She's my ex-girlfriend but I cant even really sum up the words to really explain. She knows how deeply I feel about her. I really really wish we were together ; but at the same time I know I'll be setting myself for another heartbreak on my sleeve. Im 17 going on 18 and we've been romantically involved for almost two years , but only officially going out for a short period of time. Whenever I think about her an awkward feeling comes over me , the best way i can describe in literal terms is '' Hateful Love '' . I despise yet cherish her.
I just want this feeling towards her to cease to exist. And just forgetting about her isnt that easy. The slightest thing I see or hear sometimes triggers my memory of her.

Also another thing that might be the problem is that we haven't slept together, at one time when we were together we talked about it and we scheduled something. However we got into a argument about something totally irrevalant to anything and she got fed up and left me. Everytime I see her in person I go into a kind of animilistic mindset. No pun intended to my name , but kind of like a wolf. Just a big frustrated savage animal who just wants a slab of meat. Yet I have a much gentler side who just wants to be consoled. That might seem confusing or contradicting but this is way I feel.

So Im asking the members of totse for some serious advice on this matter.

For all of you who read this, thanks for taking some time aside.

-Lobo

Sounds like you're on the road to Rape->Murder->Suicide. But other than that, it's just a hearbreak. It's happened to me twice, two long term relationships. Thoughts of marriage, being romantically in love, all that shit. Then about a month after my last break up, i realized that there is no such thing as that in years of adolescence. So just get drunk with your buddies, smoke some herb, go to parties, and meet new bitches. that's the best way to cope. Ohh, and don't listen to any sad songs, all they'll do is make you even more depressed. At least they make me more depressed.

It's a cliche, but you're the one best placed to judge your own situation. You can't describe every part of this womans personality, so you're the one who's going to have to make the judgement.

All i can say is if there's much chance of her getting back with you then be honest with her. Tell her how you feel and try to work it out, you'll spend the rest of your life wondering what would have happened if you had tried if you don't.

Good luck man, i hope it works out for you.

Thats the thing, I do try. I have no shame or Am I shy when it comes to this subject. She just says things that just dont seem very logical to me.
She has told she is aware of my feelings towards and knows I wouldnt do anything to intentionally harm her in anyway. Then she has say's Im too nice, or was anyway this shit has really mad me cynical as fuck. She doesnt like when im like this either. Then when we arent together or talking I get paranoia that she's fucking another guy, when she proably is. This shit has really fucked up my physche.

Thats the thing, I do try. I have no shame or Am I shy when it comes to this subject. She just says things that just dont seem very logical to me.
She has told she is aware of my feelings towards and knows I wouldnt do anything to intentionally harm her in anyway. Then she has say's Im too nice, or was anyway this shit has really mad me cynical as fuck. She doesnt like when im like this either. Then when we arent together or talking I get paranoia that she's fucking another guy, when she proably is. This shit has really fucked up my physche.

Oh.

It sounds a bit like there's another guy involved, either that or she doesn't really want you. Women never were logical. Maybe she's just looking for someone normal? Not someone really nice or really cynical. You'll never be normal if you stay on totse :P.

Oh.

It sounds a bit like there's another guy involved, either that or she doesn't really want you. Women never were logical. Maybe she's just looking for someone normal? Not someone really nice or really cynical. You'll never be normal if you stay on totse :P.


True, but I know if it is some other guy its just some fucking douche-robot-sheep who just follows the herd just like every other guy who grew up around me. I just dont understand why she would choose one of those, and this is going to sound very narcissist, over me? Like come on now. I feel like that frustrated guy from American Physco, but minus the mayhem and murder.