Hey homosexuals, bisexuals, whatever.

I'm totally bisexual. Like I kinda always thought, well it's just "Puls" that I love and she'll be the only girl I'll ever be with. Well that would only be true because I don't trust people. The more people you fuck, the more people who know, and then you aren't really closeted anymore are you.

Well anyways... I kind of have needs. Other than masturbating, or anything, how can I deal with this. Is it just cold showers? Or what.

This is so difficult you know. I guess it's a phase. But does anyone have like any comforting words?

I don't want another girlfriend right now. I don't want a boyfriend right now. I guess I could have sex with a boy. That would be fun, but I just had sex with a boy and I want to mix it up.

Should i just observe the girls I know and see if any of them are bi? Should I ignore all these feelings. I have no idea how i'd go about fucking another girl. I think that's another reason why I want a girl right now. I could get a boy easily. Tonight even. It's no fun. I want the chase.

I don't know how it works, but gay people usually have a 'network' of gay/bi people that they know. 90% of them are in the closet and want to keep it that way (especially the guys), so you won't have to worry about them telling.

shit, i know some straight guys that have let gay guys suck them off. you should have no problem.

Okay for the record I'm a girl.. i think you know that.. but just in case you didn't. Anyways I think I need some sort of emotional attachment to the girl just so I can know she won't share. Like I don't want to be apart of some underground sex group.. or maybe.. but even so, wouldn't I have to ask around?

You don't have to "come out" really, but at the same time.. don't stay in the closet. If someone mentions something, why not talk to that person privately?

I can't in my social circles... I would lose everything.

It's okay though. Besides I just can't. I don't know. It's my greatest fear. It's the thing I hate most about myself, yet I really admire it. Like with my past relationship everything was so hard with her... but I've never been so compelled to try. I've never tried for anything in my entire life, and it was great.
I'm also conflicted about ruining how special that experience was. I also refused to let anyone know about us and was very paranoid about it and that was while thinking she could be the love of my life. Now that she isn't, and that I don't have someone who is, why would I sacrifice myself like that for nothing.

Sounds like you need new friends. I really don't think they would be that judgemental... Worst case, get a boyfriend and tell your girl friends that for his birthday/christmas/anniversery/labor day he asked you for a 3some, and you're looking for someone to join in. you and the girl can take it from there privately afterwards.

It's really not a big deal. No one's going to care is you're bi or whatever. Just get it over with. ^^