I was raised by two very sinful, hypocritical parents.
After my father would beat us all, he would proceed on to the Bible Study and try to tell other people how to be good Christians. He was very legalistic, and incredibly old fashioned in his perceptions about family.
My mother was a very spiritual person, though she never did grasp Christianity, fully.
Because of them, I decided very early on that I would never be what "they were".
And so, I took my anger, and my hatred for my parents, and I became every mother's worst nightmare: a satanist. (not the MTV generation sort, either)
No fancy titles, no bells and whistles...I had the ability to connect with the spirit realm, and because of this I was "used" to perpetuate a local sect into effectual anti-Godliness.
This went on for a few years...many awful things happened, both to me, and to other people because of me.
At some point it was presented to the group that we ought to begin involving ourselves with infanticide, in the name of the Father, Lucifer.
I was instantly against this, though I cannot say why, since I had committed other equally abominable acts against my fellow man. Why should a baby be any different ?
It was not spoken of again, at least not in my presence, so I considered the subject closed.
But a few weeks later at a meeting, someone brought an infant (probably 10 weeks old), and made it clear what it was to be used for.
I ran.
Shortly thereafter, I converted to Christianity...it is a very long, detailed, grueling story, so I will spare you.
Suffice it to say, I have seen the beautiful side of evil, and it pales in comparison to the grace and mercy of God.
I am now a non-denominational Christian. I follow no "religion". I study the Bible as objectively as I can, and apply it to my life.
I pray, and listen for God's voice.
Hope that was what you were looking for...I have a tendency to ramble, getting lost in my stories.
It's the Irish in me, I think.
