I can't believe I'm posting this, but I'm sorta desperate. I recently moved away from all my "connections" and am trying to settle in to my new lifestyle. I am continuously on the hunt for something to make me feel human (I guess all those years on the prowl, I thought I was human). I figure, once you achieve the pleasures of intoxication nothing is ever ever the same in your brain. My friends consisted of "c" and op's. Can anyone recommend something legal or easy to get that would make me feel human again until I connect again - somehow - someway. I know some of you will try to insist that I enjoy sobriety, but that will never happen. I feel like i'm dying - I just want some pleasure, ya dig? Any comments would be appreciated, particulary comments pointing me in the right direction. Thanks.

Sorry to hear you're down in the dumps man.....you said anything legal and easy to get? I'd say one thing comes to mind, alcohol. You can't go wrong with it. I don't really think DXM would be the way to go if you're depressed and stuff......but thats the other legal alternative....keep ya chin up man......it's not too hard to get new connections.........

alcohol, get drunk and break an arm or leg or something, injure yourself somewhere besides your back or head, fuck just break a finger and go to the doctor and get some painkillers (get the liquid version "you cant swallow pills") and then call back a couple days later and ask if they have anything better to help the pain its not working enough, dont say its not working at all though. then you may be told to take a double dose of your hydrocodone liquid for example if they give you that, and you can go back to the doctor sooner, without suspicion, or they may prescribe percocet then you can say about the liquid and get oxyfast, which is the liquid

hell you can even carry on about your back and just dont make the appointments for the xray/mri/ctscan whatever they throw at you. then go to another doctor and repeat, should land you something like vicodin or tylenol 3, something relatively weak no matter how much you complain because they dont officially know whats the matter, which is why they do the scans/xrays.

I dont know how old you are and your situation adn shit but try to get an amp from the doctor by complaining of wanting to lose weight or ADD/ADHD.

also complain you cant sleep, when they start to prescribe either ambien or sonata, say your "previous doctor tried both on me and they didnt work" and he will give out either a benzo or barbiturate.

also you could go to the emergency room like at 5 or 6 a.m. there doesnt seem to be as much commotion and people at that time so you can go in and out pretty much and complain of back spasms/pain with an 8 or 9 on the pain chart and you'll come out with a shot of morphine and maybe a 2 or 3 day prescription of tylenol 3 or vics. again say you cant swallow pills without gagging or something so you can get the liquid.

oh yea and those yellow jackets/hornets whatever that has herbs and ephedrine is alright, just take 1 otherwise it will be more shitty, since its shitty in the first place anyway. and it lasts too damn long, but its still alright. stacker 3s 2s or anything with ephedrine works but the yellow jackets have those other herbs as potentiators.

if you want crack or weed or something it shouldnt be hard to find in the ghetto, dont dealers put white on their nail for coke and green for weed? i dont know what it is for heroin or pills or anything



[This message has been edited by flak47 (edited 08-07-2003).]

quote:Originally posted by Shonkman:

Sorry to hear you're down in the dumps man.....you said anything legal and easy to get? I'd say one thing comes to mind, alcohol. You can't go wrong with it. I don't really think DXM would be the way to go if you're depressed and stuff......but thats the other legal alternative....keep ya chin up man......it's not too hard to get new connections.........

dxm is good in low doses for when you're pissed/depressed, just DO NOT take too much, you will trip out of your mind and have a horribly bad trip because depression is bad with hallucinogens and dissasosiatives(sp?).

Wow, thank you so much for taking the time to give me some info. I only weight 120 lbs (I'm female), so I can't get the diet pills, ephedra doesn't work for me anymore, alcohol makes me want to kill someone, and from what I've been noticing lately (i've managing to "borrow" some vic's and hydro's from a few neighbors (!!!!) not nice, I know and they don't even do anything for me). I know, your saying, jeez, I gave you my best, now shut the f up. I know I know, I'm rambling. Aghhhhhhhh. I'll live. Just wanted to thank you for your time.

quote:Originally posted by litldeer:

I can't believe I'm posting this, but I'm sorta desperate. I recently moved away from all my "connections" and am trying to settle in to my new lifestyle. I am continuously on the hunt for something to make me feel human (I guess all those years on the prowl, I thought I was human). I figure, once you achieve the pleasures of intoxication nothing is ever ever the same in your brain. My friends consisted of "c" and op's. Can anyone recommend something legal or easy to get that would make me feel human again until I connect again - somehow - someway. I know some of you will try to insist that I enjoy sobriety, but that will never happen. I feel like i'm dying - I just want some pleasure, ya dig? Any comments would be appreciated, particulary comments pointing me in the right direction. Thanks.

are you female? male? find a person that is super cool and clean, get to know them to start a relationship......have alot of sex..jk? but still i find that a really good relationship helps out alot and could get you going in the riht direction, but always keep in mind your taking advice from a 15 year old that hasnt had really experienced life yet. hope everything starts looking up. later.

oh yeah and sex does help BTW, well at least for me. good luck.

quote:Originally posted by flak47:

alcohol, get drunk and break an arm or leg or something

NO, DON'T LISTEN TO THIS DUMBASS! Broken bones aren't something to just play around with. Do you have the money to pay for all the bills you'll rack up? A cast alone costs about $500. And chances are you won't be able to work. Besides all this, are you prepared for intense pain, like the worst you've ever felt? I have a high pain tolerance, and breaking my arm made me want to die it hurt so bad. You'll end up taking almost all of your meds for the pain. And then, you'll go through withdrawal. Don't break your arm or leg for pills. If you do you're officially the dumbest fucker around.

quote:Originally posted by Shonkman:

I'd say one thing comes to mind, alcohol. You can't go wrong with it.

Yeah you can. Its called alcohol poisoning, and alcoholism.

spray some of youre fingers with liqiud freon or butane,not too bad but enough to get frostburn and i guarentee the docter will give you atleast 5/500 hydrocodone,if i were you ide tell him youre allergic to tylenol and asprin gives you the hives

the pain wont be too bad from frostburn until later in the day,it will be totally numb and feel like a block of wood most of the time.

i was given a IM'd shot in the arm of nubain,some topical novacaine with some other shit in to help the skin peel off and some 5/500s,though i did it on accident its much better than breaking an arm or finger.

oh yeah and if i were you ide ask him to write you some topical novacaine too,youre hand will be fucking itching and you cant scratch it

like all other docter advice i give, i ask you to share the wealth with me

well in response to loej i wasnt thinking, i broke my hand before and just used weed for a painkiller and used the opiates to get high. and i have insurance anyway

and that dimethyltryptamine gave some good advice

quote:Yeah you can. Its called alcohol poisoning, and alcoholism.

Moderation.......I never said go all out and end all youre miseries.......

Agreed, moderation...



There are many legal alternatives...

quote:Originally posted by flak47:

well in response to loej i wasnt thinking, i broke my hand before and just used weed for a painkiller and used the opiates to get high. and i have insurance anyway

and that dimethyltryptamine gave some good advice

Yeah, I'm off the pills now. I smoked up tonite, and I must say I can vouch for medicinal marijuana. My discomfort was greatly eased. Even my stomach ache from withdrawal from the Percocets.