What sort of feelings (if any) do you have towards your first gf/bf or first love?
Mine will always have some sort of place in my heart, just because I was still young, stupid, and I learned so much from being with her. She will always represent an earlier, softer me in my mind. However, aside from that I hate her.
How about everyone else here

Looking back, she needed a shave :D

I wanted to get out of that relationship pretty fast as I fancied another girl, only last a month till we split up.

Umm, she;s kinda my friend now. We don't talk very much at all though. Actually, we only talk on the computer. The gf I have now is the only one that lasted longer than a month, so, I consider her my first real gf.

Sadly mine was unshared or at least she was so messed up she didnt even know how she felt. She used me so bad when she needed someone to talk to but then trough me aside whenever she didnt.

Now I have complete disdain and hatred for her, which developed as a mechanism to escape her cycle of trying to pull me in. Honestly right now the sound of her name uddered out loud makes me sick to my stomach.

She showed me around a bit. Then she got rid of me, for an old friend of mine. Afterwards, she started to tell her friends why she extirpated me, using particularly vicious lies. Felt bad about it for years, until I realized that she needed to lie to validate her relentless whoring and "boyfriend-shopping".

Taught me a few life lessons, particularly about dating, but I see no real reason to think about her. Ever again.

She is the reason I don't get attached to people today. I guess I can thank her for that.
I learned a hard lesson real quick.

you only recently broke up, huh?:p

Mine will always (unfortunately) hold a special place in my heart. She treated me like shit, and even cheated on me... but she was my first... everything. First love, first kiss, first person to say they loved me (and that includes family). Hell I just broke up with her again on tuesday. Every single one of my friends had been telling me for months that I needed to, I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

My first "love" was not any sort of love.
It was supposed to be love but then you throw in schizophrenia and it becomes memorable in a bad way.

Cheated on me, dumped me, and then tried to hook up with me at random times though I lived a good 100 miles away.

++ he tells people he turned me gay.

It lasted for a little over a year, and she got all bitchy. I don't regret it though, as I got to fuck her a couple times, and the whole ordeal taught me a lot.

Plus, she's ugly as fuck now, so it's all good.

The only feelings I have for my ex boyfriend are pity and a little fond reminiscence. He treated me like shit, attempted to change me any chance he had, kept me drawn in with guilt, attempted to cheat on me multiple times, actually cheated on me with a close friend, and lied about loving me. Well he may have lied, either that or he wanted to hurt me last year by telling me he was never in love with me ( This is over a year after we broke up). Either way I knew that I loved him despite it all, and I was over him completely, so it wasn't too hurtful. I mostly feel bad he intends to completely throw his life away.

I was dumb enough to believe she cared about me. She wanted me to be something I'm not. She tried to change so many things about me, and she always tried to guilt trip me into feeling bad about having a firm identity and purpose.

It was fun for awhile, but towards the end of the relationship, I found I hardly even smiled around her...and I'm a rather jubilant individual; laughter and smiles are my way of life.

It had to end.

you only recently broke up, huh?:p

Nope, four years ago. After a few months.
I learn fast.

Well my first love was a real sweetheart who had some baggage....together our baggage was pretty awesome. lol.

I don't know what she thinks of me today because we broke up a month ago after a year and two months, and we have still yet to say a word to each other.

I feel like one day, hopefully, we can be a part of each others lives but right now is just way too stressful for both of us i guess. I also had a drug problem, i stopped everything except occasional drinking(once a weekend if that) the day we broke up.

She probably will never be able to "trust" me due to the fact some girl tried to seduce me last year durring beach week and i kept it to myself as i knew it was irrelevant anyways(the bitch never came close to getting anything from me)....eventually i ended up telling her(big mistake, im too honest). But my ex doesn't believe that nothing went on and there is NOTHING i can do to change that. I'm starting to think she needed an excuse to get out.

I feel like i will always have a part of my heart reserved for her. On the other end i got some fucking to do, and who knows I will probably find someone better.

I took her virginity, and she told me she loved me 4 months in, we were a match made in heaven.....inseparable. But i took her for granted. i just try to move forward with my life and everyday i wake up she still drops into my mind for a visit. We have some really great memories, although i was a pothead most of the time i will never forget the good times we had.

I honestly feel that she still wants to be with me. Its just hard for her as she probably feels im going to start smoking and hangin out with losers again......oh what i would do for a second chance, but at the same time fuck yesturday worry about today so you can feel even better tomorrow.

besides who wants to be strapped down at 19?

Yeah, that and i have a small place in my heart, for some reason i loved her...

I'm still with her.

You should see a therapist.

PirateHippie? I'll agree.

You should see a therapist.

I think that's a pretty healthy attitude for him to have about it.

My first gf, I don't talk to her anymore... she's annoying and we were both immature. The first girl i really loved is still one of my close friends (not the closest). My most recent still has her claws in my flesh.

I hate my first real boyfriend.

He's an asshole, and he's a clingy little bitch. He also had some stalker tendencies. I regret ever meeting him, and being stupid enough to lose my virginity to him.

I'm happy now though. :D

so did it go straight from meeting him to losing your virginity?

:D

I think that's a pretty healthy attitude for him to have about it.

I don't know...He just seems all bitter.

I never talk to the first girl I really dated. My first love, the one that broke up with me last year.. I talk to her occasionally and we're ok now. Better as friends than lovers, really. It was easy to move on once I got to stand back and really look at how our relationship was without clouding my head with bitterness or sadness.

She didn't appreciate me. Never wanted to grow up. She was entirely selfish.

She's still fun to talk to sometimes, though. We were best friends for about 9 years!

so did it go straight from meeting him to losing your virginity?

:D

Nope. :p We were together for about 6 months. And then on September 11th (Not the same year.) , I was like "Hey! I don't want to be a virgin anymore!"

Its good that you had your boy toy there to uhhhh grant you your wish.....

you sure picked an easy date to remember.

I don't know...He just seems all bitter.


If you had to go through the extremes of that particular relationship, I'm sure you'd be pretty fucking bitter, too.

My ex boyfriend and I had a very volitile relationship and an even worse breakup. I'm not bitter towards him...But then again that all happened to me like 10 years ago so I've had a lot of time to get over it.

On and off with a girl for a year. It was shitty. I hated it. I ended that shit and called for a booty call on sat. It was answered. Big Mistake. Haven't talked to her since.

I dont remember my first girlfriend

exactly the same for me..exactly

I will never get over a former significant other hiring a person to injure me.

I feel nothing except a little guilty for going out with a 6 year old and teaching her how to play "suck the snake." Fuck it those were some good times!

I will never get over a former significant other hiring a person to injure me.

Get her kicked off totse..

Oh, if its not MLoR, the cockwhore!

Get her kicked off totse..


She's been demodded and banned :)

And it's CRACKwhore, ya fuckin bitch

Nope. :p We were together for about 6 months. And then on September 11th (Not the same year.) , I was like "Hey! I don't want to be a virgin anymore!"

lol, sept 11... it was bound to fail :p

lol she was such a bitch, i suppose i have to thank her though, because of her i don't think of women as the sirens of purity i once did, ps i was like 16 at the time, and now think of them as what they really are.

I will never get over a former significant other hiring a person to injure me.

I thought you found out she wasn't behind that?

I will never get over a former significant other hiring a person to injure me.

God I laughed my ass off when that happened. As painful as I'm sure it was for you, you can take refuge in the fact that you brought me and other random people some great fuckin comedy.

Regarding the thread subject, the first person I seriously pursued is currently filed under "Bitch who took two years to come out and say I'm not good enough for her". Two years of trying to get someplace, only to find out recently I never even came close to the "standards" she believes men must meet to get with her.

I thought you found out she wasn't behind that?


She tells me that, but I honestly don't believe her.

Mine will always have some sort of place in my heart, just because I was still young, stupid, and I learned so much from being with her. She will always represent an earlier, softer me in my mind. However, aside from that I hate her.

EXACTLY, only difference is im female hes male... but yes this my exact feelings.