I don't know if anyone remembers my last break up, but it was bad. Now I'm in a relationship again and I'm totally in love with this girl.

I've had dreams about her when I forget to call her, and then wake myself up and call her and tell her that I love her and how much she means to me.

Now, my problem is that I have been here once before and it nearly killed me. I can't figure out if I'm ok again for this or am I just trying to grab what I can get so I have someone to cling to when I sleep.

http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y111/paul_kemp/meghanpiano.jpg

Thats a picture of her. I go crazy when she is not by me, and hope she is thinking about me as much as I think about her. I know I love her, but feel so open when I think about that fact.

I just need some one to smack me and tell me to calm down I think. So feel free to post about your thoughts on my situation or bring up some of your own from the past.

how long have you been together? and does she feel the same way?

I guess I have spent to much time over in HB.
I keep wanting to see the joke behind it. The lack of sleep.

But really, all i have to say is, nothing ventured, nothing gained. You have to take the risks that involve pain, or you will never be 'happy'
i was once told only ignorant people are happy.

The thing is, is that yes, she has told me she loves me too. But I just didn't see this coming and wasn't ready for this. I still feel a lot of pain from my past girlfriend, but whenever my current girlfriend is around I almost forget my ex's name.

This girl is so amazing and actually gets me, but how am I supposed to know if this is right or I'm just trying to fill the void in my life?

I am her first true boyfriend, before she just dated a couple guys but it wasn't serious. I know I am her first real BF because a bunch of her friends have told me that if I hurt her and take avantadge of her they will kill me because, "she has never experienced someone as loving and close as you (me)."

I just don't know how to feel because I don't want to fuck up someone elses' life as badly as my own.

I also don't feel like I deserve her a lot of the time. And that just fucks with me.

Oh and we have been together for 6 months.

Sounds like you have a good thing. Why wreck it by thinking too deeply about it all? Cant you just accept that you have a hot girlfriend, you love her and she loves you, and take it from there?

She's got a nice face to skeet on and girls on top of pianos are cool. I say don't let her lead you around because without your own eyes and ears guiding you you'll fall down...

I can see this going really wrong.. falling too hard.. too deep. Maybe it's just because I've been there and when it went tits up I regretted it and I've always tried to be a lot more cool and aloof, which in some ways works for me in that I never get hurt any more but I think girls often hate clingy guys.

One bit of advice I heard is that you don't need to say I love you all the time. Girls don't always need to hear it. What they like is when you show it, by being a little more subtle.

Anyway, I'm babbling.. just be careful.

Shoot. I know exactly what you mean. A year ago, I was dating a guy who I fell completely head over heels for, and the break up was messy. And then last night I was hanging out with a guy who smelled exactly like him, and did the same things my ex did before we were dating. (Like comparing hand sizes and then holding my hands, and playfully pushing me just to let me know that he was stronger.)

I keep telling myself, "Don't do this. You know what's going to happen." But at the same time I do want to be in a relationship.

Ugh. Fuck. I suppose the best advice I could give is, don't live in the past. If she makes you happy, continue.

Probably the pessimist (realist?) in me, but I rarely see this sort of thing lasting. In a month, this infatuation phase will probably be over.

A-fuckin'-men, sista!

Don't overthink things dude...If you think too much about things, they will become shitty! Trust me.

Just take it all as it comes, one day at a time mate. It truly is the best way.

yeah man thats good advice. just be fuckin happy, its all working out for you now. this is ur time, dont fuck it up by dwelling on old shit that is no longer important. Just enjoy it man, girlfriends come and go. just enjoy them while your with them and they could last forever.
besides she is fucking gorgeous, i think i'm in love with her, no offense intended. just enjoy ur relationship, she has chosen u and not some other fucking loser. its ur time to shine man so shine on holmes.

lol you dont love each other.
stupid ass.

just stick with it, surely you don't want to live with silly regrets.

I must say thanks to everyone with legit responses. I keep smacking myself in the head whenever I think I may be over thinking our relationship, because I know it can destroy good relationships. I'm just nervous about being that open again with someone. When we first started dating I told myself to be closed off, cynical, but to still be there as emotionally possible as I could (which isn't too much, but I would try).

Now this girl has seeped into so much of my being, and I feel like I'm just opening myself up to be crushed again.

I hate this comitta-phobia bullshit, but I just can't help feeling it.

When it comes to love, you'll only survive if you die.

I can't sense that passion in you. You don't have that kind of will. You're only trying to survive. It's the last thought processes of those that have been at the end of their lines in love. You're just scared.

You fear your current relationship ending up like your last one which hurt you pretty bad, so you have an underlying psychological tendency to not get too close to people and maintain a comfortable distance as a contingency.

You're the one feeling the most pressure from this situation. You can sense that something may go wrong down the line.

But you're already in the fray and people are counting on you. You can't back out of it. You can't refuse even if you knew that sooner or later it would end badly.

You can take this risk. In fact, you already have. When you started to become attracted to this girl, getting more involved was a risky move. But, that action was the same as hitting the gas as you head for the cliff. It's either gaining love you couldn't get if you went through 30 relationships, or having your heart shattered into so many crystalline shards. Considering what you went through the last time, this was never a gamble you could take if you were sane.

Paul, throw yourself away. Just for one more ride.