This will probably sound a lot like a blog or something similar, but someone on here might be able to rend some assistance.

So, some of you loyal readers have seen my posts about my ex-girlfriend. She said she had gotten raped. Based on the abundance of inconsistencies in her tales of the events (it "happened" twice) I think she's full of shit. Even if she's not, I determined long ago that when the accused rapist is caught and any pregnancy issues are resolved, I'm staying the fuck away from her.

Despite my desire for detachment from her, I still have some level of lust for her. The thought of foreplay/all out sex with her is one of the few things that arouses me anymore. If I would have stayed with her, we would have fucked by now. Its almost as if I feel deprived. Plus she's said she wants to lose her virginity this year, and its a bit implicit that she means to me.

This is distressing for many reasons.

First is the fact that I cannot find a feasible way to actually sleep with her. I don't know that she would go along with the "friends with benefits" concept. Furthermore, I don't know how to initiate such a thing.

Next is the morality and repercussions associated with it. See, however badly my lust is, I would feel kinda bad for having meaningless sex. Additionally, I have nothing but friends who would shun me for such actions. The ex wouldn't keep things low key.

Third. I have my best friend to contend with in this case. I care for her more than anyone in this forsaken world, and have astoundingly strong feelings for her. I want an actual relationship with her so badly. She wants one too. Unfortunately, she has an issue or two to work out before such would happen. I don't really want to do what my penis wants when my head and heart are in agreement about someone else.

Fourth. I don't know when I would have an empty house and condoms at the same time.

I know my head and heart should override my lust, but its becoming quite confusing.

Nine chances out of ten, I wont listen to the testosterone. I just want &T's opinion on the matter. Should I "tap that shit" and hope she stays silent, or just be happy with things as they are?

Oh, and before someone asks, both the ex and best friend are pretty damn hot, imho. Don't ask for pics.

edit: i stated i think she's lying. hence the virginity tidbit. and there's those delusional fools who have "secondary" virginities. i suggested this route when i still believed her.

[This message has been edited by RogueEagle91 (edited 03-25-2007).]

Dude, she makes up bullshit rape stories. Turn around the walk the fuck away, right now.

I had a penis once.

quote:Originally posted by Rocko:

Dude, she makes up bullshit rape stories. Turn around the walk the fuck away, right now.

quote:Originally posted by RogueEagle91:

Plus she's said she wants to lose her virginity this year

So she's been raped twice, but is still a virgin?

How can she have been raped twice and still have her virginity?

quote:Originally posted by rio bravo:

So she's been raped twice, but is still a virgin?

A) she said this before it happened

B) i think she made the rape story up.

quote:Originally posted by RogueEagle91:

A) she said this before it happened

B) i think she made the rape story up.

oh i wish i was 15 again

quote:Originally posted by jvm222:

oh i wish i was 15 again

i wouldn't. its a shitty age. fucking hormones.

quote:Originally posted by RogueEagle91:

i wouldn't. its a shitty age. fucking hormones.

dont blame it on the hormones, its you.

I hate it how adults use hormones as an excuse to tell kids theyre wrong, kids use hormones as an excuse when they fuck something up, everyone claims all this bullshit.

Unless you go into a hormone induced sleep walking like trance, then no, its not the hormones, its you.

quote:Originally posted by Nereth:

dont blame it on the hormones, its you.

I hate it how adults use hormones as an excuse to tell kids theyre wrong, kids use hormones as an excuse when they fuck something up, everyone claims all this bullshit.

Unless you go into a hormone induced sleep walking like trance, then no, its not the hormones, its you.

oh, don't get me wrong. i do blame me. however, its always nice to have a scapegoat.

quote:Originally posted by Nereth:

dont blame it on the hormones, its you.

I hate it how adults use hormones as an excuse to tell kids theyre wrong, kids use hormones as an excuse when they fuck something up, everyone claims all this bullshit.

Unless you go into a hormone induced sleep walking like trance, then no, its not the hormones, its you.

+1 Intelligent thoughts on totse 0_0