more money.
I need to get out of here, i need to finish high school, I need. to be free, I need to go out in this world and finally live my life. But what to do, I don't know... at all. what to be what to do. how are you going to classify yourself for the rest of your life!am I a psychiatrist, a marine biologist, or am I a bricklayer or a bus driver. or a garbage man
then there is the girl...I want her. I love her, I think she loves me. but I'll never know. unless I do something, but I'm too afraid. I am pathetic now, she could never love me, but I love her, how do I get her...but I know this. I have to succeed, I've never been good at that. but I love you and I want to hold you...is that enough?
Im lonely having no-one but knowing the one I love, tired of working tasks that have no meaning or relevance. and living a life devoid of a foreseeable future.
I am disgusted with my self.
and yet I will do nothing to change it.

Man, slow the fuck down.

Hate to tell you this but the moment you moved out is the day you run into a thousand dollars worth of bills! And you still aint free, hell you're a slave to the system. If not to the school system, the prison system, the freedom system. Fuck, its a system no matter where you go. I'm a slave to the military system. You exchange one slavery for another.

Just that you exchange some freedoms for another. Free meals comes with living the parents while in high school. Cept you cant pick and choose what you eat. Move out, have the freedom to choose what you eat, but it may not be as good as the home cooked shit you ate at home. For the first year of my life a home cooked meal was a rarity.

Now that I have my apartment, I not only save money but I eat better by making one every few days.

desert..I have my own apartment, I share it with my sister though, parents were out of the picture 3 years ago.

Well that being said. Sounds like you know what needs to be done. So, what you going to do about it?

You can sit here, bitch about totse and do nothing, or you can sit there, let totse help you out, but immediately act upon it. Remember the motto of totse:

Read * Know * Do.

I read, i know. I dont do. I sit and wonder why i don't "do" i tell others that I want to "do" but cant.
im fucking pathetic.

Marijuana.

It's now or never,
'Cause I aint gonna live for ever,
I just wanna live my life alive,
'Cause it's my life

Awkibo, could you make it on your own?
your sister sounds really quite scary.

You're like fucking Hand of Zek except younger and with a worse sense of grammar.

First off you're being bossed around by your younger sister, and you say you're still in high school so that means your sister is either still in high school or an even lower grade. What the fuck? You need to grow some balls and take charge of her dumb little ass. If she threatens to kill herself don't ever simply give in to her whims, but instead either rationally evaluate the situation and either reach a compromise between the two of you or ignore her/slap her around a little and show her who's boss (throw in a little buttsecks if you're going for super-lulz.)

Secondly, the girl; Well I have no idea what you're talking about other then that you're madly infatuated with some girl. The only advice I can give is to put off trying to get with her for now, and start talking to some girls perhaps more in your league.

And finally, what to do with your life... Well I have no idea what you're good at but if you don't know what you want to be, then analyze your strengths and weaknesses and pick a career path that you think you would do well in and one that isn't something you dislike doing, and bingo! You've got yourself something to strive for.

Good luck dude, the best way to become more motivated is to be happy, as corny as that sounds its true.

words

I like you.

Edit: Except for the HandOfZek bit. That was harsh.

I like you.

Edit: Except for the HandOfZek bit. That was harsh.

Haha I'm honored. I like you too yoyo.

They do have a point dude, how the fuck are you getting bitched around by your younger sister?

Isnt this considered bitching and moaning? I cant see how any of this is about Sex and Affection unless sister really means girlfriend...okay fine. I'm just getting annoyed cause there's a lot of "poor me" without no solutions.

They do have a point dude, how the fuck are you getting bitched around by your younger sister?



she's insane. whenever i try and make an argument, she will interrupt and start talking about how this argument relates t this argument which relates to THAT argument that proves she's right..somehow.
any attempt to dissuade her from the truth will result in even more yelling screaming and and general shit-stormerie.

I want to hit her. I want to kick her a bit too. unfortunately her bruiser boyfriend is always around, he doesn't mind if we "battle" verbally since his girlfriend always avoids questioning and answering things she knows she's wrong about.
but if I were to hit her, he would get involved and I generally like my teeth.