This weekend has been the worst one of my life, this is more of a vent, but it does have some S&A questions. Be prepared for a long post.

I was recently diagnosed with ADD, because I took ritalin one day in school and it actually helped me focus a lot better than I normally do, so I went to the doctor and I got a prescription.

Ever since then, my dad has always been on my ass about it; "This ritalin had better work otherwise you're fucked, kid" was the first bitching from him. When I take the ritalin, I can focus a lot better, but it also makes me think about past memories that have happened to me and just makes me sad. I decide to stop taking it yesterday. When my dad woke me up to give it to me (for some reason, he thinks I have to take it EVERY DAY, not just at school..keep in mind i'm on winter break right now), but I refused to take it and I told him why. He got extremely pissed about this, started blaming me for all his problems and what not, and eventually kicked me out of his house.

I didn't know where to go, so I went to my old drug dealers house who used to sell me fentanyl and meth. I ended up doing a shitload of coke and freaking out over everything that's been happening, why is doing the coke a big deal? Because with my best friend and ex girlfriend I made a deal that we would never do anything too hardcore again (she was addicted to meth last year).

A little background around her:

She's absolutely beautiful, very easy to talk to, and has led a pretty interesting life.

I met her last year in my bio class and she was dating the boyfriend she has right now.

I began to like her, and she began to like me, we kissed one night that she came over.

(She told me things weren't going so well with her boyfriend)

About 2 days later, she dumps him.

About a week later, she told me she was grounded and couldn't go on a date, this was friday the 13th, ironic eh?

Later that night I ask her what she did all day and she tells me "uhhh..I went on a date with my new boyfriend"

I stopped talking to her for a week, and then she came to me and we became best friends again.

At this point, I was beginning to become friends with her ex-boyfriend, began skating with him, jamming with him, and going to his house, this is important later on.

A month or two passes, and her and I haven't seen eachother for a really long time.

We decide to have this brilliant idea, where I sneak out to her house. Why is this brilliant? Because she lives 20 fucking miles away. I do it anyway, I wasn't expecting any kind of sexual approaches, but I ended up losing my virginity that night.

About a week later, I'm chilling at her ex boyfriends house and he tells me that they had sex like 5 days ago. She did not tell me this, and it was weird because she told me the day after I snuck out to her house that she wasn't a virgin, and had lost it back in december. I confronted her about it, but held in my true feelings of hatred for her over it, and told her that I'm okay with it as long as she's happy.

A month passes and she is back with the first boyfriend. I, am secretly misreble. I began bitching to her about stuff, just bad stuff that had been happening such as: New addictions, fights at home, my mom who passed away in december.

Back in June, she came over and we cheated again. We fell in love, or at least I thought we did. We haven't cheated since.

Recently, probably a few weeks ago, her manipulative piece of shit boyfriend told her that he would break up with her if she still talked to me.

She called me the next day and told me she still wanted to be friends and chill and all that but we had to keep it a secret. This is important later on as well.

Back to what has happened this weekend and what this has to do with her:

So I get kicked out of my house, try coke, and walk out to this mountain right by my house where her and I had laid together and looked at the stars. I called her, and I was freaking the fuck out right now over all this bullshit. I was confused because of the coke, and the only things she said was:

Don't dwell on the past, you will have a life when you're moved out, and to go back to my house.

I walked all the way back to my house, my doors were locked, and my dad wasn't answering the phone. I went to the backyard and called her. I missed a call from her and she left a voice message that said "Hey...Matt I can't talk right now I'm with my dad on the couch, I'll call you when I can"

I waited until 3 a.m. for her to call me, she never did. I fell asleep on the concrete in my backyard, in the wind, with nothing but a thin hoody on.

I wake up at 2 P.M. today with my dad looking down on me. We talk all of it over, he starts shit with me over taking the fucking ritalin,

He hits me, I hit him back, and he calls the cops on me.

He had them detain me until 6.

When I got back home I took the goddamn ritalin and called her, I heard her pick up and then hang up so I was just like hmm maybe she's with her boyfriend.

At 8, I call her again, and her boyfriend is online so I know she isn't with him.

At 9, I I-m her boyfriend who hates me, and he basically tells me that the entire time she's known me that she's just been lying to me so that she doesn't hurt my feelings.

That, she only listens to what I say instead of saying "i dont care" because she doesn't want to hurt my feelings.

I get upset, and call her a shitload of times. She returns from away on Aim and here's how the conversation goes:

me: Is all of this true?

me: do you seriously want to ruin everything we've been through for a boyfriend that tells you lies about me, so that he can get you to hate me?

me: Why didn't you just answer?

me: I don't even know why you just snapped and decided to follow through with what he told you do

her: JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

her: EVERYTHING IS RUINED

and then she signed off.



My questions are, how the fuck am I going to fix all of this?

Her and I have been through some pretty rough shit, and I've always been there for her.

I don't even care if she doesn't want a relationship with me, I just want a goddamn friendship like we had last year.

She answered her phone once after I called her a shitload of times, she was crying and all she said was "look matt..If you call again I'm going to tell my dad"

And her dad hates me, and is crazy pretty much.

That's the last I've heard from her.

What can I say to her to get her to

A. stop letting this fucking asshole rule her entire life

B. bring back our friendship

C. get her to be honest with me again, because I KNOW that what her boyfriend said isn't true. He ALWAYS says stuff like that and it never turns out true.

wait for it to blow over and wait for her to contact you, and if she doesnt then you'll know if she felt like she said then she would have contacted you...or just wait a week or two and call her

thats why next time u fuck around with a chick with a boyfriend u take pics with a camera phone so u can use them to black mail her into more sex ur lucky u got somethin from the whore and u knew she was a whore because she was doin shit with u and she had a boy go get laid elseware there are plenty or sluts problem solved

quote:Originally posted by Kegtapper:

thats why next time u fuck around with a chick with a boyfriend u take pics with a camera phone so u can use them to black mail her into more sex ur lucky u got somethin from the whore and u knew she was a whore because she was doin shit with u and she had a boy go get laid elseware there are plenty or sluts problem solved

Uh, fuck off. I wouldn't ever black mail her for sex. She isn't a whore.

http://tinyurl.com/yktq3l



You wont be able to fix anything with her until you fix your own life. Forget her and concentrate on getting out of where you live. If that means good grades or a shit job, well, life sucks. Good luck.

Your relationship started with cheating. Why are you surprised that it continued that way?

Sure, it sucks, but you could have saved yourself a load of upset by not expecting anything better from her.

Best thing to do is to forget about her, wait for a few years and get out of there.

Jx

you got second hand pussy from a whore what can u expect she was with another guy its not like you two were a couple and hell isnt it obvious that the hoes gonna fuck around on you even if u were a couple her bf should beat your ass i would if some guy was callin my girl all the time and shit quit stalken them fucker u got what it was worth yur just all being desperate now fool

I've maybe called her like once a week before this, and this is stalking? You're an idiot.

She sounds like a cunt. Find a new one.

Honestly, she may have been in the past, but I

have been to her also.

It's not like she cheated to hurt me or something, I don't even care about that right now.

I just care about our fucking friendship, and I'm not going to let her fatass boyfriend ruin that.

From my understanding, you have a friendship based on your sexual desire of her and her desire for you to be her backup/emotional tampon/guy who's there when all the other guys in her life don't have time for her. That's not a friendship, and I don't know why you'd logically want to hold on to it. And it'll never get better.

Maan, stop trying to call her! As hard as it is, you gottta! If things with her and her boyfriend are ruined, she will eventually come to realize that it wasn't really much your fault that her boyfriend is a dick. And she'll call you.

If she stays with her bf, then there is nothing else you can do except just not talk to her. For now at least. If you want, text her, or talk to her on AIM, in like a month, when she's had time to simmer down.

Either way, stop trying to contact her. To her, it seems like you NEED her, let the roles switch. Let her think that she needs you.

lol

Uhhh don't you think you're being a little bit psycho??

If she doesn't answer, she OBVIOUSLY doesn't want to talk to you. Calling fifty more times isn't going to change her mind, if anything it will make the situation worse.

She's a cheating whore, and you're a desperate, angsty kid. Find new friends and forget about her. Deal with your dad for another few years, although he does sound like a dick.

Edit: If that's all it takes to ruin your weekend, and make it the worst of your life... I envy you.

[This message has been edited by firekitty751 (edited 12-24-2006).]

Well maybe I am a little psycho, I don't reall give a shit right now.

^Always finding a way to turn the conversation back onto yourself. *Tsk* *Tsk*.

Well, she called me, talked things over, I'm done.

Later.

I think I'm going to go get drunk for a few days

[This message has been edited by I_like_pie (edited 12-24-2006).]

quote:Originally posted by firekitty751:

Uhhh don't you think you're being a little bit psycho??

If she doesn't answer, she OBVIOUSLY doesn't want to talk to you. Calling fifty more times isn't going to change her mind, if anything it will make the situation worse.

She's a cheating whore, and you're a desperate, angsty kid. Find new friends and forget about her. Deal with your dad for another few years, although he does sound like a dick.

Edit: If that's all it takes to ruin your weekend, and make it the worst of your life... I envy you.



Let me start off by saying, you're a fucking stupid bitch.

It takes a lot more than bullshit like this to ruin my weekend, it takes bullshit that has been built up for years.

My dad has always been a dick, and I could always deal with it, but this was it.

I was fucking stupid to ever meet her.



[This message has been edited by I_like_pie (edited 12-26-2006).]

I dont know what to tell you man, it seems like a shitty situation and I hope it gets better. Kegtapper is a dousch and is probably the biggest fratboy on &T. Also post more pics of the chick.

Dude, that blows....



girls can suck sometimes....

Isn't it funny how wrong you can be about those you love/care about? Makes you wonder what else you could be wrong about.

Basically you need to move on. He's her primary dude, you're her secondary. Lay off the drugs, and if you've ever read my posts you have to understand that means a lot coming from me.

This is the third night in a row that I haven't slept.

Updates:

She unblocked me, and told me all the bullshit about how she's sorry and that our paths will cross another day because we have a connection like no other, but at this time in her life she is "more in love" with him than me.

It's funny how this guy treats her like shit and has made her completely change her crowd type to faggots.

I'm so tired that I can't even sleep.

What drug will knock me out easily?

quote:Originally posted by I_like_pie:



What drug will knock me out easily?

Just relax.

Have a drink of milk, a lick of liquor.

Dude.

Day 1: Nothing

Day 2: I had probably 15 shots of hard liquor throughout the whole time.

Day 3: I have drinken a shitload of milk, no alcohol today though.

If I go insane, I just want you guys to know,

I hate you all more than you can ever imagine.

Man... You DON'T need her.

She's MORE trouble than she's WORTH.

When I'm going through shit, and people ask me if I'm alright, I reply, always, with:

"No, I'm not alright, but I will BE alright.."

Always look to the future, don't look to someone elses.

Pat yourself on the fucking back and forget about this bullshit. Block, delete and do things you enjoy.

I promise you, with paitence and an idea of time, things will pick themselves up once again.

You don't need her.

And don't escape with drugs, because once you enter the world again, it's a bigger disapointment than it was before.

It's not a matter of escaping to the world of drugs, it's a matter of I was happier when I was not trying to be dedicated to anyone, having having sex with two different people that I didn't really care about in the time that I was fighting with her, t while being high, was a lot more fun than sitting around listening to her tell me she loves me, then to do this.

She told me everything about her, I could literally destroy her right now. I'm not going to, but still.

So instead I'll just post it here for you:

I change my mind. I honestly feel like a teenage girl right now, posting gossip that noones ever heard.

Gah. I'm going to drink till I pass out tonight



[This message has been edited by I_like_pie (edited 12-26-2006).]

Sorry dude, you seem a little pathetic. Posting her pictures and 'gossip'.



Move on a little bit aye?

quote:Originally posted by I_like_pie:

...we kissed one night that she came over.

(She told me things weren't going so well with her boyfriend)

That's where you screwed up, kiddo. She's just playing with you.

Unlucky. Beat your dad, tell this abusive whore to get lost, go get a job and move out. Just move on.

Dude, she really doesn't sound worth it. Your devotion is admirable, but I think it's wasted - she's obviously just using you. You keep blaming her boyfriend, but I think if you re-read over your story with a clear mind you'll find that it's all her. She cheated on him, she used you, she's just a manipulative whore and you'd be better off forgetting her.