I have been in "love" with my best freind for about two to three years now and am thinking about taking it further. This isn't like the other threads about best friend loves. I want advise on whether I should just try to screw her or try to begin a serious relationship with her.

We started becoming friends in high school when she would always call me and want to hang with me. So we did, but I didn't even like her much at the time. One day she asked me how old I was(don't remember why)and when she found out I was younger than her she said, "Oh, that means you and I can't...". I asked her what she was about to say but even until today she never has told me. She had told me before that she would never go out with a guy that was younger so I guessed that she was going to say she and I could not have a relationship.

Then she got a boyfriend. This didn't trigger me to like her, but during the time that she was with this guy(who was also a close friend of mine)I started to fall for her. One day she asked me for advice bcuz her boyfriend had told her he liked someone else. So I advised her to break it up and she did.

She was miserable and I took advantage and slept with her. I was her first and we continued to have sex a few more times after. Then she had a life changing car accident in Mexico which threatened the lifes of four of her family members. Suddenly she told me she didn't want to screw anymore.

Eventually she ended up going to college and started going out with her exboyfriend again. We stopped talking for almost two years. During this time I completely tossed her out of my life when I realized I had feelings for her, but nothing would end up happening between us.

Then I heard things from people that got me to thinking. My sister said she had talked to her a while back and she mentioned that a song(Let's Get A Little Mud On The Tires)reminded her of me. I thought hard about why she would say this. I remembered that she enjoyed making out in my car in fields so I figured this is what she was talking about. Why would she remember this?

So finally I called her up one day and invited her to a friend's wedding. We have regularly spoken since then. When we first started talking again she was acting really weird. Asking(generally)if I was ready to get married, or if I wanted to have kids. She was always asking me shit like that. Also when we would talk about the short "relationship" we had she would always make it a point of saying she knew it was her fault that we had stopped talking and that she knew she was stupid for going back to her ex.

So I asked her, "Do you still have feelings for me?". Her answer was a simple yes. Suddenly, right after asking her, she drops a bomb on me. She tells me she's still with her ex(also current)-boyfriend. So I get all pissed off bcuz she's been throwing all these signs at me about her feelings for me yet she's still with the other ass-wipe.

Present day-We still speak to each other, but now she has yet another boyfriend whom she says she loves and wants to marry. But, at the same time I can't help but think that she never got over me bcuz when she told me she had feelings nothing happened between us. Also, she's broken up with her boyfriend a couple of times now that she lives in same area again(he lives away)and makes it a point of telling me, as if to test me and see if I will now start something with her. But, I don't do anything bcuz she's stupid.

So, I basically know I shouldn't start a relationship with her bcuz she's stupid, but at the same time I have opportunities to fuck her and I don't do that either.

So what do I do, bcuz I don't know which I want, but I don't want to simply be her best friend anymore?

I think you're second-guessing her intentions far too much.

You act as if every decision she makes revolves around you. Newsflash mate, it doesn't.

I know you won't listen. Hell, I didn't. But you have to respect that fact that she has a life outside of you.

She tells you about it because you're her friend.

That's it.

Fuck her hard.