Morning:
Effexor- 3 pills for depression
.25 mg of risperidone/risperidal for anxiety
Adderall --10mg, for school

night:
trazodone- 600mg-- for depression/insomnia
.5 mg risperidone--for anxiety
neurontin, ???mg, for sleeping and other stuff

Every day. EVERY FUCKING DAY I TAKE THIS SHIT. I've been taking medications since I was 7 years old. WHY AM I SO FUCKED UP? I feel like a loner compared to my friends who don't take medicine. Is there ANYONE in the world out there like me that is sucessful, or manages to live? I'd have to say I'm a happy person, and I LOVE life, but tahnks to the anti-depressants and shit, you know?

It just saddens me taht I am so dependent on this medication, and there is no way I can go off of this shit, I'm on it for life. I'm addicted--can't go several hours without a regular dose of effexor/risperidal especially, because it makes me get withdrawal immediately..

Fuck this is so annoying; traveling is so hard.

Sorry for my rant, but I just need to know who in this world is in my position?

No, but that's why I don't do drugs, including caffeine. I hate the idea that I might not be sufficiently capable of controlling my mind and emotions on my own.

...your mindset is defeated and so are you

Well...dudezor as a fellow wonk-a-wonk-a-wonky I know that I often don't eat right. Daytime makes me nauseous & when I'm up all night, sometimes I don't want to eat because night makes me so calm. Sometimes I don't want to prepare food when others are sleeping too.

Do you know ...

"Psychological disorders

Omega-3s are known to have membrane-enhancing capabilities in brain cells.[5] One medical explanation is that omega-3s play a role in the fortification of the myelin sheaths. Not coincidentally, omega-3 fatty acids comprise approximately eight percent of the average human brain according to Dr. David Horrobin, a pioneer in fatty acid research. Ralph Holman of the University of Minnesota, another major researcher in studying essential fatty acids, who gave it the name, surmised how omega-3 components are analogous to the human brain by stating that "DHA is structure, EPA is function."

A benefit of omega-3s is helping the brain to repair damage by promoting neuronal growth.[5] In a six-month study involving people with schizophrenia and Huntington's disease who were treated with EPA or a placebo, the placebo group had clearly lost cerebral tissue, while the patients given the supplements had a significant increase of grey and white matter.[21]

Consequently, the past decade of omega-3 fatty acid research has procured some Western interest in omega-3s as being a legitimate 'brain food.' Still, recent claims that one's intelligence quotient, psychological tests measuring certain cognitive skills, including numerical and verbal reasoning skills, are increased on account of omega-3s consumed by pregnant mothers remain unreliable and controversial. An even more significant focus of research, however, lies in the role of omega-3s as a non-prescription treatment for certain psychiatric and mental diagnoses and has become a topic of much research and speculation.

In 1999, Andrew L. Stoll, MD and his colleagues at Harvard University conducted a small double-blind placebo-controlled study in thirty patients diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Over the course of nine months, he gave 15 subjects capsules containing olive oil, and another 15 subjects capsules containing nine grams of pharmaceutical-quality EPA and DHA. In doing so, he was able to make the general distinction between the placebo group failing to improve while the Omega-3 group experienced a noticeable degree of recovery. Though Stoll believes that the 1999 experiment was not as optimal as it could have been and has accordingly pursued further research, the foundation has been laid for more researchers to explore the theoretical association between absorbed omega-3s and signal transduction inhibition in the brain.[22]

"Several epidemiological studies suggest covariation between seafood consumption and rates of mood disorders. Biological marker studies indicate deficits in omega-3 fatty acids in people with depressive disorders, while several treatment studies indicate therapeutic benefits from omega-3 supplementation. A similar contribution of omega-3 fatty acids to coronary artery disease may explain the well-described links between coronary artery disease and depression. Deficits in omega-3 fatty acids have been identified as a contributing factor to mood disorders and offer a potential rational treatment approach." (American Journal of Psychiatry 163:1098-1100, June 2006)"

http://preview.tinyurl.com/yvfu4b

Do you get enough? How about fruits/veggies?

Holy crap. Since you were 7? That's fucked up.

I dont understand why you take adderal and you HAVE anxiety.

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You don't need the medication, you just need to change your enviroment and the filters which you use to process the world. I can help you if you are in the Miami area, for I am a liscenced psychotherapist. I've had success with ADHD, actually curing 2 patients of mine. It could have been because they were bored and needed someone to challenge them but according to my clinical trials they're good.

^rapist

thats why im refusing to take the meds they are trying to force upon me.

guessing zek would be alot like you.

I'm assiming thats Effexor XR, cos that stuff only has a half life of a few hours. So does trazodone. Effexor boosts your Serotonin, Norepinephrine and Dopamine levels, Trazodone also acts as a Serotonin reuptake inhibitor and anti depressant. But why the hell do you need both of them? Risperidone is an antipsychotic, not something usually used for anxiety.
Neurontin is a painkiller, what the hell do you need that for???
You are on too many drugs, but you know that already.