I know the title may seem a bit sketchy, but let me elaborate on the suibject. My sister grace started using cocaine about 2-3 years ago. She was 3 years into college and only 6 classes away from graduating with a bachelors. Needless to say, she went under and had to go into re-hab. She was commited into a rehabilation center in the island of dominican republic ; my families native land. My mother wanted her out of Ny because she had too many drug contacts here. Well she spent over a year over there in rehab. Rehabalitation in that country isnt anything like it is in the states. It is a third world country, being that said I think you understand. Then halfway through the program, she devolps leukemia. She is rushed to the states because it couldnt be treated properly in the dominican republic. Thats another year in the hospital, she is lucky and beats it.

Now she is in my home, recovering from her kemo therapy. She was living with me and my mother for a couple of months until a few days ago. Until she crushed up some of her oxycotins and snorted them. She flipped the fuck out. She forgot she was babysitting my 5 year old sister, luckly my older sister came and took her to the salon. When my mother arrived she had forgot my older sister had taken my younger one and my mother almost had a heartattack. Prior to all this my little sister had been touched by her father, my stepdad. So you can imagine the fear my mom had when she saw her daughter missing and the person who was soppouse to be watching over her had powder all over her nose.

Later on in the night she put a tea kettle on the stove and forgot it was on and went to the sleep. Luckly i came in time from the barbershop and saw my apartment filled with smoke. I rushed in and turned it off and woke up my mother to see if she was alright and ask her what the in the hell was going on. My mother woke up furious and went to my sister who was still high and proceeded on lashing out at her. It didnt do any use, I doubt she was in the mental state to comprehend what was going on. She then walked to the door and opened it and was going to walk the streets in bra's and panties. Remember she's a recovering kemo patient so she isnt quite the looker at this time. I stopped her in time though. My older sister who really dislikes my sister because she put her through hell trying to help her with her drug addiction before my mother found out ; took her to the hospital.

She called me yesterday from the hospital crying, saying she doesnt know why she does it. I didnt buy into her shit though. She made a conscience decision to snort she's 25 not 13 its time she took advantage of her life.

By her making this selfish decision she could of ruined my entire families lives. My mother has heart problems and is going through alot of stress due to the fact of my little sister and step dad situation. So my mother could of had a stroke and died. Then I could almost be guaranteed my cokehead sister would die because she couldnt handle the fact she was the cause of my mothers death. If that wasn't the scenierio my sister would of died of an overdose then I would have to tell my tramatuized sister that her favorite sister had died. That was my main concern, the poor girl has been through enough, she doesnt deserve all of this. She doesnt say anything about this, but she has eyes she knows something is wrong.

From what I've learned in from all this is that I cant allow anyones actions to affect my overall well being. I have a life of my own I am trying to deal with I dont need someone else's actions getting in between them. Especially if their making the conscience decision of ruining theirs. It may sound a bit cold hearted, but its the way it is. Before this happen I use to let other peoples actions and choices affect me and I use to take it the heart. Not just my sister or family, but people that I cared about that really didnt care about me. I have learned to forget those who have forgotten about me.

I use to be angry and aggravated at the world and other people because I thought life wasnt fair, that somehow I didnt deserve this hand that has been dealth to me. Yet , I am no longer angry in the way I use to be. No longer have the urge to for retribution to those that haven wronged me. Just simply remove them from my life and sorround myself with people who actually contribute something into my life. Even if the number is very small, if not singular, it is better then being sorrounded by people and situations that dont have anything good to contribute. Let go of the fantasies that people might ''someday'' change because you may not have that ''someday''. You must live for today but yet be weary of your desicions and how their outcomes might affect tommorow.
Im going to go to college, travel , move from the state's perhaps to spain and leave all my baggage and start from scratch. I know their is going to be difficulties on the road but in the end I know it will be a journey worthwhile.


Thanks to any of you who took time out to read this.

-Lobo

your sisters fuckin stupid! she snorts a little bit of oxy and then almost burns your house down and forgets shes babysitting someone...shit
i can SHOOT up to 160mg's of oxycontin at a any given time and not fuck up at all like that! I think God gave her leukemia for a reason...

hey buddy i feel ya.

my whole family is full of losers and i was left to grow up on my own with virtually NO support.

It just made me stronger as an individual. I can take ALOT on my plate now and I can still strive to become a successful person.

For a while i was smoking weed and i was in the mindset that the world was against me. Well, if you think like that then you are only going to be a self fulfilling prophecy....as my ex girlfriend said before she moved out.

I wake up every morning, I just say fuck the world I do what I want.

Send her ass back to the Dominican republic. She obviously didn't learn her lesson.

Bumping this, cause I wanna read it in the morning, and the OP took time and effort to type this out.

Quitting is for quitters.

Yeah, I'm not reading all that. Summarize, or be forgotten.

Why werent you snorting oxy with her? Your a fool for not, you guys coulda bonded together. Drugs bring people closer.

Nice story. It's good that you learn from others mistakes. It's hard to deal with someone whos got serious drug problems sometimes so its good you toughed it out.

if all your electronics, dvd's, and video game shit hasn't been pawned yet, then your sister doesn't have a drug problem. nodding out on opiates is not a sign of a drug problem...


its called being high, ya know, the opposite of being low..