First off, what I'm about to tell you is personal...REALLY personal. The only reason I'm telling you this is because we've never actually met, and probably never will, and I NEED TO GET THIS OFF MY FREAKING CHEST!!! So if at some point you get offended, or you go "this guy needs help" just click the "back" button, 'cause I don't need to hear it! I'm gonna try to make this the least vulgar I possibly can, but it's gona be tricky....Here it goes.

It's about lent. I've given up self pleasure (which I think is the most polite way possible to say "cranking it"), and it hasn't been going well. I'm 16 for God sakes! I'm chocked full of hormones! What's worse, all the things I'm attracted too have doubled their attractiveness. It's not that I haven't gone that long without doing it before, but now it's not an option. It's like it's forbidden, which makes it weirder. THAT'S not the problem though. I should have that problem cooled down eventually. THIS is the problem, and THIS is what you need to have a REALLY open mind for. I'll warn you in advance. I'm about to tell you a fetish I have, so I IMPLORE YOU! If you don't want to hear about it, FLEE!!! Run to the hills!...Unless you live in Kansas, or someplace like that where there aren't any!....

Okay, I think I've scared the weak ones off, here it is (Just so you know, I'm not proud. I'm very, very ashamed with myself)...

I like lolicon hentai.....For those of you who aren't cringing after reading that, it's manga porn with kids. Sometimes LITTLE KIDS! (I stay away from THAT stuff though)I don't know why I'm attracted to it, I just am, OKAY! I've been trying to cut back lately though....But it's also transgressed into the real world too, so sometimes I see, maybe a nice looking middle-school girl, and I have to look away, or I'll start thinking bad thoughts....You hate me now, don't you?....Thoguht so.

Anyway, HERE'S what drove me to write this (FINALLY!) If you've stayed this long, you're either concerned for me, or you're perverted.

Back when I was a kid, I had these neighbors. They had these two annoying kids. A brother, and a little sister. They eventually moved, and I only saw them once few years ago. I saw them again tonight. I was a little concerned that I might...fantasize...is a less creepy word, when I saw the girl, who is, I think, 12...Dear God, she might even be 11!...I hate myself right now. For a good half of the time I was there, everything was going smoothly. I was actually having fun hanging with them. We played some video games, and had some laughs. Then I picked up their DS, sat on the sofa (since they were both on the couch) and popped in "Brain Academy." I never played it, and thought it would be fun. It was. Then it happened. She gets up, tells me to scootch over, and she's sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME on a ONE PERSON sofa! We were touching. (EW! FOR THE LOVE OF CHRIST! JUST FROM THINKING ABOUT IT I'M....I don't think I can or should say it, so I'll move on...once again, I realy hate myself right now) I was handling it pretty well. After a while it got physically uncomfortable with both of us on there, so that got my mind off it. She would play a game, then pass it to me, and back and forth like that. (sad to say, we had about the same score...I'M A SOPHMORE!) Then God (Who I'm SURE is behind all this temptation, the sneaky omnipotent bastard!) throws me ANOTHER curve ball! The whole time I was there she was wearing a hoody. Out of nowhere she takes it off! She's got on a tank top. It wasn't reavealing or anything (she didn't have anything to *reveal* really...What is WRONG WITH ME!?) but I saw some mid-drift, and I had to excuse myself. I went to the bathroom and smacked myself as punishment...it hurt. (notice I didn't say *where* I smacked myself...once again...it hurt) Luckily (well for ME) we had to leave. See my uncle, the most accident prone member in our family got a flat tire. So he jacked up the car, and tried to fix it. He noticed however, that he had the jack in the wrong spot, and that's dangerous, so he should move it. Well, too late, it gave way, and the wheel fell on his hand, injuring it. Don't worry, I'm sure he'll be fine, my grandmother (who I was with at the kids place) is at the hospital with him. That's why we had to leave early. So now here I sit, a sad and pathetic pervert. Pouring his heart out to complete strangers so no one I know knows what you I know that I know.......wait....NEVERMIND! The point is...I don't know what the point is.

Look, if you're just going to shun me for being a pervert don't bother, I do that to myself plenty. I need some symathitic people out there. I don't want you to pity me, (thoguh you probably do) I just.......I just needed an outlet for all this pent up......frustration I have with myself for being the way I am! I mean if I were gay that would be easier! That's not ILLEGAL! Being attracted to underage children is wrong!!! I know that for a fact! But I can't help it, OKAY!?.....Okay....I'm gonna....I'm gonna go watch Bleach and go to bed...It's been a long day....36 days to go....wish me luck. Hopefully this'll teach me some self control, and I might finally be rid of this horrid, horrid fetish of mine.

I suggest you see a priest immediately.

Now this may sound a little harsh at first but please bear with me i never had such a good way with words ...



You are a virgin right ? , It would appear that way and at 16 most guys haven't lost thier virginity (exept for the lucky ones). I lost mine at 17 . I can remember that before i actually participated with another person i had some strange desires. I mean it would change all the time as if my mind were trying to get me to find something so wrong that i would shame myself forever.

There is somepart of the brain that conjours up fetishes and everyone with a fetish (or "specialist subject" as i like to call it lol) gets off on the fact that it is "Dirty" that it is something that they shouldn't be doing.



At the Age of 16 you have got more testosterone and hormones than at any other point in your life .This isn't a disorder the only reason it gets you off is because it is wrong and at the moment all you want to do is get off (well that was me at sixteen anyway).

It could always be some self confidence thing where you dont think that you are capable of convincing a 16 year old girl to sleep with you so you secretly think that you should stick to younger girls as it would be easier.

Whatever happens my friend dont get frustrated your body does some strange things (mind included) I swear by the time you get laid you will have completely forgotten about it .

Dont panic in the wise words of Douglas Adams. things will work themselves out i promise you.

Keep us posted good luck

quote:Originally posted by inverted:

"Dont panic," in the wise words of every commercial airline pilot flying into the ground.

Fixed it for you.

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I used to get that, but it passed.

If you're not taking it any further and actually abusing little kids, isnt your secret fetish your own buisness and own right?

You say your stopping whacking off, Just start again, move away from the kid hentai onto somethign else thats "taboo" such as tentacles, Or demon porn, and if that doesnt help just keep thinking that children of that age dont understand lustful feelings.

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Too long didnt read all of it.

But apparently you have been spending much to much time on /b/ lately. My suggestion is that you leave the 4chon alone for a while.

Oh and a bit of constructive criticism- when you type something like this, try to have a clear stated purpose, state your case briefly and concisely (nobody here knows you well enough to read through all that this), and try not to ramble so goddamn much. Background, question, then we give advice.

[This message has been edited by XHippie HunterX (edited 03-01-2007).]

That doesn't sound perverted, that sounds you have a bad case of teh pedophilia.

quote:Originally posted by Angiospermicidal:

I suggest you see a priest immediately.

A horny one & make the priestly 'two-backed beast'.

You need to use all the desperation and motivation you're feeling right now to vow never to act on your fantasies. Otherwise, maybe over time, it will bother you less, and eventually you could get so desensitised and distorted that you'll do something terrible. Remember: so far, you have done nothing wrong. Don't feel guilty- feel motivated to keep it that way. Try to change.

You've been dealt a bad hand man and it sucks, but at least you don't have things really bad. It could be a lot worse. All this means is that you have to take some extra responsibility for yourself now. Also, remember that there are a lot of people with secrets so shameful that they can't even imagine sharing them with anyone.

Something that's probably bothering you is that you'll never be able to tell anyone this: you probably can't imagine ever having a real relationship with anyone. If you want to be able to have a real, honest relationship in the future, make sure you don't act on your feelings. Most people could understand and forgive urges that you can't control, but if you've acted on them, it'll be an entirely different situation. You do not want that kind of secret hanging over your head for the rest of your life- use this thought as motivation to change.

Good luck.

It's a fact that people with midget fetishes are pedophiles who sold out.

I suggest downloading some midget on midget videos.