I'm almost crying right now.

I love this girl so much. Like, not in the sexual sense, i don't think i've ever thought of fucking her, or taking advantage of her in any way, but she's absolutely gorgeous and makes me feel amazing when I'm around her.

I recently just broke up with my girlfriend, and this girl I'm in love with now is going out with my best friend, and I've been hanging out with her a lot lately. My best friend is getting kind of angry, well, not really angry, just deeply saddened that she blows him off to hang out with me. And that kills me because I know how much he cares for her and loves her.

As of recently I've been having so many problems with drugs, heroin and cocaine. And I end up saying horrible things to this girl who I know is just trying to help me and care for me. I lie to her about where I'm going and who I'm with so she doesn't cry.

I'm really in the depths of this addiction, but I'm trying to quit, and I haven't used for 2 days now. I am so depressed, insanely depressed. I can't keep doing this to this girl, I love her so much and I'm such a bad influence on her and I know she worries about me constantly. I'm a junior in college, and she's a senior, going away to California this fall, and this is her last summer with her friends from home. I can't stand how much I'm making her worry. She has cut herself over how much pain I have been causing her, but I feel like I need her to survive.

I'm thinking about telling her that she shouldn't hang out with me this summer, because her boyfriend is such a better person in this world, both to himself and to her. I feel like I'm ripping them apart and I'm hurting her so much, and I can't live with myself doing this.

So my question is this, I'm in love with her, and this is my last summer being able to hang out and chill and fall in love together with her, but I feel like it's hurting her and my best friend so much. Would it be better for me to say that she shouldn't see me anymore, giving me time to get over her before she leaves for college and letting her have a great time with her boyfriend, or to keep hanging onto her (potentially dragging her down) because I need her and I feel like I'm on top of the world while hanging out with her.

I'm so depressed thinking about this and need advice so badly.

Get over the addiction, you probably go insane while doing so but do it, for you, and her.

If you lack the spine to do it, check yourself into rehab.

I wouldn't want to just have to shut a good friend out of my life.

First, get off the drugs. Secondly, sit down with your friend and have a talk.

Hopefully things'll work out. Godspeed man, and remember that if you mess this up, move to a different town and start over. :D

Wrong forum...moving to S & A...oh.....fuck.

Tr1p. Lol.

WHO NOSE WHAT TO DO?!

C whut i did thar?

Hehe Tr1p.

Tr1p. Lol.

I agree with this statement.

-deus-

c-c-combo breaker

God nose you're livin the life.


;)

I agree with this statement.

-deus-


As do I.

Just get an abortion

Honestly get a nose reduction.

First thing, get off the drugs. Then everything would be much more clear.

Post ur nose pic or get out whore.




~2007/08 is really GAY~

I've been in a posistion like yours so i i'm going to offer you some serious advice.

If she's willing to blow her boyfreind off for you then the best thing to do is wait. Let your freind know that she's his and you're not going to take her away. It won't last long, the trust will be gone. If he knows she likes you too then it's doomed, but it's not your fault, your freind can't blame you. Afterwards you will be there to pick up the peices for both of them, you will stay freinds with the guy and still get the girl.

As for drugs, you have to work that out for yourself. It's fucking hard, no getting away from it, but stick with it, it's so worth it.

Good luck man.

Well, that went well :D

Tr1p is an emo.....

Do not pay attention or try to help the emos.

Question: Do you have a better sense of smell than the average person?

I'd imagine so.

He must have larger olfactory organs.

Shopping trolly.

http://www.drugalcohol-rehab.com/images/smoking-crack-cocaine.jpg

http://www.dea.gov/photos/cocaine/crack_street_dosage.jpg

http://www.torontovibe.com/drug_images/cocaine.jpg

I'm hoping I get the answers that I crave. Speaking of craving, how's the crack addiction? Wouldn't you just love to go find a dealer, buy some of that sweet, wonderful substance known as crack, and smoke it all up? Wouldn't that be amazing? It'd feel like you were God.

The rush, the pleasure, and all of those goodies that come along with crack are being lost every second you don't smoke a more points.

Go ahead. Do it now.

She's going to Cali, huh?

I'll take real good care of her for you, don't you worry one bit.

You know you wanna.

A drug addiction?
Oh nose!!

fuckin traaaains

I wonder what the OP has stashed up his nose. Maybe some crack, maybe a bit of weed, or maybe Egyptian gold

Your never going to get better, you will remain a depressed, drug addict, useless, good for nothing emo looser.

You will never pick yourself up and get better. Your life is destined to go downhill forever more and then you will die.

Try not to bring anyone else down with you, Hope I helped...

Tr1p, i know how you feel. And i feel bad for you, i really do.

But wouldn't it be better to forget all this and go to your local dealer, cut his name into your arm again and snort some of soothing cocaine up that massive nose? I mean, you could probably snort a mini with that thing.
Fuck sake, it's probably like a hoover!
No wonder nobody likes you! :)

I really do hope these words of comfort were helpful.

You can't destroy a person's feelings. Especially when they care about you and realize you're in the depths of addiction.

Quitting is not a bad idea, it never is one. Realize that you're not going to feel good, at all. You may even forget what feeling good is like for a while. Yet, when you're through it, it's completely worth it.

You'll be happier with yourself for your accomplishment, and she'll be happier as well.

If you try to push her towards her boyfriend, she'll only push back towards you harder.

Your bestfriend complicates things. Talk to him about it. Share. Honesty will help the situation.

Most of you are going to feel bad is Tr1p ends up not being a troll.

Not me. :)

I tried the same thing basically in HusslinTrees "I'm clean" thread. I like to think I'm doing the work of God.

If all else fails, huff some raid.
Mind you, keep tight hold of that can! Or your nose might SUCK the whole thing up!

Attention whore.

Troll patroll!

If you actually wanted help, then why on earth did you come to SG of all places?!? If you were genuinly in trouble then this would be the last place in the world, real or cyber, that you, Tr1p, could find someone to listen and understand... It's like a jew going to SS headquarters to look for sympathy and a hug because of the squalid conditions in his ghetto. I can only lol because you obviously like getting flamed, and that makes you a dick.

*hearty thumbs down*

lol at lies

Hey, it's life, who nose what will happen next? You seem to be one of these who nose they can't control their own fate. Big time.

/noseness

lol y u still alive?

I hate all of you.

I love all of you.

Go write a poem.

Asshat.

*Hands Tr1p a razor blade*

Be careful now!

I did three years stints first on heroin and then on crystal meth and cocaine. Heroin was way easier to kick than crystal. Buy yourself a whole lot of booze, a bunch of sleeping pills, and go on fucking vacation far far away where you can't get junk if you try. You don't have time or money for a vacation? You're going to have a whole lot less time and money very soon, so go now.

You're just depressed because you're kicking it and bullshit is going on. Get used to that. Once you're not on dope you'll realize that this kind of bullshit is always going on and always will be going on. It's not even a big deal. It just seems like a big deal because you're a depressed off the junk.

Put your back into it boy and call me when you're clean so I can get you dirty again. Wait. You don't have my number.

Owned.

Cheers,
Lost

I think you know what you have to do...

Stop the drugs and wise up.

c-c-combo breaker

I miss that game :(

http://www.stickam.com/profile/tr1p

You realize you're going nowhere until you quit the drugs?

'I hate you all' doesn't help.

Do you think you can quit the drugs?

Man, your storys a lot better than that "million little pieces" shit that the guy made up. Write a book or something and you'll get to be on Oprah.

Tell the girl you love her platonically and don't want to hurt her. Tell her you know it hurts her to see you like you are and you need to get better. If she really is for you she'll be there for you.

Bros

Before

Hoes

Do you think you can quit the drugs?

Idk maybs.

you can do anything you want you retard. Don't let anything control you or your thoughts.

I know easier said than done. Just do it.

Life is a bitch. Fuck it.

just keep on trucking stop snorting, shooting, chuting, and quit feeling sorry for yourself.

just keep telling yourself that you are the man.


apparently nobody likes you here....maybe you should start off by not coming around here.

write childrens books or something.

i bet you dont wear shorts in summer
tr1p, missed you.

I offered my thoughts when all you had were flames because I know people that believe you're a good person.

You offered hate. I'm disgusted with you. Luckily, I'm sure you're disgusted with you too.

op there is word for you EMO

Yeah, just because he has a big nose doesn't mean he's not a real person.
You guys suck. :(
Good luck, Tr1p. I advise checking into rehab, because this is your most important problem.

what would Jesus do......

Bros

Before

Hoes

quoted for truth brah.

I wonder how many of us would feel bad if Tr1p actually killed himself.

quoted for truth brah.

lol y u bump it?

I'm going to give Tr1p the benefit of the doubt here.

And really, you people should be fucking ashamed to jump on the 'lets make fun of that person' bandwaggon.

He may be trolling, he may not. But as we cant know that for sure we should be helping not making stupid childish insults.




I know you may like that girl, but for fucks sake, she's with your best friend. And really, you could get any bitch you want, you dont need to be stealing one that's not yours.


but really, girls arent your top priority right now. Get your shit sorted out.
Piss your dealer off so you cant get drugs so easily. Spend your cash on stupid amounts of books, games and shiny things, so you've no drug money.

Failing that, get some professional help. The advice of people on an anonymous internet forum isnt possibly the best type.

"The problem is you put the pussy on a pedestal..."

like everyone else has been saying, get off the drugs. if its hard, check yourself into a group or something of that nature. and the thing with the girl and your best friend, dont take her. if he really is your best friend and he really loves her, let him be. let him love her. it will be hard, but its your friend. dont lose a friendship for something unsure. keep us posted. we care.

good luck.

There is a book you should read, and it is called "Breaking your obsession with another person."

Read it, apply it, and shut the fuck up because it is probably pretty obvious that all of your problems are stemming from drugs. The fuck would you want to do coke for?

...As of recently I've been having so many problems with drugs, heroin and cocaine...

Stopped reading after this. I think you know what you need to do first...

I'm not sure why you'd do both Heroin and Cocaine.

But, atleast you've no money worries, huh?

I have seen something simular happen to a roomate of mine and his friend.

My roomate's girlfriend is the caring type who doesn't like to see people wasting away their lives. Naturally she began to get really concerned for the druggy friend. She seemed to have made him her project, and that project seemed to get in the way (more like compete for time) of her relationship with my roomate.

In any case from what I observed it seemed that she was concerned for him, not in love with him.

My advice to you please don't mistake a girls motherly caring for a love interest. From what I have read it seems like you may be doing just that.

From personal experience that mindset that withdrawl puts you in makes you attribute your depression to other things. Once you are clear of the smack you will suddenly feel a lot better.

You could always continue using that works too.

I havent been on totse much, but I've learned something from all this mess.

Firstly, drugs will always be there. They will always make you feel good. As long as you've got the right dose, the chemicals in your brain will be working in complete harmony for however long you're on the drug. But there's a comedown that sucks, and as good it makes you feel, both physically and mentally, there is an emotional side to life that can never be filled with drugs. No matter how many chemicals are circulating through your veins, your heart will be empty, and it's true. Smack can cover it up for a long time, but when that special person comes a long, you'll know you've been missing something amazing.

Secondly, when you find someone that makes you so unbelievably happy, who you could spend every minute of ever day with, who makes you feel like a movie star when you walk down the streets with her, who understands you and reacts to your every emotion so perfectly, do not let her go. Beg. Get on your knees at 1AM in starbuck's parking lot, and beg for her to let you back into her life even after you've wasted all your chances cheating, fucked up, or lying. When you start to care about a boy/girl more than you care about yourself, never let go. Hold on for dear life, because when you lose them, you'll be in the worst comedown of them all; a broken heart.

For all you lovestruck boys and girls, wait it out, be tough, there is someone out there, who, even after you've destroyed your own life and body, gives you that one extra chance you sure as fuck don't deserve.

My advice? I don't think you're in the state of mind to be having any sort of real relationship with anyone. I think you need serious rehab if it all possible. There's no going slowly slowly catchy monkey in my opinion when it comes to getting off dangerous drugs. I'll be honest.. I've no experience in the matter, just that I'm far happier doing drugs in moderation than I would be doing them all the time (I've drank myself silly/smoked tons of weed). There is only so much of your life that you should allow yourself to cloud over.

dude, this whole situation is messy

whenever i get stuck on a girl, i remind myself:

hey, if i fuck this up there are still approx. 150 million females in my country, abt 15 million of which are hot and available (ballpark figure)

lotsa fish, man. get clean, then settle in with any of the 3 bil chix on this wide wide planet