You don't wanna kill yourself, otherwise you wouldn't have posted this thread.

Don't do it, I garuntee you you won't regret it.

Things always turn around, no matter how bad they look. Just be honest in everything you do and don't let any circumstances beyond your control consume you. You'll get through it.

Tomorrow morning, get out of the house and walk to somewhere you've never gone before, you might find it'll really refresh your perspective.

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join the military.

I'd have probably killed myself by now if I didn't have a family I cared about. It's not that I want to die, just that I don't really care one way or the other. Living is "meh" for me. I even thought about, if I were to kill myself, what method would be best. See, I'd like something that doesn't make a mess, hurt, or scare the shit out of me. Drowning = scary. Gunshot = messy. Hanging = painful and scary. ODing on drugs = possibly all 3. In my mind I went through all the popular methods of suicide, and I decided the one I'd choose, should I ever decide to clock out, would be carbon monoxide poisoning. The primary effects experienced before death are headaches, dizziness, and nausea. You could toke up and it'd counter the nausea, and then you just sit blazing and listening to your favorite music until you fall asleep, then never way up again. Plus once your body is found they can just vent your car (or whatever airtight place you've put yourself into) and that's it. No splattered brains, broken bones, or blood.

It's really sad I've thought about it this much...

That somehow cheered me up... If I do finaly make the decision, I would have to go out with a bang.

That's weird. I've thought about killing myself a hell of a lot, and I would have totally gone for a gun as my first choice. Quick, painless, and messiness is a big plus in my book. The only reason it's unlikely I'll use that method is due to the difficulty of even obtaining a fucking firearm here.

Carbon monoxide poisoning really is the way to go though. You make it sound so peaceful.

All of our lives are meaningless. The extent of our destiny is to die and be forgotten. Impermanence ultimatly encompasses everything, when we die or how we die means as much as anything else: nothing.

On an interesting side note, "Dead" from Mayhem shot himself in the head with a shotgun. The only thing he left behind was a note reading, 'excuse all the blood'. Metal

Suicide is so fucking cowardly. I didnt figure you for a coward.

Yeah life might be shit now, but you're a moron if you think that life will allways be shit.


First of all, you need to get away from your family. To do that, you need money.
What the fuck do you mean, your bank account 'somehow drained' ?
If you've truly no idea where that money went, I suggest you go to the bank and get the police involved.


Either way, open another account at another bank that only you know about. And keep it that way.
Try to spend as little as possible, and really..if you spend it all on drugs you're dumb enough to deserve to die.

See if you can live with a friend for a while, to get away from your psycho parents.##



Shit may be tough now, but it wont allways be like this.

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I always try and give practical advice. Now please STFU, go top yourself and save us all your whining (which I'm still debating about deleting/moving to headshrinkers)

Oh and before anyone says 'b-b-bb-ut that-t-s harsh/uncaring/insensitive/not funny ' YES it is and I do mean it seriously. When I read what some of the people here have gone through and are going through I have no time, patience or sympathy for some poor little emo boy who has just woken up to the realities of life and can't be arsed to fight back.

It says 'moderator' after my nick not 'The Samaritans'.

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Do you think it passes through the persons mind when they kill themselves in a very messy manor about the person who is goign to have to clean up after them.I still think suicide is a terible way to go,just disapear for a while it will do you good i want to do that i might do that at the end of the year, go live in a different state then join the army. beh

Hope. Hope my friend. You know I've always lived by the maxim that "every man is responsible for his own destiny". Life takes twists and turns and ups and down with so much pain that it makes you numb and cold, unable to even want to live another day of waking up and facing all the bullshit. However, with the bad we can also understand the good. Its there, I swear to you and it is you and only you who can go get it. You will have to sweat, breathe, and bleed to feel happy but I swear to you that if you just keep your head up, if you just keep strong, keep positive and keep moving forward you will find more and more pieces of meaning and happiness.

But it is only you who can grasp that. It is only your choice that can make it so. It is only your action that can fulfill it.

So death...is death. Nothing more, nothing less. There is no need to say its beautiful or peaceful or anything as you just die and in that throw away all your potential, all your possibilities, all the loves you could have had, all the good you could have done. Wash away by your resignation...the moment where you told yourself that you must "give up". Thats bullshit my friend. Never give up. Like is scary, facing your problems is scary...but lets quote dune a moment and say:

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

And then you can do anything. You can. You just have to look at your goals, what you want to do, where you want to be and do all that you can to get there. Research. You have a computer, therefore half the world is already open to you. You can do it. And you can start with a bit of love from your fellow totseans, and some hope.

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hey guy, respond if you are alive please please

Can someone private mesage the thread starter. I hate it when people abandon their threads. Also he he is still signing on to tostse there is reason to suspect he's a troll

Hey man, you could join the fuckin' Army. Seriously dude. Free livin'? Hell yes! You gotta work for it, but you will meet the coolest mother fuckers you have met in your entire life. You will be getting paid, getting in shape, and be living pretty much expense free. Make yourself a better man, experience things, have stories to tell! Start talking to a recruiter ASAP so you can get shit worked out before you get kicked out of home.

As his situation has changed I'll assume this thread can be closed.

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Harry Potter "Deathly Hallows" ends "19 Years Later" on the platform with him seeing the 1st of his and Ginny's 3 kids off to Hogwarts. Hermione has a child with Ron.