so i've been pretty down lately because of someone i can't forget that is always in my mind, i lost my virginity to said person in october and i've been liking this person since last april. this person simply used me and then dumped me because that's what this person does to everyone. this person knew that i was seriously into him and took advantage of me and even though he hurt me and used me and pretty much fucked me up i still want him so badly. i seriously just want to forget him because I HATE HIM but at the same time i sort of love him. fuck.

don't expect any good advice or whatever just wanted to express myself to other than my friends who are sick of me talking about him or my diary that is filled with notes about him.

ouchies, that sucks

Just think of this as a learning experience. You obviously have, or did have at one point, very strong feelings for this person, so there's no real need to regret what happened between the two of you.