Hi, I am here for advice or comments on a situation that has been haunting and taunting me for over a year now; I met this girl two septembers ago in biology class at college, I didn't think too much of her when we first met, but gradually her pixiness and mediterranean beauty seduced me so much that I became uncontrollably infatuated with her. I knew it shouldn't be, wouldn't work in the end, mostly because the qualities I coveted in her were the same qualities I coveted in the love of two years I had just broken up with and felt severe depression and longing for. I was trying to get over my past relationship, and to me this new Greek girl was just a residual feeling that I needed to overcome. So I tried and tried to keep her out of my mind and desire, but failed failed. Every time I would see her all of that feeling I tried to bottle up exploded inside me. I felt a chemistry between us, she would notice me and make comments if she liked something I was wearing or had, she seemed interested in me, but I still felt the pain from breaking up with my past love, I really felt like that killed me, but this new love was so utterly desirable, really one in a million, saw so many other girls in college and out and none of them sparked my interest. Anyway, another girl in the class liked me too and the Greek and this other girl did not like eachother at all. This other girl started talking to me alot and it was as if she "stole" me away from the greek girl, I didn't really care about anything then so I just went along with it. The bitch girl was rude sometimes and once said the greek girl had a big nose, I could feel the heat that day, anyway I feel that me nonchalantly

befriending this bitch girl hurt the greeks feelings and our potential relationship. This greek girl is sort of shy, she was an awkward nerd of her highschool but still cool, just like me, sort of a sophisticated misunderstood outsider. We had/ have so much in common that is why my love for her is so profound and intimidating, because she is just so good, it's weird to have something you didnt even know could exist put right in front of you. So after the class ended I stopped talking to the bitch girl and resented the fact taht I let her get between me and something I cared about. I kept in contact w/ the Greek girl, I would email her about interesting things that we both felt passionately about, she would email me back about her opinions and feelings but wouldn't really ask about my side or ask any inquisitive questions about myself, as if she wasn't really interested in me or as if she was on a soapbox, though she did make long all explaining emails to me. I felt that she enjoyed the fact that I enjoyed her now and it was as if she was going to have fun stringing me along. So I stopped emailing her because I didn't want to want anybody. If it wasn't equally attractive I didn't want to waste the time. So to the present, this semester we have another class together, I see her one day on the floor of the building she is doing research in, we are both alone, very chance happening us being alone, she comes up to me and says "hi, how are you?" I feel nervous and pissed off that fate has to fuck with me all the time, I ask her what she has been up to, then she says " what about you" I just say "i've been busy" then dont explain anything else, I just end it there, and act kind of cold, but really I am nervous and again feeling hurt from life and relationships, I get a robert deniro face, after a brief moment of awkward silence she is like "okay, well it was nice to see you" and she walks to the nearest exit. Things about that encounter; she came to me to talk, she seemed inquisitive, and she seemed hurt when I grew cold Deniro faced. I was dressed nicely which may have made her more receptive. That was a week ago, the next week she started sitting right in front of me in class, she came from the other side of the room and now sits right in front of me, I don't get it. She didn't talk to me, when I looked at her she didn't look at me, usually she would smile and say hi. What does she expect or want from me? What is her motive for sitting next to me?

I want to love her but I do still feel as if I have been dropped from heaven and into hell. I've just, had enough of life, and I don't want to want her, but I can't help myself.



[This message has been edited by Mirbeau (edited 02-05-2007).]

u rite stuff

like a poem

I worship Eris, both sexually and chaoticly.

I think you could make some money outta this by telling this to MCR. Prolly they'd write a song.

Go away and reformat.

jackketch(aged17) *flaunts half naked body in mirror*

Jackketch's Mom: "stop admiring yourself, no one wants to see your corpse"

jackketch:"I will have you know, my body has been likened to that of a greek god!"

jackketch's dad (walking past):"You mean the one with the horse's arse?".

Yeah the way it pasted was annoying.

So are there any women or guys that can look at the situation and tell me what they see?

Go with the Greek.

Hi, I am here for advice or comments on a situation that has been haunting and taunting me for over a year now; I met this girl two septembers ago in biology class at college, I didn't think too much of her when we first met, but gradually her pixiness and mediterranean beauty seduced me so much that I became uncontrollably infatuated with her.



I knew it shouldn't be, wouldn't work in the end, mostly because the qualities I coveted in her were the same qualities I coveted in the love of two years I had just broken up with and felt severe depression and longing for.

I was trying to get over my past relationship, and to me this new Greek girl was just a residual feeling that I needed to overcome.

So I tried and tried to keep her out of my mind and desire, but failed failed.

Every time I would see her all of that feeling I tried to bottle up exploded inside me. I felt a chemistry between us, she would notice me and make comments if she liked something I was wearing or had, she seemed interested in me, but I still felt the pain from breaking up with my past love, I really felt like that killed me, but this new love was so utterly desirable, really one in a million, saw so many other girls in college and out and none of them sparked my interest.

Anyway, another girl in the class liked me too and the Greek and this other girl did not like eachother at all. This other girl started talking to me alot and it was as if she "stole" me away from the greek girl, I didn't really care about anything then so I just went along with it.

The bitch girl was rude sometimes and once said the greek girl had a big nose, I could feel the heat that day, anyway I feel that me nonchalantly

befriending this bitch girl hurt the greeks feelings and our potential relationship. This greek girl is sort of shy, she was an awkward nerd of her highschool but still cool, just like me, sort of a sophisticated misunderstood outsider.

We had/ have so much in common that is why my love for her is so profound and intimidating, because she is just so good, it's weird to have something you didnt even know could exist put right in front of you.

So after the class ended I stopped talking to the bitch girl and resented the fact taht I let her get between me and something I cared about. I kept in contact w/ the Greek girl, I would email her about interesting things that we both felt passionately about, she would email me back about her opinions and feelings but wouldn't really ask about my side or ask any inquisitive questions about myself, as if she wasn't really interested in me or as if she was on a soapbox, though she did make long all explaining emails to me.

I felt that she enjoyed the fact that I enjoyed her now and it was as if she was going to have fun stringing me along.

So I stopped emailing her because I didn't want to want anybody. If it wasn't equally attractive I didn't want to waste the time.

So to the present, this semester we have another class together, I see her one day on the floor of the building she is doing research in, we are both alone, very chance happening us being alone, she comes up to me and says "hi, how are you?" I feel nervous and pissed off that fate has to fuck with me all the time, I ask her what she has been up to, then she says " what about you" I just say "i've been busy" then dont explain anything else, I just end it there, and act kind of cold, but really I am nervous and again feeling hurt from life and relationships, I get a robert deniro face, after a brief moment of awkward silence she is like "okay, well it was nice to see you" and she walks to the nearest exit. Things about that encounter; she came to me to talk, she seemed inquisitive, and she seemed hurt when I grew cold Deniro faced.

I was dressed nicely which may have made her more receptive. That was a week ago, the next week she started sitting right in front of me in class, she came from the other side of the room and now sits right in front of me, I don't get it.

She didn't talk to me, when I looked at her she didn't look at me, usually she would smile and say hi. What does she expect or want from me? What is her motive for sitting next to me?

I want to love her but I do still feel as if I have been dropped from heaven and into hell.

I've just, had enough of life, and I don't want to want her, but I can't help myself.

quote:Originally posted by jackketch:

jackketch's dad (walking past):"You mean the one with the horse's arse?".



PAWNED

That's my star sign though.

To long, I never read that much during the six years I was in high school...wait maybe there's a connection