I'm going to make a very very very long story relatively less long.

I met this girl in 6th grade. Immediately had a huge crush on her. Liked each other on and off through 8th grade.

Good friends in 9th grade. Smoked a lot of pot together.. good times. No real feelings there.

middle of 10th grade we got into some sort of massive argument and stopped speaking with each other.

11th grade my mind was heavily altered by excessive drug use and I was just... sort of an asshole that entire year.

I used shrooms a couple times near the end of 11th grade, had a couple of spiritual realizations and stopped doing drugs. Return to normal self.

This past summer, I call her to hang out. Sort of an impulsive thing. We hung out. We hooked up. Odd. After 6 years or so, we had never so much as kissed on the lips. We started hooking up a lot more often and come November 20th, we were dating, though we had been having sex for a little while before that. She took my virginity, actually.

In love, of course. We had known each other for a very very long time.

Basically spent every day together until December 22nd (day after my birthday) when we got into another little quarrel. Her siblings were visiting from new york, and they only come once a year, so I let her hang out with them.

Our relationship got a lot better after our winter break was over (Jan. 2). Things were happy as hell. All of our little relationship problems that we had had until then ended. We were just really happy.

Night of our Winter Formal dance, I picked up her little diary and I was just skimming through it when I see "Yesterday I spent the day with Alexander and we fucked." Alex was a boyfriend of hers from 2 years ago. I had always worried about their relationship, even though he lives in Maryland and is in the Naval Academy. She has always had this infatuation with him and he's really quite charming.

Anyway, I told her I knew. I broke up with her. Didn't go to Winter Formal. Spent the next few days with each other talking about it.

I was going mentally insane.

My trust for the world was gone.

I thought my parents were out to kill me.

I thought my friends had bad intentions.

Etc.

We decided to go on a break (we had gotten back together) because I was repeatedly interrogating her and asking her impossible to answer questions over and over, knowing that she couldn't answer them and that even if she did they wouldn't help me at all.

We went on a "2 week break" which ended 2 days later. I missed her. She missed me. We got back together and things were going really fucking well. I made a conscious decision to never make a reference to the incident again, recognizing that it was a mistake (a huge fucking mistake, but a mistake nonetheless) and I convinced myself that I trusted her again.

Well... the other night I went over to her house and saw a car in the driveway. I let myself in like I usually do and walked downstairs to her room and she's asleep in bed with another one of her ex-boyfriends.

I'm actually really good friends with him and I'll refer to him as "P" since his name is Alex, too. Anyway, P and I are good friends, and he had come home from college and couldn't get into his house so he went over to my girlfriend's house to sleep. She wasn't even there when he came over. She went home and saw him there and flipped out and then she ended up falling asleep, too. I know for a fact that nothing happened between them. They're really really close, but any intimate relationship between them ended long ago.

Anyway... when I saw this, I went completely fucking insane. Not outwardly, but inwardly.

I left around 6:00. She told me that he would be leaving at 6:30 and that she needed to work on college stuff and then if she finished and her parents let her out she would come to the concert I was going to.

Well.. around 6:30 I went insane and I went to her house and started spying on her through the window. I went back to my car and then ran back, feeling as though I could catch her in some sort of act and they were gone. I snuck into her house and hid. They both left to go see a movie.

Anyway, I called her out on not telling me the truth about what she was doing. Realistically, who the fuck cares if she's going out to see a movie?

But in the moment of my distrust and insanity I was convinced that she was going to cheat on me agian and that she's just a lying bitch.

Of course, nothing happened.

The next day we met up for coffee and broke up because I obviously dont' trust her at all.

Now I'm depressed as hell. We mutually decided to break up until I could trust her again, but I'm miserable and I dont' know if I should even be with her or if I'll ever be able to trust her again, or any of that. How do I even know when I trust her again? I want to be able to trust her to the point where she can be doing anything and I won't worry about it.

The only thing is that one of my only insecurities about our relationship was her relationship with Alex, the dude she fucked. Then, voila, I find out that they fucked. It's just really really hard for me to forget about it and trust her again.

Even when she's on the phone, I get anxious and think she's talking to some guy she's goign to cheat on me with.

She's really a good person, and I strongly believe deep down that she'd never cheat on me again... but on the surface I have all sorts of shit going on... and unfortunately it's always the surface that shows.

WHAT DO I DO!? MOTHER FUCK MOTHE RFUCKER.

You're kidding yourself buddy. She will cheat on you again and again and again, because she knows there are no consequences. She could fuck the entire population of China and you would take her back. So either get used to looking the other way while she's sucking off ex-boyfriends in your living room, or cut her loose. You deserve better.

You won't trust her, she doesn't respect/care enough about you to not cheat. any serious relationship between the two of you is fucked, it hurts but you're either going to have to wait until you're both more mature, or just move on.

7 years? You barely made it 2 months. WTF?

Move on....

Yes, I'm sure they were just sleeping...

some BITCHES are just literal wastes of time.

Haha, that's why I broke up with my ex, because she cheated on me once, and I could never trust her again. Of course we tried it out, and I tried trusting her, but in the end, it was getting ridiclious, so I broke it off. It was for the better.

Dump her for good. Move on. Find someone better. Stop talking to her.

You deserve better kid...

If you want some revenge advice:

Hook up with your friend (boy) and arrange a fake sex with him. You girlfriend should see both of you making love intensely so that she would freak out like hell because your gay and you think your friend is prettier than her or something like that.

If she didn't get jealous and wants to join you in a threesome, find a horse and let that big dick stuck in her ass full of shit.

If all else fails, insert a grenade (the potato masher style or German grenade WWII is preferable, and don't forget to pull the pin!) in her pussy and see what happens. She'll probably thinks its a dildo.

It's up to you to decide. If she felt really terrible for having made that mistake, explain to her that you two need to be honest with each other from now on for this relationship to work. If she didn't, stay away from her and try to forget her.

quote:Originally posted by The_Seventh_Artist:

You deserve better kid...

If you want some revenge advice:

Hook up with your friend (boy) and arrange a fake sex with him. You girlfriend should see both of you making love intensely so that she would freak out like hell because your gay and you think your friend is prettier than her or something like that.

If she didn't get jealous and wants to join you in a threesome, find a horse and let that big dick stuck in her ass full of shit.

If all else fails, insert a grenade (the potato masher style or German grenade WWII is preferable, and don't forget to pull the pin!) in her pussy and see what happens. She'll probably thinks its a dildo.

I'm pretty sure you have to be 13 to join totse. Fuck you're a dumb little piece of shit.

OP, dump her. She fucked a dude while you were together. FUCKED HIM. He repeatidly thrusted his penis into her vagina, while she moaned in ecstasy. Make it a mental image. Her on all four, him thrusting away behind her, she's calling out his name as she orgasms. Or, he's ontop of her, she gazes into his eyes as he slowly inserts him self into her. She looks at him with an intense look of longing, because she missed him and you were just a temporary substitute.

Dude...if you can read that, and say you still have desire for her: you have no testicles. You're not a man.

DUMP HER. He probably blew in her mouth and she loved it.

quote:Originally posted by lordsjohnson:

7 years? You barely made it 2 months. WTF?

Move on....

Agree. That "I fucked Alex" thing you read must have hurt. My condolences, but grow up and forget about her.

Ask her if their is a couch in her living room, if she replies yes, ask her why P didnt sleep on that? Don't get mad, just do what these other guys are doing and just fuck her on and off until you dont care for her anymore. Or get better at fucking.

DUMP HER ASS.

She will destroy you.

I sympathize with you, bro.

You have unconsciously made her your mistress. Your life is in her fuckin hands. Look how she made you go fuckin crazy. Aren't you feeling miserable as fuck?

She cheated on you. Ok. And from the incidents you narrated it looks like she has no respect for you and your feelings. What kinda girl goes out with another guy when she has a BF?

My Advice

As long as you are getting your share, tap the shit. In the meanwhile look out for someone who's worth you. The day you get the new one, dump the bitch in a cold and calculated manner.

DON'T GIVE YOUR POWER AWAY. DON'T TRY TO CONVINCE YOURSELF SHE'S ACTUALLY GOOD - SHE IS NOT.

quote:Originally posted by Mahatma Gandhi:

DON'T TRY TO CONVINCE YOURSELF SHE'S ACTUALLY GOOD - SHE IS NOT.

My birthday is on december 21st like yours kool!

i said FUCK girls along time ago, stick with drugs (painkillers) their way more fun anyway especially if u shoot them!

[This message has been edited by Drug-Demon (edited 02-05-2007).]

Your the bitch of that relationship, dumb her ass and never even talk to her again. And when people ask why you broke up tell them that she was a slut and sleeps with anything that moves. Also to be a real cunt just make shit up about her, tell people she has aids or something because i bet they will belive you.

Dump her, no question. I don't see how you can still trust her at all after any of that.

You deserve far, far, far better and she deserves nothing of what you give her. Dear god, reading that just makes me want to bitchslap the shit out of her, and I'm not violent in the least.

Dude, save yourself a lot of heartache and suffering, end it now (right fucking now) and never, ever, ever look back.