8 months ago i moved from florida to oregon to be with a very special girl. turns out 8 months later, this very special girl decides she has too much going on in her life for me. I move back to florida and im a total fucking wreck. i lie to myself everyday and tell myself it isnt that bad, but it is. i dream of her every night and everything i see reminds of her. i havent bought xmas gift for my family yet, havent bothered to go and find a job or anything. i dont have any motivation for anything these days at all. if totse can help, awesome. if not, who cares.

For now, murder/suicide?

Do something easy, like play playstation or do crosswords or read or something like that. The activity will keep your mind working, and it's not difficult to do. Eventually, you'll start to function again.

Take it from a guy who's been there. Star Wars Battlefield 2 got me out of it.

*worships the game*

This is why people, at a very young age, need to understand that loving yourself first and foremost is the key to being happy. You became obsessed with her, and after a while, I bet she just got sick of having some love-sick puppy of a boy around her. Hell, wouldn't you? I know that I would after a while.

So, though, now you're back home, and need to figure out a reason to live, right? Well, that's a silly question, but it must be how you're thinking. I know it was that way after I made this same mistake. Now really though, you need to understand that she obviously isn't the girl for you.

So forget about her, and start LOVING YOURSELF. Put her away in a drawer in your brain, and do something for yourself. Go get your hair cut, and see about tanning on the beach (hell, even in winter you guy's have good weather... Haha).

Find out about kick boxing classes, or some Cuban Judo (I'm sure you've got some interesting martial art down there). Learn how to surf, or water ski. Maybe go take some college classes, or do some community service. Hell, go get a fucking new job!

But for the love of all that is Binary DON'T SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE ON YOUR ASS. If you don't go out and find somethings that'll make you feel better (find your place in this world, and start loving yourself above all others), you'll be doomed for forever repeat this same mistake. You are the most important person in your life. Stop trying to disprove that point.

i know what you mean, it just seems a little too early to put that girl away in my mind. sometimes when i think of her, it makes me really happy. other times it makes me angry and pissed because of what she did too me. the thought of her sleeping with someone else now makes me wanna break shit/shoot heroin. im trying to start something new, just takes time i guess.

I think you might have clinical depresseion.

You need professional help.

seek help (psychiatric)...

Find girlfriend to build confidence...

get job...



but before all this, you need a healthy dose of self denial...or liquid confidence.

Acceptance is better than denial and alcoholism, MJR.