Ok, I'm not sure if it's becvause I'm due on, but this is well and truley fucking with me.

So not long ago I found a bracelet and belt under my bfs bed. (From ages ago, and bear in mind he's still got some of his exs stuff, like 4 of 'em either have a pictures, inc naked ones, on the computer, or had a few pics on the wall-some of which he took down only recently- and ther random things)

He said that they (the belt and bracelet) were off some random whore he fucked, I said they look tacky and ugly, he agreed and said he can't even remember her name.

Then the other night his mate was here and they were talking about her for some reason, (bear in mind we'd been drinking) and he said that she went and told this guy who liked her "he makes me cum so hard", I was alright with the fact he mentioned he'd shagged some girl. Up until that. It just totally turned my stomach.

And we argued over it after because we were in bed hardly talking, and I said something like, "the bracelet and belt we found under the bed... were they hers?" and he went really quiet and said yea, they were.

But he told me he'd never fucked her in nhis bed and they went to hers.

I'll wait for you to find the flaw...



Ok, right, not sure if you've cottoned on, but the flaw is why the FUCK her belt and bracelet were under his bed if she never went back to his.

They've obviously fucked more than once, "he makes me cum so hard" isn't really something that makes you think it was a one off thing.

But What Makes it worse is that it was apparently quite a while ago. No idea how long.

But fuck, it's really annoying me, what makes it worse is that I can't have ago at him and I just want him to say sorry for saying anything about it and making me feel fucked up.

But it's not like I'm annoyed he's ever slept with anyone, it's not like I'm annoyed with him for having a life. I'm annoyed because I didn't need THAT kind of detail.

I'm just now hoping this makes sense.

Sorry if it doesn't.

It's not irrational, however, what's already happened is in the past, and you can't do anything about it.

If you're curious about dates, it would probably be best to find a way of contacting her.

Why would I want to talk to her?

I just find it horrible. It's not the fact he did it, it's the fact that he said that she told people she loved it right in front of me. It just put a nasty picture in my head.

A slip of the tongue, I suspect, and nothing more. If it makes you feel any better, think of some other guy who's made YOU cum.

But that's the thing.

He's the first guy that's managed it.

The second guy I've slept with though, and the first was just, that I remember, a bit bigger than him, so that's always a good thing to make me not care bout her.

But then I go back to wanting to gut her.

And I think he knew what he was saying, and he wasn't talking to me as much as his mate, but I was still sat there and now I just feel weird and murderous, lol.