from the beginning:

i saw this girl around school alot. i thought she was cute so i asked a friend of mine to find out what her name was and such. the next day i find out her name is arah and she has a boyfriend. i dont care. about a week later i get a text.
"hey whats up, this is sarah. do you have text?"
i kinda forgot about her so i asked, "sarah who?"
"how many sarahs do you think are cute?" i am in.

well at this time last year i was playin the player card. i didnt need a girlfriend. i didnt want another bill. the last girl i dated was mentioned about two years ago in this forum. i posted pictures and videos. (i have gone through the archives, all of links to the videos are dead.) if another relation were to turn out anything like that one, i didnt want any part of it.

so we talked. alot. i could tell she liked me. she never said it but i knew. i thought she was cute, but a little immature and kinda annoying (most chicks are). but we talked all the time. text, phone calls, hung out every once in a while. she rode her bike to my work to visit me a couple times. that was my chance. but i did nothing. for a looong time. basically for about 4 months.

over the summer i started talking to and old elementary school friend that grew up and developed quite nicely. long story short = a fucking cunt. during that time kinda ignored sarah.

we spoke this year like normal until i saw her kiss this guy at school. she saw me see her and froze. didnt say anything. it was her date to homecoming. i guess eh was a dick but according to her friend she liked(/likes) him.

i know i know. i didnt know what i had until i lost it. but since then i have been kickin my own ass to get her back. idk what else to do. i dont talk to her anymore. she has a crazy father that turned off her phone because she got in trouble for talkin to much in one of her classes. and he thinks she is like 10. guys arent allowed to call. so i cant talk to her anymore really i see her once after second hour for like a minute everyday. but i talk to her friend alot. she lets me know whats goin on. i have bein trying hard i gave her flowers and this note last friday and she called me from her friends phones this weekend and we talked a little.

but saturday night. i was partying. kissed some other girl then felt like a dick and told sarah when i got home that night. she seemed okay about it. but lately i cant really read her. i dont know what her deal is. her friend told me she doesnt know what to tell me anymore. i have done everthing i can. and all i can do is wait. she has alot goin on right now and i will just have to wait for her.

and i know it sounds dumb but i dont want to just say fuck it. its too much work. this girl makes me feel good. and i know i fucked it up over the summer (and probably this weekend) but i really would do anything to fix it. i just want to be iwth her. talk to her. fuck.

now what?

wait?
give up?

Don't try to hard. Desperation just screams out to girls. In a bad way. Things like "I'm a bad choice" "no one likes me so theres something wrong with me" and "you can't brag about this". K, so, I'm a bit jaded.

Also, flowers? Save them for an actual date or something. Note was a good idea though. Especially if you can get into writing notes back and forth, she will begin to romanticize you in her mind and apply these traits to you. (good thing).

And you don't have to tell her you kissed around... That tends to only cause trouble. I mean telling her shows me that you like her, but girls tend to be irrational and it's best not to give them anything to fuel any fires with.

"i just want to be with her. talk to her. fuck."
...one of theses things is not like the others, one of these things is not quite the same...

So calm down, relax, and give it some time. Things should work out.

he thinks she is like 10.
For good reason.
She acts like it.

give up?
Check. She isn't worth your time. Move on.

Ya I learned that lesson to last year. I waited too long to ask this one girl out, and was like damn when she moved on. But I'm happy I didn't go out with her now. So I've known this other girl for about 2 weeks now, and I'm asking her out tomorrow. Don't wait.

Kinda play this girl again like you don't even know her. Catch her attention, and just kinda start over. IM her or something, and start talking to her normally. Don't do any gay shit, just take it easy and see how it goes. If she seems interested go for it. Got ne pics of her?

Kinda play this girl again like you don't even know her. Catch her attention, and just kinda start over. IM her or something, and start talking to her normally. Don't do any gay shit, just take it easy and see how it goes. If she seems interested go for it. Got ne pics of her?

i would if i could haha. she kinda lives pretty simply.
no phone.
no myspace.
no IM.


but i think its going to work out.
but you are too late on the gay shit.
haha. i already did them all.

its over.
feel like shit.


and waiting to forget..