nice guys finish last ....

but am i finishing last? am i a nice guy? do i lye in bed at night not being able to sleep? if i dont am i taking peoples feelings into account? if i do am i taking my feeling into account? ...

can i feel sorry for myself for whats happened in the last month? or did i deserve it for not saying 'enough'? am i justified for hurting people for want they have done to me? NO? YES? maybe? my life seems to be spinning out of control. can i stop it and still make everyone else happy? ...

or at this point can i only make myself feel happy? ... can i feel happiness? can i feel like a man? or am i forever a boy? why do poeple like the person i am? .. is it because they can sense the anger in me, the sadness, the hopelesness. will i ever let that dog out of me that wants to kill, mame and lie? or do i not poscess this animal, this primal instinct? i need answers! i need solutions! i need a friend that requires nothing from me. i need someone who will not hurt me ...

but does such a creature exsist? am i to be forever hurt? do i need to hurt others for them to treat me right? it seems so! but in doing this am i hurting myself? so many questions but still no answers ... still no insight. still no relief. this ill feeling i have what does it mean? what does it seek to prove? is it that i have lost something inportant? trust? .. or maybe love .. or hope .. or compasion .. do i feel sorry for anyone anymore? .. id have too! wouldnt i? can i feel pity? or has my pity turned to anger and sadness? lonliness?

maybe this ill-feeling is this instinct, this 'dog' trying to break free!!! should i let it, and become something ive never been before. and win, or should i stay a 'nice guy' and 'finish last' so to speak.

[This message has been edited by freak-or-die (edited 11-26-2006).]

'tis painful to read without paragraphs my friend.

true, paragraphs are your friend.

but we all feel like this sometikmes.

all summer i felt like my friends were pieces of sht and i just gave up and decided to die alone.

now last week one of my old friends just called out of the blue and asked me if everything was ok and that everyone was really worrying about me.

hang in there, it gets better, trust me

quote:Originally posted by Bean_Doodle:

true, paragraphs are your friend.

but we all feel like this sometikmes.

all summer i felt like my friends were pieces of sht and i just gave up and decided to die alone.

now last week one of my old friends just called out of the blue and asked me if everything was ok and that everyone was really worrying about me.

hang in there, it gets better, trust me



So are capital letters.

You're not a nice guy,

you're not a bad guy.

You're you, no explanation.

Change it or learn to love it.

It's that simple. The universe isn't out to get you.

If you need to; pack your bags, move to a new town, start a new life, start as a new person.

Right now it sounds like you are making your life shit.

You will get over this, it's just a matter of how much time (and happiness) you will waste on this planet before that happens.

Take your meds.

quote:Originally posted by half-wit goon:

Take your meds.

QFT

yeah i agree up ur fucking meds you asshole. God if your an emo kid i could just kill you, if you havent done it yourself already. Just make sure you do it really painfully like being dragged behind a bus, because life is all pain right? Fucking outcast geek douchebags.

Find yourself, mate.

Stop questioning who you are, and find the things you like. Envelop yourself in these things, and they will tell you who you are.

quote:Originally posted by ZeppelinRules:

Comfortably Numb?

Thanks, :S now I have the lamest song ever stuck in my head!

^ Lame? It only contains two of the best guitar solos ever recorded.

quote:Originally posted by stab:

^ Lame? It only contains two of the best guitar solos ever recorded.

Apparently, but I just find it overrated and morbid. I like uplifting music!

Different tastes I guess.

Flock, he wrote it about heroin, in the midst of his addiction. It's morbid because that's where he was.

Zeppelin, you rock dude \m/

quote:Originally posted by Flock:

Originally posted by stab:

^ Lame? It only contains two of the best guitar solos ever recorded.

Apparently, but I just find it overrated and morbid. I like uplifting music!

Different tastes I guess.

Songs about heroin are uplifting.

quote:Originally posted by gandumaster:

yeah i agree up ur fucking meds you asshole. God if your an emo kid i could just kill you, if you havent done it yourself already. Just make sure you do it really painfully like being dragged behind a bus, because life is all pain right? Fucking outcast geek douchebags.



go die you synical fag

i hate people like you, if i was emo, id be complaining ... BUT if you take time to read it then you will see that im infact asking questions