My reality is shit!!! I seek to escape from it. I feel like I put my family to shame b/c I can't afford to go to college. Also, the loneliness I suffer from everyday is becoming unbearable.

Anyway, the quickest way to off myself with the resources that I possess would be some cyanide. But is a cyanide death painful? I just want to pop the KCN capsules and then go out WITHOUT drowning in my own blood.

what are kcn capsules?

Potassium cyanide

go to counseling, get a girlfriend, and see how much u are wanted but just don't harm yourself. imagine how shameful your family will be if you commit suicide and how guilty they will feel if they drove you to suicide

fuck suicide man....dont do it.

and please no immature comments in topics like these...just tryin to kill off any ideas anyone is getting...

Tried counseling, no avail. Girls are all bitches in South Jersey(and all over America). They just care about the $$$ & fame. As for my family, I feel my existance is shameful to them. I was unable to continue my college last yr. because I had to juggle 2 jobs workin 50 hours a week.

I'm sick of this reality. Everything is fuckin bullshit!!! I have no place in this damned society!!

Carbon Monoxide. Lock yourself in a garage. Start up the car. After a few minutes, lay down and fall asleep. The carbon monoxide will kill you as you sleep, its painless.

you may think your existence is shameful to your family but you are wrong. try scaring them like when they criticise you next time tell them that "well if you don't appreciate my existance then maybe i shouldn't exist" even if they don't appreciate you (highly unlikely) we appreciate all of your input here at totse. go hang out with some friends (or make some new ones) and think about how good a time you've had as a kid and now.

you can fake a suicide-write a not about all of the crap you're taking from your family and leave it on your parents table. go up to their bedroom and flush all of their pills and fall asleep on the floor. then they will tell you how they feel about you when you finally wake up in the hospital hehehe. just don't try anything stupid that you'll regret

btw- cyanide will be slow and painful

If i'm not mistaken, I believe weed smoke contains CO. If that smoke could flood the inside of my truck for a couple days, that'd be the IDEAL way to go out.

But, I guess I'll settle w/ the KCN/HCN gas or inciting the pigs do the dirty work for me.

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if you are going to do it, just make sure you dont fuck up. Because if you do you will probably end up in a psyc ward, and your whole life will be fucked. you will be put on so many meds. sorry you need to take this way out.

I'd suggest you run away for a few months(or permanently). Just move to another state and try to start out a new life. New scenery usually lifts peoples moods quite a bit. Suicide is the weak mans way out. Don't do it :\

I respectfully disagree-- i think suicide takes a helluva lot of balls.

Don't do it, My life is sucking aswell.. your not alone.

Everyone here who posted telling him not to do it is dumb. If he was really going to commit suicide, he wouldnt be up on a BBS asking how to do it. Any idiot knows you can grab a gun and shoot yourself in the head.

I say if you do do it, then at least make your self famous while doing it. Run up to the president with a glock or someshit man. Go out infamously.

quote:Originally posted by KamikazePimp:

I feel like I put my family to shame b/c I can't afford to go to college.

If you care about how your family feels about you not making it to college, imagine how they would feel about you killing yourself. Your reasons for wanting to kill yourself are things you can get through. Talk to your family about the college thing if it makes you feel so bad, and as for the loneliness, I don't really know what to say, lacking social skills of any kind. But really, suicide is the cowards way out of things. Especially suicide with the aid of drugs. If you really think you should kill yourself, at least be sober when you do it.

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dont use cyanide, apparently its fucking painful.

and that whole college thing, no worries man, thats not disgraceful. Getting an education nowadays is getting way to expensive. god damn professors. so dont worry, it happens all the time, just keep at it.

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If I was going to commit suicide I would go around and do EVERYTHING I ever wanted to do, then I would go kill myself. That'd be the best way to go, because hey you are going to die anyway so who cares.

quote:Originally posted by sucktard:

I respectfully disagree-- i think suicide takes a helluva lot of balls.

Whats harder; Living through the hard times, or ending it all when the going gets tough.

I agree that it takes a lot of balls, but its the weak way out.

i agree wid the above post ^ , if ur gunna go (which sux) ..do it doing something u would like to do / like.

Fuck suicide, fuck the society who doesn't care about you, fuck college, fuck girls, fuck cyanide, fuck it all.

I know how you feel--really, I do. I've been in the same place before, and I'm still pretty close to it now. Just think, though--that if you do this, you'll miss out on so much. Your life might be bad now, but you probably have 40-70 more years left, maybe even more. Please, just don't do it. You seem intelligent, and you seem to be one of the few worthwhile people left in the world. It'd be a big loss.

If you have AIM and you want to talk, my ID is Kakkaraun. I wish you the best future and luck.

think of all the stuff you've ever wanted to do, but were afraid of what people would say, etc...

anything is better than suicide, and my guess is after you do the things you always wanted to, you won't feel so down anymore.

stop thinking. chill with friends as much as you can. don't kill yourself thats just a fucking waste. if ur family is that bad run away, take some cash n shit n leave a note. grab your fucking balls man dont be a pussy.

Its kinda scary how you people end up making valid points.

its not like you have AIDS

Suicide is the dowardly way out. You have to make things better for yourself rather than wallow in self pity. Things can always get better.

You won't find true comfort from this world.

But here's hoping that you can find something that can hold you over for a while.

quote:Originally posted by M4Dn355:

I'd suggest you run away for a few months(or permanently). Just move to another state and try to start out a new life. New scenery usually lifts peoples moods quite a bit. Suicide is the weak mans way out. Don't do it :\



agreed. i have a lot a friends who live in some pretty f'ed up families and some of them come up to me and say something like, "man, i can't take this crap anymore. it'd be easier to just end it all right now!" i tell 'em just to take off for a while and maybe go to a friend's house or maybe get a ride to Spokane (one of the larger cities around my dinky town)

when they come back, they usually seem much better off. it's sorta theraputic(sp?) for them.

1. your a pussy

2. stop whining

3. if you want to do it just get really stoned/drunk, put a bag over your head, fasten with elastic band so it dont come of, then sit down and watch your favourite comedy and fall asleep, you just wont wake up



4. your family will find your pussy ass lying down and have to remove the bag to reveal your blue oxygen starved face, imagine that with them for the rest of their lives you fuckin low down pussy angst ridden maggot, get of the computer till you

A) have a fuckin job to get your own ass through college

B) have gotten laid



have a nice day

zebbeddy is a fucken cock. ignore him. people like him make totse shit. dont kill yourself. i got a good song for you to listen to, it will make you feel soooo much better.

call me a poof, call me a pansy, but this song made me sad when i heard it, like miserable and depressed, like someone died. but seriously, it will do you good.

Its off everclears new cd slow motion daydream. its called science fiction. on the same cd there is a song called i wanna die a beautiful death, but if u die now, it wont be beautiful cause ur livin in a shit hole. btw, i reckon this belongs in spurious, even though it IS a bad idea, but then again those dickheads would just flame you.

Suicide can either for an honorable purpose of out of cowardice.

Coward.

Don't kill yourself. If you kill yourself you would put your family and friends in a world of hurt. Especially if you have brothers or sisters. You just got into a slump. Seems to me you are over stressed and have a lot of anxiety.

If you are really depressed and likely to kill yourself then get help from a doctor immediatly.

In my case the doctor gives my prescription pills that made my aniety worse. I found a natural vitamin supplement that is used in like 10 thousand hospitols. Its called "be calm'd" (www.neurogenesis.com) this stuff really works.

People who say they are gonna kill themselfs usually don't do it because it just is a cry for help it somebody really want's to kill himself he'll just do it and not let anybody know about it.

Should you commit suicide? Probably not.

But if you're going to, might as well do something fun... Travel to the nearest big city, take a tour to the top of a skyscraper, and enjoy the view on the way down.

Just remember, it's a one way trip. Don't take that first step unless you're willing to go all the way. You can't walk out of the garage, you can't get your stomach pumped. It's all or nothing.

After you try that, you'll either be dead or you'll know you want to live. It's better than chickening out half-way through another one, because then not only do you have to wonder about it whether or not you want to live, you'll probably be kept under observation to.

If you jump of a sky scraper, post a message so we know what that is like.

Believe me he isn't gonna commite suicide I mean if he would wanna kill himself he would just do it. It's just a cry for help or attention, whatever you wanna call it.

quote:Originally posted by DarkFire47:

Suicide is the dowardly way out. You have to make things better for yourself rather than wallow in self pity. Things can always get better.

For the most part, I agree with DarkFire 47 here..suicide is the pussyshits way out. And if your going to do it, quit telling everyone and just do it. Stop trying to get everyone to feel sorry for your wimp ass

-miakia

Also, I feel I MUST be put out like a rabid pitbull. I have immense anger against society(ESPECIALLY cops)! I feel if I don't put myself out, I may do something fucked-up like stab a cops eyes out!!!

I feel like I need to balance out the scales a little.

Fuck that jackoff Zebeddy! If I were to ever meet that scumbag, I would kill him painfully before I take myself out!

Hydrogen cyanide gas I'm told takes 1-4 minutes to snuff one out!

Suicide is the ultimate way of saying "I'm a coward unwilling to make things better for myself. It's so much easier to end it all."

Zebeddy, why the hell is it that online, people who think they are cool always insult/tease people by telling them they should get laid. Many people on here have probably gotten way more action then you, so shut your mouth fool.

And kamikaze, I don't recomend suicide. You only get one life, might as well do something with it.

You'd be better running away then suicide. It is still the easy way out, but if your pushed that far, then it's what you must do.

And, I know how you feel about working. I have worked 50+ weeks too, it can take alot of spunk out of you. What you have to do, is do something with your life that doesn't require an education, for now.

Maybe open a Subway franchise, those do really good. If you are going to commit suicide, become a scammer, like big time I mean. Now, you can go out, rob places, steal, get rich, and then lead a good life. And if you get caught, do what you would have done normally if there is no way of escaping.



The other option would be just to hang in there. Just keep working, and get a job where you have the possibility of moving really high in the food chain, so after working there for a while, you will have enough money for school, if you still want to go to it.

Or, as always, marry a rich woman and have no worries to life.



Tingtonger

Suicide is painless

It's also for pussies.

First I'd like to clarify some things. I have a job(an HONEST, legitimate one). I consider it well-paying compared to other jobs like it.

Fuck scamming!!! I keep it real!!! I hate fakes and liars!

calm down you dicks

no need to get yer toupe's in a twist eh lads

all i was saying was what will happen

you all know hes not gonna do it, HE knows hes not gonna do it

oh and you fuckin girls.. fuck off

Hey man just get the counseling its not worth killin yourself.

Join the military and kill some iraqis. Since you want to die that would be a good way.

Live and let live...

How can we advise a sttranger on his right to take his life or not? When we're born only medical staff and close family are there, it's personal.

Death is also very personal, and each person should be able to choose if he/she wishes to take their own life. However have respect for your friends and family members and their feelings.

In the end you are answerable to only one person . . . yourself.

I think none of us here has a right to decide or comment on how you choose to die. . .

If you go thru with it then its been nice knowing ya

i heard taking pcp and running around with a loaded gun out front the white house is the least painful death if u kill george bush and such... im with the other guy that said it... go out infamously.. ull be a legend man

hey...i agree with kakkaraun. talk to someone who understands you, and im a chick and im not a bitch and my sn is upirlichy5897 so if u want to talk to me too or w/e IM me. good luck =\

If you do go down, DO NOT take out a cop.

I really dont see how someone could hate a cop so much to where they kill one. Its not right.

I think joining the Marines might be a good answer for you.

Its his decision , If he wants to kill himself let him

I say go for it man. Just leave a note.

Dont be one of those guys that no one knows why they killed their selves.

Have respect and leave a suicide note.

Do you really want to end it all? You can die any time you want to, but you get only one chance at life. Do you really want to stop laughing? Not have the good times you've had? According to me, death is like dreamless sleep. You will never get up. You will never see another day. You can't do anything after death. You're eyes are closed, you can't think. 'You' don't exist. Is it worth it?

You're one of the few people I know who actually knows the formula for KCN. A mind is a terrible thing to waste. Use it. It isn't your fault colleges are so expensive. Does your country have an open university that you could join? You seem to be quite intelligent.Do some research before attempting anything.

dude that would be awesome, take out the president from a distance (so you don't get killed before you can kill him) at one of his speeches, then you'll be shot down by secret service. you'd be in every schools history books, all over the news, god your name would be known world wide. ide say that would be the best way to go out .

but ide only kill myself if things were really bad. i hate people that cut here wrists then immediately run to the bathroom to wash off the cut and apply pressure so they don't die, just so people will see the cuts and give them attention, and feel sorry for them. they have no intention of dieing, they just need to be the center of attention. those are the people that make me want to punch myself in the face.

well, think about shit before you make your final decision. theres so many other options. well good luck to you

HAHA quote:Originally posted by grandmassa:

go to counseling, get a girlfriend, and see how much u are wanted but just don't harm yourself. imagine how shameful your family will be if you commit suicide and how guilty they will feel if they drove you to suicide

if only it was that easy, you see not all of us can pick any girl we want. I know it sounds pathetic, but sadly it is true.

You know what happens when you kill yourself? The morticians are FORCED to carve "FUCKTARD" into your forehead, thus killing the chances of any form of open casket burial. And not only that, but they also cut off your genitals and leave a gaping hatchet wound in its place, thus having your body rot into eternity with two things:

1) "FUCKTARD" carved into your forehead

2) A Bloody vagina in the place of your genitals.

Join the Marines, worked for me.... pussy.

quote:Originally posted by DeerHunterUSMC:

You know what happens when you kill yourself? The morticians are FORCED to carve "FUCKTARD" into your forehead, thus killing the chances of any form of open casket burial. And not only that, but they also cut off your genitals and leave a gaping hatchet wound in its place, thus having your body rot into eternity with two things:

1) "FUCKTARD" carved into your forehead

2) A Bloody vagina in the place of your genitals.

Join the Marines, worked for me.... pussy.

If only it was that easy you piece of shit! Joining the marines isnt gonna help. Sometimes the wieght of life is unbearable and its always because of shit heads like you! Your the reason why the world is such a fucking hellhole! You and your kind, your all the same. It's like you try to capitilize on everyone's petty flaws and you twist the knife just to entertain yourself. Its one thing to play around with someone but people like you take it too far. When someone is on the edge they really dont need your shit. You think they are just feeling sorry for themselves but acually they are just trying to escape from this fucking reality that scum like you has created. You think that just because you went to a bootcamp that your a notch higher than everyone else, but in reality your the same as all the others locked in your simple little world, hypnotized by societys grip. Hell, lots of people could with stand bootcamp, millions of people have done it. Your nothing special. Your shit!

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rob a bank first, if the plan fails shoot yourself. if you get the dough, go somewhere tropical and start a new life. its a win win situation

quote:Originally posted by slasher_13:

If only it was that easy you piece of shit! Joining the marines isnt gonna help. Sometimes the wieght of life is unbearable and its always because of shit heads like you! Your the reason why the world is such a fucking hellhole! You and your kind, your all the same. It's like you try to capitilize on everyone's petty flaws and you twist the knife just to entertain yourself. Its one thing to play around with someone but people like you take it too far. When someone is on the edge they really dont need your shit. You think they are just feeling sorry for themselves but acually they are just trying to escape from this fucking reality that scum like you has created. You think that just because you went to a bootcamp that your a notch higher than everyone else, but in reality your the same as all the others locked in your simple little world, hypnotized by societys grip. Hell, lots of people could with stand bootcamp, millions of people have done it. Your nothing special. Your shit!

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First off, If I'm the peice of shit, then why don't I have the gun in my mouth? And yes, I think joining the Marines WOULD help. It would give him pride, positive environment, stable career, motivation, etc. If the weight of life is unbearable because of people, then why dont you just say "yea, whatever" and tell em to fuck off. Gimmie a god damn break. Life unbearable, go read a book on quality of life during the late 1800's. And if I do fuck with him, its cause this is all bullshit. A bunch of pussies telling him how "cool" suicide is or "how much balls it takes". Fuck that! Play the hand your delt, as shitty as it may be. Theres nothing cool about death. The only people who thinks its so fascinating are those who have never seen it.

Now I dont recall saying anything about being a notch higher than anyone because I joined the Marines, but since you did, obviously you feel that you stand at a lower level, which you do! I've never seen someone feel so threatened from such a simple note, christ! I never said I was anything special. Millions have finished boot camp, and thats why we still have the good old USA and its not being run by Che Guevara or some commie peice of shit who you probably have a poster of in your bed room.

Simple little world? Just shut up! What are you, in 8th grade? Gee, highschool, how hard it was. So complex. Dude, enjoy the glory days cause it only gets harder.

Mabey you should be the one riding that bullet train.

grasp of society, boo hoo hoo

Shut up Pussy, I was talking to Kamikazi anyways....

Yo, Kamikazi, don't do it, just quit hanging around lame asses like slasher_13, the ones that dont do anything are the ones that bring ya down......



DeerHunterUSMC

People, if he wanted to kill himself, he would have done it without posting on a BBS like I have said, and a few others have said. If he wants to kill himself, let him.

Also, on the note of people cutting their writsts..alot of people dont do it because their suicidal. Have you ever done it while under AN EXTREME amount of stress? It relieves ALL OF IT! Trust me, I used to resort to these extremes during the school year, 'cept I done it where it was concealable so no one could know. I used to think about suicide alot, but never would I resort to it unless I had a terminal disease, in which I would go and do everything I have ever wanted and go out infamously, like I suggest to the guy who started this thread.

Kill the president, and you will be sure to be taken out, while your name will be in history books, newspapers, ALL OVER THE MEDIA. So if your going to kill your self, do what you always wanted to do, and if you still want to, go kill the president.

Well, first of all let me tell you that I think it is pathetic that you had to make up so much bullshit on me, the assumptions I made of you where based on the things that you typed, not what I believed or thought you did. No im not in the fucking 8th grade either. I also never truely believed that the guy was going to truely go through with suicide, but I do think that he was thinking about it, and in times like that you really dont need some bad ass wanna be telling you how much of a pussy you are. You really have helped nothing but to make it worse on him. Also, how would you know what death is like? Have you ever died before? I dont really feel like straying off topic here but i agree that the marines are nesessary and I have even like the marines they probably have the second toughest bootcamp next to the Navy Seals. Oh and one more thing, life truely sucks for most of us, Its probably hard for you to comprehend that being that you are so full of yourself, and dont tell me your not because I can see it in your wording. The main reason I dont end it all is I refuse to give up, and submit to you and your kind.



Think of that Kamikaze when your getting ready to kill yourself! Dont let them win! Dont give in to their bullshit!

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quote:Originally posted by s8en:

People, if he wanted to kill himself, he would have done it without posting on a BBS like I have said, and a few others have said. If he wants to kill himself, let him.

Also, on the note of people cutting their writsts..alot of people dont do it because their suicidal. Have you ever done it while under AN EXTREME amount of stress? It relieves ALL OF IT! Trust me, I used to resort to these extremes during the school year, 'cept I done it where it was concealable so no one could know. I used to think about suicide alot, but never would I resort to it unless I had a terminal disease, in which I would go and do everything I have ever wanted and go out infamously, like I suggest to the guy who started this thread.

Kill the president, and you will be sure to be taken out, while your name will be in history books, newspapers, ALL OVER THE MEDIA. So if your going to kill your self, do what you always wanted to do, and if you still want to, go kill the president.

"Self Harm"

Ive been known to carve my own flesh, am I nuts? Some people may say yes - but surely people who pierce themselfs are doing just as bad?

Its all self mutilation whichever way you look at it. I personally believe that freedom as our society believes in should be without physical boundries, if I carve a 6" letter in my thigh then who cares??? Its my thigh right?

Death is like life.....fucked up and incidental!!!

quote:Originally posted by slasher_13:

Well, first of all let me tell you that I think it is pathetic that you had to make up so much bullshit on me, the assumptions I made of you where based on the things that you typed, not what I believed or thought you did. No im not in the fucking 8th grade either. I also never truely believed that the guy was going to truely go through with suicide, but I do think that he was thinking about it, and in times like that you really dont need some bad ass wanna be telling you how much of a pussy you are. You really have helped nothing but to make it worse on him. Also, how would you know what death is like? Have you ever died before? I dont really feel like straying off topic here but i agree that the marines are nesessary and I have even like the marines they probably have the second toughest bootcamp next to the Navy Seals. Oh and one more thing, life truely sucks for most of us, Its probably hard for you to comprehend that being that you are so full of yourself, and dont tell me your not because I can see it in your wording. The main reason I dont end it all is I refuse to give up, and submit to you and your kind.



Think of that Kamikaze when your getting ready to kill yourself! Dont let them win! Dont give in to their bullshit!

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All I had types even concerning me was

"Join the Maries, worked for me... pussy."

So where exactly did you see me hype myself up as being a bad ass? Oh yea, thats right, BECAUSE I NEVER DID!

And on your RETARDED little "us" against "them" rhetoric, just stop it. Read the last sentence in my last message and tell me whose side I'm on. So if thats the case, then if I'm telling him not to do it, and your telling him not to give into "my type", you want him to do it.

slasher_13, you should consider sterilizing yourself with a steam cleaner, cause god help us if we have anymore MORONS running around on this planet.

quote:Originally posted by KamikazePimp:

My reality is shit!!! I seek to escape from it. I feel like I put my family to shame b/c I can't afford to go to college. Also, the loneliness I suffer from everyday is becoming unbearable.

Anyway, the quickest way to off myself with the resources that I possess would be some cyanide. But is a cyanide death painful? I just want to pop the KCN capsules and then go out WITHOUT drowning in my own blood.

It's your family's fault you feel like this. They must suck. Take them with you before they fuck anyone else up.

I promised myself I would become a vigelante before I ever commit suicide. Even if it was just little shit. And it would have to get pretty bad to even be like that.

I also think there are too many fun things to do first before I go. Good luck with your decision.