Inspired by the earliest remembered sexual experience thread, comes this entirely true account of my childhood. Very long.

So, as a child of 5 years, my mother had just remarried, and I had just gotten my first (step)Brother, same age as myself.

My other siblings were 3 sisters aged 7,8,9, and we were all pretty brilliant and mature for our ages.

My sisters had recently discovered my step fathers porno magazine collection, and offered some to me so I could see what a naked girl looks like. We also found that our parents had a "black box" which allowed us free viewing of 100+ channels, including the XXX networks.

Every night we would sneak downstairs and watch these movies, while talking openly about what we saw, and having one person guard the door constantly so we wouldn't get caught.

Anyways, one day my parents decided to go out, which was a normal event, and left us with our next door neighbor babysitting us. She was a decent looking native girl with good sized breasts for a 14 year old.

The neighbor had always taught us things she learned around her house, which I guess was pretty much a crack house (my mother told me this when I was about 15). She taught us to swear, and would always encourage us to show each others privates to each other, but we always chickened out. She would settle for us going into the bedroom with her, and showing our privates in exchange for seeing her breasts.

This night she told us all to grab the sheets off of our beds, and head down to the basement. We built a little fort, which was just big enough for a couple of us to climb inside.

The babysitter then said she was going to teach us about sex, and that only me and my brother and 1 sister could come inside the fort. My oldest sister was chosen, and we all climbed in and covered the entrance while my other sisters guarded the upstairs in case our parents came home.

Me and my brother were told to take off our shirts, and lie on our backs, while my sister climbed on top of my step brother, and the babysitter held herself over me. I don't remember if my sister removed her shirt all the way or not, but I do know the babysitter did, and I had a face full of breasts.

I was very excited, and wanted to touch them, but she said I had to take off my pants first. I of course complied, and got to touch her breasts for only a few seconds.

My other sisters then got bored and came to the fort, and we all quickly got dressed and tried to act casual so they wouldn't know what happened for certain.

I think the babysitter was disappointed we got interrupted, but realized realistically that a 5 year olds penis would not be able to have normal sex.

Of everyone involved, I think I enjoyed it the most, because my step brother and sister felt too awkward to do anything other than lie on each other.

Let me point out that she never threatened to get us in trouble if we didn't do these things. She did bribe us, but at age 14, that is the most logical thing you can do with kids. Extra dessert for kissing her etc, this kind of thing.

These days, I would probably consider the girl "average" looking, would still date her, but back then, she was my dream girl. I was in love with her, near obsession, and I thought she loved me too.

I am completely thankful for what she did with me, and feel nothing was really wrong about it. We were never forced, we were given the option, and we were grateful for it.

Considering her environment growing up, as it was described to me, she probably thought nothing wrong at the time either, though she probably regrets it now (if she remembers).

These days, I don't believe it is acceptable for people to have sexual contact with kids under 10, but older than that, if they already have prior knowledge from sources like books/mags/tv/internet/kids their age, then I don't think it is necessarily wrong to give them the option of very basic sexual contact, or open, graphic discussions on the subject.

That being said, I also don't think any of that should happen between ADULTS (Age 19+) and really young kids, but rather the kids peers. Older brothers/sisters friend, neighbor, babysitter etc.

Anyways, that is my experience with sexual feelings at the age of 5, fooling around with a 14 year old girl, and loving it to this day, aged 21.

And that is my reasoning why when it comes to consensual sexual activity between two smart and mature people, age means nothing to me.

**I of course would never break the Law myself, and do not encourage others to break it themselves.**

Wow....that was a long post.

Also, if any of my sisters/step brother/babysitter should read this, and recognize what happened...Relax. We were all just young dumb kids, and never ever ask me if I posted this.

That was a heart warming story.

I can't remember what I did 15 minutes ago, let alone 15 years ago. That moment must have been pretty memorable to stick with you all these years.

Grats on the tits at age 5. It's more than most of my highschool friends ever got.

first to say hawt

EDIT: and good job joe. Pimpin at 5, you a real G, nigga

[This message has been edited by Star Wars Fan (edited 04-03-2007).]

Child sexuality is extremely under-rated. And in the overall scheme of things, I'd say psychologically, that was a positive experience.

The only part that might've messed you up was your fear of getting caught. Which is an unnecessary fear that was instilled in the first place by bullshit Christianity, but I won't into all that.

I wanted it to get graphic, but it ended right as the good part started. WRITE MORE.

You're not messed up. Your childhood is messed up, and your excuse for why it happened is messed up. A five year old is not supposed to be in that situation, regardless of mental capacity.

When I was five I was raped by my male cousin. For the longest time I told myself that it was completely normal and my fault. It carried on every single time I went over to his house until I was about twelve. It was a long time until he was actually able to RAPE me, so I would pretend that it was just experimentation. He was seven years older than me. When I was younger I told myself it was completely normal, as I got older I realized that it wasn't normal. It was wrong.

You have to accept that these things are wrong. You have to admit that they've changed you. Otherwise, you let them consume you.

But when you look back on it, you see it as a negative experience, right? What are the reasons you think it is negative?

I look back, and I see a positive, pleasurable experience. Of course I didn't understand sexuality the way I do today, but that doesn't change that I liked what happened.

I don't know what to say in regards to your experience, because if my babysitter had TRULY tried to get me and my sisters to have an experience with incest, she probably could have succeeded.

But if that had happened, I would probably be telling you how I enjoyed that as well, because as MrMojoRisin said, at such a young age, you only think things are wrong, if you are taught it is wrong.

My parents never told me straight up that playing with your sisters breasts was wrong, it just felt unnatural, and today I am sickened by the thought, but if I had grown up doing it, my views could be completely reversed.

Nothing about what happened consumes me this day. I only say "why I am messed up" because of my views towards relationships with young people sexually, which society deems inappropriate.

So how are you messed up exactly? It looks like you had a positive experience that gave you a lot of open-mindedness.

quote:Originally posted by Prometheum:

So how are you messed up exactly? It looks like you had a positive experience that gave you a lot of open-mindedness.

As I said, I look at teenagers and children having sexual contact with each other as a potentially very good thing, where as the majority of society looks at a 17 year old and an 11 year old and wants to hang the 17 year old, on principal alone.

If I were to go out into the real world, and pronounce my views and experiences to the public, they would say "it's not my fault I am messed up, I was just an innocent child when I was "molested"..." etc.

quote:Originally posted by streetjusticeforall:

If I were to go out into the real world, and pronounce my views and experiences to the public, they would say "it's not my fault I am messed up, I was just an innocent child when I was "molested"..." etc.

No, the Moralist Bastards at FOX and co. would hang you like they're bitching about Rosie and 9/11 truth.