Hello all, I recently was on a mushroom trip, and I experienced a very bad experience. I have done mushrooms more than 10 times I would estimate, so I would say that I was more or less -familiar- with the chemical and how it affects me. I have had negative experiences and the like on one or two occasions, but never as extreme as what happened on New Years Eve.

It was a night trip (I have tripped at night before without problems) and after about 20 minutes the psilocybin set in and I began to trip. I started to try to understand things, and after about an hour I came to the conclusion that nothing made sense, and I made no sense to myself. I began scrutinizing who I was and realized that I did not understand why I acted how I did and eventually started falling to depression. I was tripping with 3 other people, 2 were experienced, and one wasn't. I was in my room with the inexperienced one, and the other two were outside loving life and enjoying the way the gravel in my driveway pulsated and changed into pictures.

I asked my friend to talk to me and tell me that everything was alright, but he just sorta rolled over and started whispering about evil with his eyes closed and a grin on his face. I felt that I lost him to the drug, and lost myself in the faces behind my eyelids. I was feeling so bleak and desolate I tried to cry, but I couldn't. It was just too sad... I didn't care if I lived or died, and stumbled outside to be near my other two friends incase I passed out and needed medical attention. For about 3 hours I leaned on the wall in the fetal position feeling SO BAD about EVERYTHING. Not to mention the feeling that everything was trying to do me harm, and my friends were trying to manipulate me into feeling okay when there was absolutely NO WAY that I was okay.

I saw faces and creatures in the shadows, and eyes everywhere staring at me like vultures ready to attack. I came off of the trip around 2AM, and felt good enough to get out of my bed and walk around again.

This experience really wigged me out, as I don't fully understand why it happened and I don't want to experience it again, much less a bad experience on LSD or something heavier. Does anyone have insight as to what happened that put me in such a bad place in my head? Thanks much...

.:EDIT:.

Shit, really sorry I posted this in sex and affection. I would be really grateful if a mod could move it, my bad.

[This message has been edited by Corksil (edited 01-03-2007).]