I've wanted to write something like this for ages. I always start, write a few words then stop and erase it because it's so pathetic. I don't know hot to have a healthy relationship with anyone.

where to start where to start.

My parents are both very smart. I've always had the intellectual scientific side of things emphasized in my development. I've had satisfying relationships with people. But always it ends and I feel as shitty as ever.

I'm attractive, I'm in good shape, I'm a martial arts champion; but still I think I have an inferiority complex. I start each term with a great deal of optimism, I see girls I like, I want to talk to them. Then when I try I come off as really weird or creepy. I become more depressed as time goes by, my marks go down, I'm noticebly less happy and attentive. I do every thing to be a good person, not in a religious or dogmatic way.

People like me I guess.

I have some old friends who I don't think are very good people, I'm trying to gradually not hang with them anymore. it's really hard, I don't want to give up on being someone who can really care about people, I've made bad choices about people. My brother has autism spectrum disorder so to a small extent I might be effected by this as well.

I focus on the negative in my life and the whole world so much, I can't even think that anyone could want to be with me or care about me in a passionate way.



[This message has been edited by Kune (edited 12-20-2006).]

I suggest just going out to clubs for the sake of getting out and enjoying life. I had a pretty hard time relating to people when puberty hit and after a string of mundane relationships I realised that I was just really bored of the average. Partying and going out by myself was great, but it left me with a numb kind of feeling. I did the whole falling in love thing and then he dumped me because his friend liked me (WHICH WAS MY FAULT HOW?! I ASK YOU).

The thing is, whether it's real or not you need to do things that make you feel good, and not have any regrets. If you ask a girl out and she dumps you then at least you tried.

Whatever you do, just know that even if you feel stupid afterwards or whatever, be able to laugh at yourself when you look back on it with your friends. Things tend to fall into place when you don't focus on them.

[This message has been edited by azalie (edited 12-20-2006).]

quote:Originally posted by Kune:

I've wanted to write something like this for ages. I always start, write a few words then stop and erase it because it's so pathetic. I don't know hot to have a healthy relationship with anyone.

where to start where to start.

My parents are both very smart. I've always had the intellectual scientific side of things emphasized in my development. I've had satisfying relationships with people. But always it ends and I feel as shitty as ever.

I'm attractive, I'm in good shape, I'm a martial arts champion; but still I think I have an inferiority complex. I start each term with a great deal of optimism, I see girls I like, I want to talk to them. Then when I try I come off as really weird or creepy. I become more depressed as time goes by, my marks go down, I'm noticebly less happy and attentive. I do every thing to be a good person, not in a religious or dogmatic way.

People like me I guess.

I have some old friends who I don't think are very good people, I'm trying to gradually not hang with them anymore. it's really hard, I don't want to give up on being someone who can really care about people, I've made bad choices about people. My brother has autism spectrum disorder so to a small extent I might be effected by this as well.

I think about suicide every day. I focus on the negative in my life and the whole world so much, I can't even think that anyone could want to be with me or care about me in a passionate way.

Nothing is going to change, This is your Life, and it's ending one minute at a time.

For the next 60 Years, You will suffer the same hardships and struggles daily, Until you reach that point on no return. It's unavoidable, And if you don't do it now, Your just going to live the rest of your life wishing you had the courage too.

Tell you what Brian, If I'm 60 and in horrible languishing pain I'll come and visit you for some old fashioned murder/suicide.

Thanks azalie. I'm just being stupid, life wouldn't be worthwhile if I didn't feel like shit sometimes.

quote:Originally posted by Kune:

Tell you what Brian, If I'm 60 and in horrible languishing pain I'll come and visit you for some old fashioned murder/suicide.

Thanks azalie. I'm just being stupid, life wouldn't be worthwhile if I didn't feel like shit sometimes.

Yeah ok, Your a joke.

Your going to end up marrying at 30+ to some subpar woman since your personality is a piece of shit.

quote:I want to talk to them. Then when I try I come off as really weird or creepy. I become more depressed as time goes by, my marks go down, I'm noticebly less happy and attentive.

Your brothers a piece of shit who can't operate a forklift so he's going to be living off of welfare for the rest of his life, God damnit your family sucks, kill yourself and your brother and we won't have anymore retarded trash living among us

quote:My brother has autism spectrum disorder so to a small extent I might be effected by this as well.

Your going to end up living life as lower middle class trash , working physical labor jobs, since you obviously are to stupid to grasp the concept of school. = no college = no decent job. quote:

I become more depressed as time goes by, my marks go down

You are what we call a FAILURE.

Enjoy your life.





[This message has been edited by brianSCENE (edited 12-20-2006).]

Ignore Brian, he's your typical &t kidiot trying to make it big with dipshit slurs. Obviously some people can't comprehend that rants are for SG and real discussions exist on other boards, or maybe he's just a fuck head because he FAILS at life.

Self-pwnt asshat.

Hahaha this is starting to cheer me up. My parents are very intelligent and thus wealthy. When I say my marks are droping I mean from 90 to 70, 80's, in second year university science courses. My brother isn't going to need welfare because my family has MONEY. You on the other hand seem so insecure with yourself that you can't even see your own failings, you're probably weak ugly and in a very hard place, I feel a little bit sorry for you. Attractive girls ask me out, unfortunatly the type of girl I'm into is usually smart and shy and for some reason that intimidates me. Luckily I learn from things over time.

I'm positively in a glowing mood right now. I think I'll go to the old Ju-jits and choke out some fools.

quote:Originally posted by brianSCENE:

Your going to end up living life as lower middle class trash , working physical labor jobs, since you obviously are to stupid to grasp the concept of school. = no college = no decent job.

Profile for brianSCENE:

Occupation: Unemployed.

Location: Seoul South Korea

Interests: Drugs, Sex, Girls, Music

:/

quote:Originally posted by azalie:

Ignore Brian, he's your typical &t kidiot trying to make it big with dipshit slurs. Obviously some people can't comprehend that rants are for SG and real discussions exist on other boards, or maybe he's just a fuck head because he FAILS at life.

Self-pwnt asshat.

lol

quote:Originally posted by that retard up there:

Yeah ok, Your a joke.

Your going to end up marrying at 30+ to some subpar woman since your personality is a piece of shit.

Brian, take a look in the mirror and look yourself right in the eyes. Tell yourself that it is YOU who has the shit personality.

Only then will you speak the truth, you whining self-hating faggot.

quote:Originally posted by Tokolosh:

Profile for brianSCENE:

Occupation: Unemployed.

Location: Seoul South Korea

Interests: Drugs, Sex, Girls, Music

:/

Hmmmmmmm... See Kune it could be alot worse..

quote:Originally posted by Kune:

I see girls I like, I want to talk to them. Then when I try I come off as really weird or creepy.

Act weird if you want, don't bother acting normal, there is no such thing (actually there is, but it's shit). Be more confident.

Maybe you're autistic too :O

brianSCENE=CarbonB??

:O