For the most part I just don't feel anything, at all. Almost the only thing I can feel is anger... I do alot of fucked up things to people, that make all my friends tell me I'm cold hearted and don't have emotions. I've made someone stand with there hands behind there back and punched them in the nuts 20 times - I don't remember why, I've made people stand still while I whip them, tied people up and kicked them, made someone kiss my foot, and just in general beaten the fuck out of alot of people mostly because I wanted there money. I make people pay for protection, or buy contraband from me at exorbinant prices and I'm good at it. I don't feel bad about it, I don't feel good either. I just don't feel anything. Theres definately a number of people that shit there pants when they see me.

Its odd because I used to be really emotional, I'd seriously feel everything around me. I once cried my eyes out because my dog found a squirrel and killed it... I've seen people die now and I just don't give a fuck. The last person was when I was in boot camp the kid in the room above me hung himself, he was my good friend.. Ironically it was the day when his Mom was visiting, I started hearing screaming, everyone on my deck was laughing because it sounded like a troll - it annoyed me so I started banging on the ceiling with a broom yelling at the kid to shut the fuck up. When I kept hearing it, I ran upstairs to fuck him up, and everyone up there was running screaming 911 and shit, I walked in the room and he was on the floor with his Mom throwing a fit over him and everyone saying hes dead. I heard him hanging himself, a big thunk, and his roommate cut him down with another thunk too. Before this I've seen alot of people shot, the first one in elementary I was riding the bus to school and this man ran on and the other people by the bus stop starting shooting at it and a bullet hit a girl who went to the same school as me in the leg. I've known about 40 people that've been killed, alot more that have been shot/stabbed but lived and alot of people that have been locked up. I've been shot at, got robbed at gunpoint once and since I didn't give all my shit up they beat the shit out of me requiring surgery.

A number of all these people were criminals or whatever, and instead of knowing and experiancing all this shit, it hasn't turned me off. All I've ever wanted to be since I was little was a gangster, or a navy seal. Which is ironic since I was also so emotional.



I'd like to get feelings again but I don't know how. In a way I honestly don't care, its just everyone keeps telling me I'm heartless. I don't know what to do. I'm posting mostly because I don't have anyone to talk to about this.

one question are you on opiates?

they tend to make me not give a shit about stuff whatsoever

try and do something that helps someone else it might help or it might just benefit them

i kinda have the same problem my brother nearly got killed in a car crash i didnt care it was just another problem to deal with i do nice things every now and then just so i dont look like a cold fuck to freinds and family

youre soft

Research PTSD?

Do just like addicts do. Up the dosage!

Now is the time to create emotionally charged poetry/music/art.

You won't feel like this forever, so make as much use of it as you can.

Okay?

You're a pussy. I bet you get picked on everyday and you cry about it like a bitch

Rates high among the best Bullshit stories I've ever heard..

*sniffs*

... You take this story and make it into a movie.

But really. just control your anger and quit being a wimp

Law school.

You may as well make some money.

Helpful replies ftw.

Shut the fuck up, you're soft/weak. I've beaten all those things, and I can feel.

I stole a good friends gf. I talked a girl into suicide. I've made atleast 10 girls cry. I've emotinally destroyed people. I talked my mother into divorcing my dad...twice.

The stuff you say, hitting people in teh nuts (Fag), is just physical pain. The mental anguish is a hundred times worse.

Seriously, get over your self. Get a girlfriend, fall in love with her, then have her dump you and tell us you feel nothing.

I have feelings, but at times, I will guarantee I'm more heartless than you. I just don't feel the need to make a teenage angst ridden post about it.

[This message has been edited by arquin (edited 01-12-2007).]

quote:Originally posted by arquin:

Shut the fuck up, you're soft/weak. I've beaten all those things, and I can feel.

I stole a good friends gf. I talked a girl into suicide. I've made atleast 10 girls cry. I've emotinally destroyed people. I talked my mother into divorcing my dad...twice.

The stuff you say, hitting people in teh nuts (Fag), is just physical pain. The mental anguish is a hundred times worse.

Seriously, get over your self. Get a girlfriend, fall in love with her, then have her dump you and tell us you feel nothing.

I have feelings, but at times, I will guarantee I'm more heartless than you. I just don't feel the need to make a teenage angst ridden post about it.





Oh shit, I wouldn't fuck with this dude, he makes bitches cuh-ry yo!

For real though, physical pain is much worse than emotional, atleast in the degrees you're speaking of. When you're getting your finger/toe nails ripped off one by one, having a girl dump you looks like fuckin paradise.

For thousands of years, dictators didn't control massive populations with the threat of telling them that they don't "care about your feelings." No, it's the threat of nails being driven into your hand and being hoisted up on a cross to bake in the sun while being eaten by vultures that scares the shit out of people.



[This message has been edited by SlapinFoFun (edited 01-12-2007).]

quote:Originally posted by SlapinFoFun:

For thousands of years, dictators didn't control massive populations with the threat of telling them that they don't "care about your feelings." No, it's the threat of nails being driven into your hand and being hoisted up on a cross to bake in the sun while being eaten by vultures that scares the shit out of people.

Consider one thing: the mental anguish the people assossiated to the man ebing nailed to the cross go through. That's where the real torture is.

Biggest, toughest guy. Threaten him, he laughs at you. Threaten to kill his family, he'll break in seconds. He wont get hurt, it's mental anguish. It's the most painful torture imaginable.

quote:Originally posted by arquin:

Biggest, toughest guy. Threaten him, he laughs at you. Threaten to kill his family, he'll break in seconds. He wont get hurt, it's mental anguish. It's the most painful torture imaginable.

Still, the threat boils down to physical, not mental anguish, just in this case it is physical damage to his family.

Consider taking ecstacy. It will get you in touch with your emotions, but it won't stop you from being a HARD CUNT WOARHHH LOOK AT HOW TOUGH HE IS

quote:Originally posted by Byss:

Still, the threat boils down to physical, not mental anguish, just in this case it is physical damage to his family.

What the fuck is your point? Physical pain to one's family is NOT physical pain to one's self. Is it?

The threat of EMOTIONAL pain that will make a man break.

quote:Originally posted by arquin:

Shut the fuck up, you're soft/weak. I've beaten all those things, and I can feel.

I stole a good friends gf. I talked a girl into suicide. I've made atleast 10 girls cry. I've emotinally destroyed people. I talked my mother into divorcing my dad...twice.

The stuff you say, hitting people in teh nuts (Fag), is just physical pain. The mental anguish is a hundred times worse.

Seriously, get over your self. Get a girlfriend, fall in love with her, then have her dump you and tell us you feel nothing.

I have feelings, but at times, I will guarantee I'm more heartless than you. I just don't feel the need to make a teenage angst ridden post about it.



Lol you sound like a catty bitch. The nuts comes from catching a case for dislocating someones shoulder, and leaving bruises all over random people then getting snitched on. It hurts like fuck and leaves no marks. I've had issues with cock tease bitches and sluts too but I haven't had to fuck with it since I just got out of 6 months in the halls. Where the fucks my angst? My whole problem is I don't care, and everyone keeps telling me I should.

quote:Originally posted by arquin:

What the fuck is your point? Physical pain to one's family is NOT physical pain to one's self. Is it?

The threat of EMOTIONAL pain that will make a man break.

In the end emotional pain means little to nothing compared to physical pain, especially when emotional is in no way supplemented by physical pain.

So chill out, man.

haha this is just going to turn into yeah whose the bigger badass competition.

To the OP: the lack of empathy you feel is actually not that rare. in all seriousness Sociopathy is on the rise as far as disorders go. And contrary to popular belief a sociopath isnt necessarily out to "get" people. But rather doesnt give a shit about anything that most feel for.

quote:Originally posted by Eye_Of_The_Watcher:

... You take this story and make it into a movie.

quote:Originally posted by arquin:

I just don't feel the need to make a teenage angst ridden post about it.

Yeah, you hurt people emotionally for no reason instead. Good job big man. You're both morons who are too weak to treat others good, it's so much easier to be a self-centered asshole

quote:Originally posted by AquaxMan:

haha this is just going to turn into yeah whose the bigger badass competition.

To the OP: the lack of empathy you feel is actually not that rare. in all seriousness Sociopathy is on the rise as far as disorders go. And contrary to popular belief a sociopath isnt necessarily out to "get" people. But rather doesnt give a shit about anything that most feel for.

Its annoying though, you'd think I'd atleast get satisfaction out of fucking people over.

quote:Originally posted by CatharticWeek:



Law school.

You may as well make some money.

I seccond this.

On a serious note, you sound like my best friend, he just doesnt give a fuck.