But they aren't noticeable or public. I'm sure no one I know realizes this except for my parents. They have seen me flip.

I'm very good at controlling myself, that's not the problem. I'm just always angry...

My friends would tell you that I'm a very sweet and compassionate guy. Very relaxed and calm, but that's just my outside.

The other day at work, I nearly went off on a profanity spree on a customer. He was being a dick, he had it coming, but none the less...

Awhile back some people really hurt me, they didn't intend to but they did manage to piss me off very bad. These were my best friends. My BEST friends. I was so fucking angry that I just stopped talking to them for almost a year. One of them almost two years. I am in terms with them now, but I don't know if it'll last much longer.

I said to myself I'd try to change but that rage feeling humans get just keeps building and building in my head. I'm starting to get headaches all the time because of it.

This guy I know always jokes around how one day I'll just snap... I don't even think he realizes how close that is to the truth.

I recall when I was 7 years old, I don't remember what it was, but my mother had pissed me off so I trashed the house. Of course I got my spanking but those grew pretty ineffective. I tried to fight my father later that day. I was 7, and he was a full grown adult yet I tried to fight him anyways. Got my ass handed to me. I've always been pretty angry, then highschool came along and I smoked pot and really chilled out. But now I don't smoke anymore, probably never should have in the first place and I can just feel the rage burning.

I don't have an anger problem just issues. I do not go around belligerently in a rage, I'm very calm most of the time and get along with mostly everybody. It's those very few people... dicks of the world I guess.

I'm not looking for your advice or criticism. I just need to write about it as it helps.

Any of you got anger problems and care to explain and perhaps throw in a story?

Hm, reminds me of my younger school days.
When I was in elementary school I was teased and picked on frequently, and I would end up crying, and the sadness would turn into anger. After a few years of it I would just skip the crying and go right into, as my friends deemed it, "rage mode."
I got sent to the principals office at least 3 times a week. I'd get into lot's of fights, and just go crazy, I'd jump on the person, bite, punch, kick, hell I even got a few headbutts in. And on one occassion I got suspended for slashing at the principal with a knife.
But after about 8 years of it I just learned to take things, pretty much everything, with a grain of salt.
I just stoped caring what people said or thought about me, and it seems to have worked.

http://i185.photobucket.com/albums/x2/miroba/0919071956.jpg
when you start leaving holes i your wall, THATS when you got an anger issue.

I was like that for a while. It might have been insecurities though. Coke will do it to you.

I was at baseball practice for my first time after switching schools (got kicked out for coke, ex ratted on me) and the pitcher kept trying to brake my balls. I saw him trying to tag me twice (when they throw the ball at you, remember they are comming at 80-90mph) but got out of the way. The third time he pitched it and I couldve sworn it looked like a tag so I moved once again and got struck out. This motherfucker starts laughing. I drop the bat and walk right to him, asked him to laugh again. He told me to get out of his fucking face and pushed me. This guy had no idea that ive been doing muay thai for almost 5 years, so I nearly kicked his head off. He dropped right to the ground and the coaches started giving me shit and kicked me off the team. Since then that punk doesnt even look at me in the halls anymore.

I had a horrible time of it in elementary school. I just developed a complete sense of apathy. I generally come off as pretty emotionless. Got to the point where my mother talked to the principal of the school, told him I am was the kind of kid that wouldn't do anything, then would one day show up with a "machine gun" and just open up on the students. (Thanks Mom). Anyways, I was a complete and total mess, to the point of leaving the house only monthly for about 2 years. Then I spent the summer with a bunch of relatives, during which time, I would basically a) drink b) fight c) fornicate d)all of the above. (I was 14-15 at the time) I got in a fight almost every night for 2 or so months. When high school rolled around, I had gotten everything out of my system. Now I'm just apathetic/completely calm most of the time. It's kind of lame to be so apathetic, but overall I can't really be assed about it. It has started to lift a little, but who knows where that will lead.

tl;dr Don't bother reading, I'm just rambling.

Everyone has their times of rage, they just control it really well. Lately ive been up in life, life is good and anything that conflicts with this will get me on the edge of anger in a split second. Easily can get pissed at the dumbest things.

Another guy that didnt control it so well(is now on meds for his anger) theyd piss him off and itd be instant strangle hold from him to his victim. He choked out a guy at a mcdonalds/burger king(not sure which one) because the guy got his order wrong and was giving him trouble fixing it.

Yeah, I've got anger issues. Hell I've been through therapy over it. My advice? Just go back to the weed man. You yourself said it helped you. Don't do it necessarily to get blitzed, just to take the edge off.....like so many folks do when sipping highballs, having a couple beers or are prescribed valium. Tellin ya....if I wasn't a daily toker, I WOULD have snapped long ago.

Think of all the hypocrisy and corruption in today's world. How could any thinking person NOT be angry? Then walk out your door into a public made up of SO MANY stupid people, or those with a sense of entitlement. Hell, I can't even go to a mall between Turkey Day and Xmas without toking first. You throw that many ASSHOLES into the mix that are so stressed and in a frenzy, its like the parade of idiots has come to town.

Now a lotta people may say...."man up and deal with it, drugs are for pussies that can't handle shit" keep a few things in mind. First, what is more important? Some "manly" ego, or your personal well being and happpiness? But most importantly rember one vital FACT here......our brains have not evolved enough to keep up with the ever increasing technology. We do NOT live the lives that our forefathers did. We are in a constant buzz of activity with such multitudes of stimuli entering our brains....vs. any other era of humanity.

Think back on our ancestors...whether it was a 16th century innkeeper, or an 800 BC farmer. Think of how his day REALLY went. No running around in a mad dash getting presentable for work. No driving in rush hour to get to that job. And generally the MUNDANENESS of that job for people millenia generations before us. Whereas today if you are flipping fries/taking orders....or some office shlub answering phones/computer entry...... it is often a very hurried/frenzied environment. Then you get out of work and rush out to meet your girl, or sit back and play video games watch tv......more stimuli going into your brains at an incredibly quick rate.

Now think of the root of much of anger......FEAR. Our ancestors had very few instances of witnessing genuine TRAUMA. Maybe their neighbor stopped by told them that Crazy Collins fell off his roof and broke his neck. Or heard about a neighboring village that was destroyed by a flood. Yeah, our ancestors heard these horrifying events and then went back to their lives. And what about us? We get up and turn on the TV hearing a death toll in a senseless war. On the way to work on the radio, we hear about how its day 4 in the abduction case of the little girl a couple blocks away. At the water color we are talking about that fiery airplane crash from a month ago, now they got the reports from the little black box. And on and on.....

My whole point is, we are CONSTANTLY being bombarded with stimulus of human horror, suffering and trauma. We do in fact have much to be fearful of. Hence, we are more angry then ever. Just get on some downers, or do it the fun way. Keep on tokin! : ) Worked for me the last 20+ years......

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Do you have any outlets?

Is there anything that you do which makes the rage fade?

Sounds something like what I suffer from, "Intermittent Explosive Disorder"...cos everything these days has to be a syndrome or a disorder of course.

When The Violence comes upon me though i shake and cry first. Bit of a problem cos people then think I'm scared and decide to push the issue.


Oh btw IME pot just makes it a whole lot worse.

Isoape, Should this go over to Headshrinkers? It canstay here if you'd rather.

Repression man, it's unhealthier then smoking. You gotta let it out, anytime you get a chance to fucking scream, take it. When no-one is around, at a game, in a club. Go for it, it feels really good.

I don't get angry easily. In fact it's been about six months since I've shouted at anyone. It was about then i punched a hole in my wall and then drank my anger away and had to go to hospital for liver poisoning. Repression is a wonderful thing, lets you let it out all in one big load instead of being angry all the time.

Your call jackketch, I put it here as in reference to relationships and anger. It would probably fit better in Headshrinkers now that I think about it.

Any of you got anger problems and care to explain and perhaps throw in a story?

Yup self mutilation I believe would describe it. If I get pissed at myself I hit myself in the head pretty damn hard. One time I was seeing flashing lights in a pitch black room... If someone else pisses me off I yell an obscenity pretty loud and hit something really hard. I usually control my temper but sometimes I don't.

you need to go on a holiday and de-stress. worked for me

That sounds like me, except that I would only do that in private. I try not to do that now because I almost broke my hand once after punching something. It hurt for weeks. So, I usually throw stuff now. I don't like pain. None. Whatsoever.

I only do that in private aswell but, not that long ago I did this in front of someone who meant a lot to me. So when I have urges to just go insane I try to fight them a lot more. Recently I pretty much make myself pass out, like my eyes roll into the back of my head and I breath like a bull or something of that nature. I'm still a teen btw so to the guy who suggested vacation or something, I would but too young to.

Take up boxing or wrestling and use your anger to kick ass.

Thats notta bad idea, thanks.

I might do that, I've been itching for a fight... I don't care if I win or lose, I just really want to fight.

I used to be an angry person too. I'm not sure what changed me, I literally had like no sole, I would never smile and I was very violent. Now I'm easy going but have occasional spurts of explosive anger. Life's easier when you're angry IMO. But its more fun when you are happy. Sorry if this didn't help.

Heh, don't even try me. I got at least 20 holes in this house from me punching and I already broke my hand twice from hitting the stud.


I guess it's hard for people to realize when I'm in the bad mood. Even through my voices get raised, and harsh.

you took a photo of the whole you made in a wall to show off to people on an internet forum?

It's nothing be proud of (and yes I have made a couple of holes myself).

you took a photo of the whole you made in a wall to show off to people on an internet forum?

It's nothing be proud of (and yes I have made a couple of holes myself).

yea, I'm not impressed with someone breaking through drywall myself, never punched through wall, I try to avoid breakables.